As Lindsay barely opened her eyes, her partner got up from his chair and ran to the hospital bed that she was in.

"Hey," he said.

"Hi," she replied weakly.

"You scared me half to death, you know that?"

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, I think so. I'm just weak and my thigh hurts," she said. "How are you, how's your shoulder?"

"I'm fine, Erin. You're all that matters to me right now. You, me, and our child."

As tears fell down his face, she said, "I'm sorry for how you found out, Jay. That's not how I wanted you to find out."

"Hey, it's okay. I love you," he said as he held her cheek.

"I love you, too." she said. "How's our baby?"

He hesitated, "We don't know. They were waiting until you woke up to do an ultrasound."

"Okay, get them in here," she demanded.

"Are you sure you're ready?"

"Yes, Jay. Please." she said as tears fell from her eyes.

"You lost a lot of blood, Miss Lindsay. We don't know what could have happened. So let's check, okay?" Dr. Smith said.

"Okay," she said as she lifted her shirt, in order for the Doctor to get the ultrasound started. Jay was standing on the other side of the hospital bed, squeezing her hand.

"It doesn't seem like I'm getting a heartbeat" Dr. Smith said.

"No. No….No.." Lindsay kept repeating over and over again as Jay squeezed her hand harder. He was about to lose it. He didn't know what to say. He couldn't lose his child, their child.

As the Doctor examined the ultrasound more, she replied "I'm deeply sorry for your loss, Mr. Halstead and Ms. Lindsay."

"Oh my god," Erin replied as tears were falling from her eyes. She was heartbroken. So was Jay. Jay was speechless. He just pulled her closer as she cried in his chest.

He too, was crying. He was going to lose it. After all they've been through how could this be happening?

Halstead and Lindsay were both released from the hospital 3 days later. Despite for the crutches Erin had to use for two weeks, they were both physically fine. However, both were emotionally wrecked and didn't know how to handle themselves.

Everyone visited them and brought flowers, but no one really knew what to say, no one knew what they were going through. Neither of them could keep themselves from crying.

They were supposed to be a family. Jay was going to propose. Voight told Halstead that they could be together. But, Jay didn't think that was a good time to discuss that with Lindsay. They hadn't really talked much about anything ever since they lost the baby.

"Voight's going to pick us up in five minutes, you ready?" Halstead said as he walked into Erin's hospital room. He had already packed his stuff and wanted to check on Lindsay.

"She nodded," her stuff was packed and she was sitting silently, on top of the hospital bed.

He went and sat next to her and put his arm around her shoulder, as she brought her head against his chest and started crying. He couldn't think of any words that could help his partner. He just rubbed her shoulder, as tears fell down from his face.

Voight stood in the doorway of Erin's hospital room. As he looked at his two detectives, he was heartbroken. He could see the pain in their eyes.

He wanted to do something, anything. But, he knew there was nothing he can do.

"You guys ready," he said.

Jay looked up and said, "Yeah."

When they got to Erin's apartment, Halstead carried her up the stairs, while Voight made two trips to bring Erin's belongings up.

When Voight had gone on his second trip to the car, Jay was standing next to the coach Erin was situated on.

He said, "Let me go get my stuff from my apartment and I'll be back. I don't want to leave you alone. As a matter of fact, I don't think I can be alone either."

"Jay…" she started to say, "I need a couple of days, alone."

"Erin, please. I know you need me and I want us to be together."

"I can't do this right now, Jay," she said as tears began to form in the eyes.

"Please don't shut me out, Erin. I'm going through the same thing you are." he said.

"I just… I can't do this right now. I just need space, okay?"

"Okay, I'll give you some space." he said as tears were falling down his face. "I just want you to know that I love you Erin, so much. I always have," he said as went and sat down next to her on the couch and hugged her.

She wanted to say it back. God knows it was true. She loved him so much. But, she couldn't get the words out. Instead, she buried herself into his chest and cried.

She wanted him to stay, but she also needed some alone time to think about everything.

