SEBASTIAN14 CLARY 12 CLARYS POV
they followed me up stairs and into my room
"what are you doing?" I asked
"Just want to see a drawing"said Jace
"no"
"why?"
"because"
"we helped you"
"no"
"please?"
"fine" letting out a sigh "of what?"
"anything"said Johnathon
I pull out my sketch pad
"sit" I said they all sit on the floor and I sit on my desk chair flipping through my sketch
pad seeing that it's the sketch pad I draw all my dreams in I go to put it back in the
drawer when it's ripped out of my hands
"hey!give it" I say putting my hand out for it
"you said we could look"Jace said
"not in that one please give it back"
"why?let me guess it's probably full of pictures of me"
"no just give it" he opened it
I cover my face with my hands
"these are awesome"Johnathon said
"where is that?"Sebastian stops on the picture I dream of a lot there's a small house surrounded by endless green fields of grass
"i don't know" I say
"how do you not know?"Jonathon asks while Jace is studying it
"that's the sketch pad I draw my dreams in" I mumble
"what?"Johnathon asks
"i said that's the sketch pad I draw my dreams in"
"oh its pretty"
I smile "thanks"
he ventured on seeing all my dreams I felt a little uncomfortable I mean they were
practically watching my dreams I guess they noticed this Jace handed it to me but I
accidentally dropped it revealing the last page full of my hand writing I went to pick it but
"what's this?"Jace asked looking at the last page
"give it back" I said
"we want to see more please or I'll read it"
"no"
"they say when you dream of someone they're thinking of you?"
"fine!just don't read anymore of it"
"on one condition"
"what"
"we get to pick what we see"
they were looking through my drawers flipping through the sketch books I looked at
Sebastian
"Sebastian"
"I'm sorry but we are curious"
"no your not you just think you're going to find pictures of you guys but there not in
there"
I realized what I said to late they were looking everywhere in my room until
"i found it!" Jace yelled
"no give it"
"why"
"because it's mine"
"so it's about us"
"please don't"
JACES POV
I finally found it conveniently titled JACE JOHN AND SEB GET YOUR FILTHY
HANDS OFF MY SKETCH PAD
knowing it was about either us or the guy she has a crush on because none of the other
sketchpads told us to not look through it
"i found it!"i yelled just loud enough to get their attention
"no give it" it had to have some pretty secretive stuff
"why?"
"because it is mine"
"so its about us"
"please don't" she looked like she just gave up she didn't seem angry just like there was
no hope oh how it pained me to see that face but the guys were there and me hugging
here and saying I wouldn't look through it would be weird so I turned around and looked at it sure enough the first page had me on it but I had wings and a halo I looked up at
Clary she was crying Sebastian grabbed the sketch pad out of my hand and held it to
Clary usually we could tell if she was fake crying or not by giving her the sketch pad if
she sat down with it hugged against her chest or if she was drawing on it it was fake but
if she put it down without looking at it it was real but none of us has ever seen her do
this before she threw it across the room screaming about art being stupid and artists
being stupid because they draw everything they see(an I don't really think so but I
noticed she almost always say 'I wanted to draw it) she then fell to the floor saying she
failed Sebastian sat down next her she rapped her arms around him and cried into his
chest I wish I could be the one hugging her making her feel safe
"what do you mean by you failed?"Sebastian asked after her crying decreased
"i tried so hard not to draw those pictures... I ripped them shredded them but I
always had …...another one the next day"she started crying again I looked through the
rest of the pages sure enough there wee about 30 pages torn out but the other pages were a little frightening the majority of them included us dying then I realized she wasn't
crying because we got it she was crying because of what she drew
"I'm sorry Seb I don't mean those pictures they just happened"
"it's okay the boys still love you and even if they don't I always will" she smiled I love
her smile I looked at Johnathon and he had just put Clarys phone down when there was a knock on the door he looked a little guilty Sebastian got up to get it
"look Clary about the pictures I'm sorry I looked I was just curious"
she was crying again "no I don't...hate...you ….i couldn't …...stop"
"please stop crying" but she kept going and before I knew it I was sitting next to her
trying to calm her down just then Simon walked in
"are you okay?Clary"Simon said running over to her I got up right before Sebastian came in
Clary looked up at Simon she wasn't crying anymore
"oh come on I'm not a mind reader"
she blinked he sat down next to her she rapped her arms around his stomach and buried
her face in his chest
"what happened?"
"they fnod sky ch pd" is all I heard her voice muffled by his chest
"it's okay Clary you don't mean it we all know that please stop crying"
she didn't stop
"come on it's not like it's the death note and I believe no matter how hard you try you
would never be light"
she brought her face up
"i know"
he got up and held his hand out to Clary who took it they both walked straight out of the
room then Sebastian then Johnathon then me we all followed them to the living room
where they were sitting on the couch we dropped back to watch without them knowing
Clary was explaining what happened she started crying and Simon put his arm around
her comforting her she put her head on his shoulder we all tensed we all loved Clary as
our little sister and didn't want to see her heart broken by someone so close to her
"they all hate me Simon" she said
"why would they hate you?"
she looked at him
"just kidding they don't hate you"
"yes they do Si"
"well I still love you"
"love you to Si"
Sebastian was getting up pretending to have just walked in me and Johnathon following
we all sat down
"so what's up sis feeling better?"
"yep thanks to Si" she kissed his cheek I got mad for some reason
"who text me anyways?"
"me"Johnathon said
she got up and hugged him "thanks I don't know what I would have done without Si wait how did you know to text him"
"i went to your recently contacted list and he came up as the recentest"
"oh well thanks anyway"
just then Simon got a text
"hey Clary" Simon said
"yes Si?" she asked
"i got to go Rebecca coming over"
"tell her I said hi"
"okay will do"
Clary and Simon walked to the door
"bye Si"
"bye Clare"
they hugged I was glad he left
"so is Rebecca his girlfriend?"i ask when she walks back in hoping it's a yes
"no" Clary says
"then who is she and why is she more important than you?"
"she's his older sister and she lives somewhere far I forgot where but he hardly sees her
and so yeah" she says sitting down on the couch