Ginny paced her bedroom floor trying to control her emotions as the rain poured outside her window. These feelings of sadness and anger were back and slowly becoming worse. Knowing that somehow crying would make her feel better she started to focus on her emotions. She imagined the feelings in her chest and began moving them up and out of her body. After some time she managed to finally cry and let all those emotions out. Stopping her pacing Ginny laid down in her bed sobbing.
That was not the end of her turmoil though. All she could think about now was that she wanted to die. Over and over again she repeated to herself that she wanted to end it. While doing this she came up with a plan for suicide. Ginny would go out to the fields around the house when most of her family was away. Once there she would cut her wrist and hopefully by the time anybody came looking for her she would be dead.
Slowly she started to think of Luna and Hermione, her two best friends, and how she would over to talk to them right now and how they would feel about all of this. At this turn of thinking she focused on how I would affect them. The two of them didn't have many friends, especially Luna. Maybe she should wait on her plan for them, they needed her. Calming down Ginny realized that she did not indeed want to die. Instead she wanted to start over from the beginning, but that's not possible.