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Chapter Four: Ride of Her Life

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Mikan's POV

10:24 am

I was delighted by the sound of galloping, the smell of lush green grass and carrots. I led myself to the stable and took out the animal inside. I felt its hair and smiled "White Castle"

White Castle – he's my horse, well not exactly mine – I go to his stable every week and pay him a visit. According to the description of some people, he's white. I have never ridden him, but it's my goal that I will. I took out an apple from my bag and offered it to him, he accepted it and ate it in one bite. I love White Castle.

"This is stupid" Mr. Negativity commented – or should I say, Natsume?

I forced Natsume to come with me since the owner of White Castle told me that I can only ride him if somebody's riding with me. White Castle's owner couldn't ride with me since he's busy attending to other customers who'd like to ride Black Ninja or some other horse.

"I hate horses" Natsume said, taking a gulp of his beer. He was drinking…AGAIN. It pissed me off.

"Well, I can only ride White Castle if somebody rides with me. Hotaru's too busy to bother coming all the way here just to ride with me, White Castle's owner is busy as well and everybody's too busy!! You, on the other hand are just busy smoking & drinking – so I guess that you can come with me" I said, taking Natsume's hand and pulled him.

"No way am I going to ride some horse…especially with you!!!"

"NATSUME! PLEASE!" I begged, taking hold of his arm and pulling it like some five-year-old girl who wants to ride on the merry-go-round. I've been only blind for two years, but I don't remember how long I've had leukemia, I think three years. I'm not sure. But I do know that my cancer has been keeping me from my passion of riding horses.

I missed it, so.

Natsume's POV

I really hate horses.

I hate the way they neigh. The way they trot or gallop, the way they slobber all over your hand if you offer them food. I think I had a bad experience with a horse once. Don't think that I'm scared of them. They just remind me of Mikan. And that's not a really nice thing to remind you of.

I sat down on the bench beside the stable & took out a fresh cigarette. I took out my lighter and lit it up and sighed with satisfaction. I watched that moron feel around for a brush for that damn horse and brushed its hair. She's so stupid.

She smiled weakly as she felt the mane and rubbed her eyes, as if she was crying. I stopped, wait she is crying!! She removed her black sunglasses and wiped her eyes. What the hell was wrong now?

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked, removing my cigarette from my mouth and stepped on it. I walked up to her as she sat down on a stool beside the horse.

"I've always wanted to…sniff…ride White Castle…and now you don't want to!! This…sniff…could be my only chance to ride him…so…"

What a baby!!

And yet, I hate to admit it – but judging by the condition she is in now… I mean having leukemia and being blind at the same time must be one hell of a difficulty. Especially when you're some idiotic moron. Ugh. I'm not saying I pity her it's just that…

"Fine. I'll ride with you" I grunted.

Damn. I'm so stupid.

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Mikan's POV

At that moment he agreed to ride with me, my heart leapt with extreme bliss. He doesn't know how much I've been waiting to ride White Castle. After this long waiting of visiting his stable every so often and wanting so much to ride on White Castle, it has finally come true. Yay!

But we just stood there.

"Natsume, help me up White Castle"

There was a moment's pause.

"No" he said dryly.

"Natsume!! Come on!!!" I cried.

"No"

"Natsume!! Please!! I've been waiting to ride on White Castle for so long, how can I possibly ride on him if you don't help me up?!?!"

Silence.

I felt two hands hold my waist and put me up White Castle. I smiled. He was listening. I heard him get on White Castle as well. He held on to the rope that was attached to White Castle and put my hands on it as well. This could be the happiest day of my life.

I could hear the clickity-clack of White Castle's hooves as we exited the stable, the smell of flowers and grass signaled me that we were outdoors. The blackness I could only see turned pale red, telling me that the sun was shining right above my eyes. I could cry of joy.

White Castle neighed with delight. He started trotting, I could hear the grass being stomped on. It was a nice sound.

Afterwards, I could hear him galloping. The speed was thrilling. I could feel the wind blowing against my brown hair and my face. I held onto Natsume tight, I could feel his discomfort as I held onto him tight. I felt White Castle jump over things. It was so wonderful.

Natsume's POV

She held onto me tight. It added extreme discomfort on what I was feeling now. Stupidity.

I felt her smile against my back. It was kinda ok to feel that you made someone happy. I mean, usually the only thing I accomplish is a finished bottle of beer.

"Natsume?"

"Yeah, what is it now?"

She started whimpering. Oh God, what the hell was wrong with this cry baby? Every minute she starts crying about different reasons.

"Man! Can't you ever stop crying?"

"I'm…I'm sorry Natsume. It's just that…thank you!!!" she sputtered. White Castle made a stop at that point to have a drink of water in a pond.

I looked back, she wasn't holding onto me anymore. But she was crying, rubbing her eyes hardly. And wiping her nose with her sleeve. I felt like I was baby sitting a pre-school dropout.

"C-Can we ride some more?" she cried, holding onto me again.

-Flasback-

"Can we ride some more, Natsume?"

"But we've rode on it seventeen times. I'm getting sick of this and this stupid carnival" I said, staring at the merry-go-round that was before me. It carried lots of kids our age, and it turned like there was no tomorrow. The merry-go-round…it's kinda like life. It goes on and on, you're riding it and there comes to a point when it stops. It's a stupid ride. It makes me angry.

"Natsume! Please can we ride some more?" she cried.

"Only if you shut up"

"Deal!" she said, shaking my hand. I took hers and we rode the stupid merry-go-round again.

-End of Flashback-

"Hn" I said, kicking the side of White Castle. He neighed in shock and started galloping again. These flashbacks are weird. They keep on coming on even though I don't remember doing the things in the flashback. It was annoying.

I felt Mikan slip her arms away from me. I looked back, and I saw her arms were spread out. I smirked.

I turned away from her, still smirking. This is kinda like the merry-go-round. Only…its much better. Because we just don't go around and around. We ride, in any way we want to.

Yeah.

This must be the ride of her life.

How stupid.

-End of Chapter Four-

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