Voight had heard the entire conversation and felt sympathetic towards the both of them.

After a few minutes, Halstead noticed Voight at the door and got up. He kissed Erin's cheek and said, "I'll give you a couple days, but please, please for the love of God, don't shut me out, Erin. I need you too."

He got up and starting walking towards the door. "I'll be in the car," he told Voight on his way out.

Voight nodded and patted Halsteads' shoulder.

"Are you sure you don't want to come stay with me for a couple of days?" Voight asked.

Erin shook her head. "I just need to be alone right now."

"Okay, kid. Just know that we're here for you. And you need to let Halstead in eventually. He's as broken as you are, Erin. And he loves you," Hank couldn't believe the words that had just come out his mouth.

Neither could Erin, but she ignored it. "I know, I just. I don't what to do, Hank." she said as she started balling. Hank put his hand around her shoulder and brought her closer to comfort her.

After a couple of minutes, he pulled away and said, "Okay kid. I have to get Halstead home.

Take care of yourself, okay?" he said.

She nodded. "I'll come check on you tomorrow."

He got up kissed the top of her head and left the apartment.

Jay was sitting in Voight's Escalade looking out the window as Voight came back.

Voight could see the tears streaming down Halstead's face. He had never seen Halstead cry before, over anything. He knew that he was going through a lot.

"I know I have no idea what you're going through. But, I'm here for you too, Jay." he said.

"I just… I just don't understand." He couldn't get himself to talk normally, due to his excessive crying. "We were supposed to be a family. Erin was supposed to be a mother; I was supposed to be a father. We were supposed to get married, and move into a house with a huge backyard. That's what she always wanted. I don't want to do now, Hank. I'm gonna lose it. She's already shutting me out."

Voight's expertise did not cover this much tragedy. He had no idea how to respond. Instead he just put his hand on Jay's shoulder.

"Let's get you home." Voight said.

"You have this week off, okay? Don't come in. Clear your head and just keep an eye on Erin." Voight said as he parked the car in from of Halstead's apartment.

Jay nodded. "Thank you for the ride, Sarge." he said as he got out of the car and grabbed his belongings and went to his apartment.

He closed his apartment door and dropped his stuff. He leaned against the door of his apartment as he slid down to the floor. He brought his hands to his face and started bawling.

*One Month Later*

"Halstead." Voight called out from his office at the precinct.

"Yes, Sarge." Jay answered as he got up from his desk and entered Voight's office.

"Have you heard from her?" Hank asked.

"No, we've barely talked these past few weeks. I tried to reach out, she's just been avoiding me and shutting me out."

"Yeah, she's been shutting me out too. I went with her to the doctor a couple weeks ago and she was cleared for work, but I told her to come when she was ready. I haven't heard from her since then"

"I'll try reaching out again, but I don't know how much luck I'll have," Jay said.

"Thank you, Jay." Voight said. "How are doing? This case has been overwhelming, I haven't had the chance to ask you that."

"I'm trying to cope with it, you know? It's just hard. Especially without, Erin. I miss her," he said.

"Yeah, I do too. Stay strong kid." he said.

Jay tried to give up as much of a smile as he could before he returned to his paperwork.

*Later that night*

Lindsay heard knocking at her door so she went to open it.

"Hey, Erin." he said as she opened the door.

"Hi." she said reluctantly. "What are you doing here, Jay?"

"I just thought I'd see how you were doing. I haven't heard from you in weeks, Er."

"Well, I'm fine. Thanks for stopping by." she said as she was about to close the door on him. He stopped her from closing the door and he came inside.

She was hesitant to let him in because she was afraid what he was going to find.

"What is all this, Erin?" he asked, as he saw numerous empty vodka bottles on the counter. Then he spotted the cocaine on the sink.

"What the hell, Erin? Cocaine?" he said with a disgusted look on his face.

"Hey Erin, do you mind if I take a shower?" Jay heard a voice say from the other room.

