March 1st 1977

Today was a perfect day.

I had the best class of Potions ever. James and his insufferable gang weren't there because they are all in the hospital wing. Remus has very severe scratching over his body, to be expected as yesterday was full moon, but the strange thing is all of his unbearable friends have very similar injuries to his. There's something very strange, about it… but today I don't care what they were up to.

"Well let's have a little challenge today" said Slughorn. "In partners I want you to brew me correctly the Draught of the Living Death." General cheers were heard around the classroom. "But" interrupted Slughorn "your partner cannot be of the same house" the cheer was replaced by discontent "Because I'll be giving 20 points to each student and I don't want all 40 points go to a single house" Slughorn smiled and clapped his hands in the air "The team that finishes first will win the points. Get to work."

Suddenly the noise of chairs moving and voices talking indistinct chat were heard when suddenly a beautiful figure appeared at my desk.

"Can I work with you?" asked Lily shyly.

I was so surprised by this that I smiled a little bit too broadly.

"Yes, of course" I said courteously "Sit, please"

And she did, I couldn't believe it, Lily was sitting at my table, because she had requested it. The fact she was the one who asked, meant a lot, meant that I've convinced her of my good will towards her. I haven't call her by that name, since I sworn I wouldn't and ever since I've always treated her with all kinds of attentions, in an attempt to prove my good will and to gain her trust, so we can be friends… and hopefully in a not very distant day more than friends.

"So let's start" she said to me casually. And so we did, we took all the ingredients out, start weighing on the scales to get the exact measures established in the book. I started cutting the sopophorous bean when…

"No. Don't cut them!" said Lily, quickly taking the knife out of my hand. I looked at her with a bewildered look on my face; that was what the book said we should do. She took a silver dagger out of her bag and handed it to me.

"Here, crush them with the flat side, the juice will come out more easily" she looked at me while she took a shred of red hair out of her face, she looked so beautiful.

I wasn't surprised to see she was right after all she's very good at potions, my grandmother was wrong; Lily is more talented than many pure-bloods I know. I made a little note in my book about the use of the silver dagger as I did this I took a quick look around, everyone seemed very concentrated in their potions, but I got the hint that we were the ones that had advanced the furthest, but I really didn't care if we won or not, I already had my prize. Lily was sitting next to me, talking to me, working with me, considering me a friend.

She began stirring the potion counterclockwise like the book said, we were in the final part of the process; we just needed it to turn pale pink. But after several minutes of stirring it still was as purple as it was in the beginning.

"Is not working?" she said biting her lip "Are you sure the book says counterclockwise?" she asked, looking intently at the potion as if she was demanding it with her mind to change its colour.

I looked again at the book, the instruction was right. "Yes, that what it says here"

Lily shook her head "No, let's do it clockwise"

"How about one clockwise and one counter clockwise?" I suggested, she agreed and started stirring again, but the colour remained the same.

"How about…" I was trying to think about some other option that could work "7 is the most powerful number in the magical world so why don't we do 7 counter clockwise and one clockwise"

Honestly I never thought it would work, it was a wild, spur of the moment idea, but it did, suddenly the colour started to turn to a pale pink. I will always remember the look on her face; it was like when you give a young child the toy he has most longed for.

"It worked! It worked!" she repeated happily and her hand flew into the air, Slughorn approached us immediately. "We've got it!" she said joyfully, clapping her hands.

"Congratulations! It's perfect!" Slughorn looked very satisfied "The points are all yours" She looked at me with such a sweet smile on her face.

"We have the winners here" announced Slughorn, sounds of disappointment were heard all over the classroom. "Have a wonderful afternoon. Class dismissed" finished Slughorn. Everyone started to pack their things and so did we.

"Well" said Lily nervously as she stood up to leave "it was great to work with you" she pulled her hair behind her ear "see you around" and she left.

I don't think I've been this happy in… I cannot remember ever feeling this happy!

March 13, 1977

"Lily, Lily" I yelled so she could hear me, finally she turned.

"Hi Severus" she said casually, but I could see it in her emerald eyes, something was troubling her.

"You forgot your History of Magic book" I handed it to her.

"Oh thanks" she said distractedly, her mind just seemed to be somewhere else.

