Hello, Here is Chapter 4. To the song: The Way I Loved You, by: Taylor Swift. Hope y'all enjoy it.

The Way I Loved You

By: Taylor Swift

Rose

'Are you happy now?' That was the question that haunted me that night. Was I happy? Really? Yes, I was. I think. Lying in my bed next to Adrian, I stared at the wall. My cheeks hurt from faking laughter all through dinner. My head hurt from the smile I slapped on my face when Tasha said she was going to stay at the Academy while she was here. And my heart hurt from having to stare at Dimitri all through dinner. From having to watch him and Tasha flirt. From the kiss we shared outside in the courtyard. My lips burned with a feeling that no amount of kisses from Adrian could ever erase. I winced and looked over at the clock. Two clock in the morning.

"Shit Dimitri." I whispered, "Screw you Dimitri." I raved, then rethought that statement. "Fuck you Dimitri." I rephrased but that was worse. I stuck to the basics. "Go to hell Dimitri." I said. Finally a realized that I wouldn't be able to sleep if I just sat there so I got up and took a walk. The sun was blinding, and the human day was worse then the Moroi day. The heat was horrible. I almost had half a mind to start striping. I walked in the heat forever, it seemed, never having a really place to go. It's no surprise I ended up at the cabin. I stepped in and sat on the bed, putting my head in my hands I began to cry. After a few moments of the only sound being my gasping breaths I heard footsteps in the woods. I stayed where I was, knowing it could only be one person. Dimitri. God, was no place sacred? Yes, but this was our sacred place, this was sacred to the both of us. He stopped in the doorway as I went on crying. No use trying to stop, seeing him would only make it worse.

"Rose?" He whispered.

"Get out." I replied softly.

"What?" He said taking an unwelcome step inside. I wasn't sure if he didn't hear me or he didn't understand why.

"Get out." I said louder.

"Rose, I…" He started.

"Get out!" I screamed, I stood up jerking my hands from my face. With one hand I pointed out the door with the other I moved to push him. I think I was going to push him; I'm not sure how my brain was playing out this scene. Dimitri grabbed on of my hands and pushed it away from him. With fiery in his eyes he stood his ground.

"No!"

"You don't get to do this!" I said. "You don't get to take this away from me! This is my place! Now go!"

"This is my place too, Rose. We both have memories here." He said calmer.

"I didn't care. You left. You don't get to morn us." I said back. This was mean, very very mean. Pain flashed on Dimitri's face. But he regained his emotions like he always did. He went to say something but I cut in before he could. "I have a great life here. I have a loving boyfriend, a great job. I don't need you to shatter it! I loved you. Oh, did I love you. But I was a child! I was seventeen! Anything felt like love. You had no right to do that! To make me think you loved me and then just leave! And you had to leave right after to attack. I was almost killed! Did it make it easier? Was it simpler when I was in a coma? There was no one to stop you. No me to say goodbye to." Tears brimmed in Dimitri's eyes. "Was it hard for you?" I then asked like a small child.

"Y…" He started, but I didn't let him finish. I didn't want to hear the answer.

"You know what? I don't care. I just want to tell you one thing. Yes, I'm happy. I'm fucking jumping up and down with joy. I love Adrian. Don't think that'll change."

"Rose," Dimitri said then sighed, "Roza, I… I… I…" He searched for the words. "Tell me the truth. Tell me everything, if you would."

I sat on the bed. The truth. Ha! If only I knew the truth, if only it was that simple. I looked up at Dimitri, a few tears ran down my cheeks. "Adrian is great. He's perfect; I can't find anyone better for me than him. It's perfect, no seeking around, no kissing behind close doors. No having sex in a log cabin in the middle of the woods. No having to hind our love. It's safe. B…" I explained then stopped. I was not going to say the word 'but'. Nope, no way it's leaving my lips.

"But," Dimitri prompted. Crap, but it can leave his lips.

"Our… Our love was, God help me, but fun." I was going to hell; I just thought you all should know that. "I've been hurt and loved and through hell. But it was exciting. I was crazy how screwed up we were. Adrian doesn't see it, he doesn't see that I'm starving for something more. But it doesn't matter. To tell you the truth you're still pulling me on a rollercoaster. You still make me insane. I mean, look at me. It's two in the morning and I'm cursing your name. It's so crazy. You wanted the truth? Well there it is. That's the way I loved you."

My voice was calm and normal now. I was surprised I wasn't screaming but I didn't have much to scream about, I felt like I could breath again. Like I've been carrying a weigh for years and it's almost gone now. Dimitri walked over to me, sitting on the bed next to me he put his arm around me. I jerked up after almost leaning in to him.

"No, that you don't get to do!" I said.

"What?" He said, not really knowing what I meant.

"You don't get to make me love you again." I said and walked out.

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