"Who the hell is that?" Jay asked. "So you're getting drunk, doing cocaine, and you're cheating on me too?" he screamed.

"I'm not cheating on you. We're not together, Jay." she said.

"I don't even know who you are." he started to say as tears started to form in his eyes. "I've been going through hell these past few weeks because I needed you the most and you wouldn't let me in. We lost a child, Erin. TOGETHER. And you can't even let me in?" his heartbeat was rising and he could barely breath. "And now you're doing drugs and sleeping with random guys? You've been cleared for work for weeks and you haven't talked to Voight. Who the hell are you? I miss my partner. I miss Erin."

She started crying.

"Look me in the eye and tell it's over. That we're over and you don't love me."

"I can't do that. Because it won't be true." she replied.

"Then stop this shit, and let me in, Er." he said as he point to the alcohol and the drugs."

"I can't.. I just I can't" she replied.

"I gave you space and you used that to sleep with random guys, get drunk off your ass, and do drugs. If you want space. FINE" he screamed. "You have all the space that you want. I'm done Erin. I poured my heart out to you. I lost a child too, you know? That baby was mine too. I was supposed to be a father. I needed you the most and you're not there. I can't do this anymore Lindsay. Call me when you actually want to be there for me," he said angrily as he slammed the door and left.

Erin dropped to the ground and started crying.

"Are you okay?" Paul Endler came out of the room and saw Erin crying.

"Just get out," she said. He nodded and left the apartment.

*Couple hours later*

After Jay left Erin's distraught, he went to his apartment and poured himself one glass of whiskey and he chugged it. He didn't know what to feel. Erin was breaking his heart. Losing the baby was hard enough, losing Erin on top of it was going to bring Jay to his breaking point.

He tried to watch tv, but he couldn't get himself too, so he went to bed.

Around 4 AM, he woke up when his phone started buzzing.

He looked at the caller ID and it was Erin.

"Erin?" he said in a groggy way. "What are you doing awake at this time?"

"Jay. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for shutting you out. I need you. I need you right now, Jay. I'm trying to flush down this cocaine, but a part of me wants to take it. Please help me." she said as she sat on her bathroom floor holding a vial of cocaine in her hand.

"Don't do anything, I'll be right there." he quickly got up, changed to sweats and a sweater and ran out of his apartment.

He got up to Erin's apartment in 5 minutes. He had forgotten how close it was, despite the fact that he violated every traffic law to get to Erin's that quickly.

He used the emergency key that she had given him to get into the apartment.

"ERIN?" He screamed.

"I'm in here." she screamed from the bathroom.

He ran to her and found her on the bathroom floor with the vial of cocaine in her hand.

"I'm here, Erin. Please flush that. You don't need it. I'm here." he said as he gave his hand to help her up.

She got up, opened the cocaine bottle and poured the cocaine into the toilet and flushed it.

She quickly ran into his arms and cried into his chest one more time. He hugged her tightly. He never wanted to let her go.

"I'm really sorry, Jay," she said as they moved into the bedroom and sat on her bed. "I'm sorry that I shut you out. I was stupid. You needed me too. I'm sorry for the random guys that I slept with. I just had this void in my heart that I needed to distract myself. I failed to see that you have that same void in your heart. We need each other to heal that void. For the record, I never did the drugs, I wanted to, but I couldn't."

"It's okay. I understand. We've both been through a lot." he said.

"Please forgive me," she said. "I don't know what I would do without you, Jay."

He put his hand on her cheek and she put her hand up and on top of his hand.

"I love you, Jay Halstead. I always have. I'm sorry I couldn't say it," she said,

"I love you too, Er." he said as he put his other hand on her opposite cheek and kissed her. Their kiss was deep and full of compassion and love.

"Stay with me tonight?" she asked.

"Of course. I don't want to ever leave you, Erin." he said as he continued kissing her.

"Doctor we're losing her" the nurse screamed.

"Clear...One...two... three…" the doctor called.

BEEP…...

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