"Are you feeling all right? I've seen you very absentminded lately, yesterday at potion's class you almost forgot to put beetles in your Wit Sharpening Potion and you never miss, you are the best at Potions" she smiled timidly again "And today you forgot your book of History of Magic, subject that you love although everyone finds it awfully boring"

"I'm all right, is just that I have some things in my mind" she answered. But there was something in her voice that made me feel worried and suddenly, to my great disgust, Remus appeared. I immediately took out my wand.

"I come in peace Severus" said Remus with a clear phoney conciliating tone in his voice.

"I just want to have a word with Lily" said Remus casually. Still I didn't move an inch.

"Alone if you don't mind" He added, this disgusted me deeply but I left although I didn't wander of, I stayed near from where they were. What did Remus wanted to talk with Lily about?

"Lily… um… well… see" Remus started sounding nervous. I started to worry.

"James will ask you out tomorrow" I laughed, I had worried in vain that was nothing of importance, happened all the time. Lily tried to interrupt him, but Remus continued.

"I know this is nothing new to you, he has asked you... a hundred times maybe... and well... not in the most proper manners, I must add" Lily smiled.

"But Lily" Remus continued sounding very serious "He's changed you don't know how much, he no longer hexes for the pleasure of doing it, he has stopped being the bigheaded Quidditch-Player who likes to show off every time he can, and you are not going to believe it... he has been able to keep himself out of detention for a month... a whole month." Both Lily and Remus laughed, and I did too. These were clearly lies; of one thing I'm sure, James will never stop being a vain little jerk.

"He's reformed, and you don't know how difficult is to reform a Marauder, and he's done it for you, because he loves you, he doesn't have just... some crush on you... he truly loves you"

"Yeah right…" said Lily sounding upset. "He's flirted with half the school, Carol, Julia, Natalie, Yulia, Nadja, and so many others" she folded her arms and frowned.

"Wow, you surely have kept good track of all of them" said Remus surprised.

"Me… no!!... is just that… well.." Lily was having trouble finding something to say.

"Lily…" said Remus slowly and smiling broadly "do you have feelings for James?"

"You are crazy!!" Lily yelled at him, and started to walk as fast as she could, Remus rushed to grab her arm.

"Ok, ok, ok, I won't push on the subject. Just let me finish" Remus released her arm. "Yes he likes to flirt, but just to attract attention, it doesn't mean anything." Remus looked deeply into her eyes "For years the only girl he has ever mentioned is you, he only has eyes for you… believe me" Remus made a long pause.

"Think about it, think about what I've told you" finished Remus

"Um... does James know that... you've talked to me" asked Lily sounding nervous.

Remus shook his head and walked away. Lily seemed extremely puzzled, she was trying to figure out whether what Remus had told her was true or not.

But it isn't true, it can't be true. There isn't something in the world strong enough to make him change… he could have not changed… that's impossible.

March 14, 1977

For what I heard yesterday, I spent the whole day expecting some kind of attention-attracting event because every time James has asked Lily out, he has made sure the whole school finds out. That's why when I saw them sitting quietly in the bench under the shadow of the beach tree I worried, but still I thought the chance of her saying yes, was near to zero. Either way I was going to find out.

"Lily... I... just... well I was wandering..." James started sounding nervous. He actually sounded nervous… I mean I have never heard James sound nervous about anything.

"Would you, please..." James paused as if what he was going to say was a very difficult thing to say, as if he hadn't said it a hundred times before. "Go out with me" said James, in voice that lacked his usual arrogance, and that even sounded insecure.

I could see it in his hazel eyes he was pleading her to say yes as he timidly held his hand; he seemed dreadful to hear a "no" for an answer. And when I saw the way she was looking back at him, I knew… it's so extremely painful to write this… I knew she would say yes, and still her words hurt me more than I could ever describe.

"Yes, James I'll go out with you" she said looking happier than I have ever seen her before. His eyes also glowed with a sparkle of absolute joy, after all the girl of his dreams had just said yes.

"Thanks, thanks, thanks" repeated James over and over "You tell me day, the time, where do you want to go, what do you want to do..." he was talking really, really fast. And to hush him up she… she kissed him… I froze with astonishment, anger and hurt, a lot of hurt.

This has shattered me completely. HE is my number one enemy, and that's what hurts me the most!. If it had been someone else… anyone else… it would've been painful but the fact that is him, makes the pain to be simply unbearable. There are many others in this school why it had to be him. WHY HIM?! He is a big-headed and self-centred idiot, how come she doesn't see it, but I'm confident the day she does, she'll ditch him, and that day is not far from today.