"Look, Per Bear, Jack wants to come home." Perry heard Jordan sigh. "It's been a week since you've seen him after the burial. Wouldn't it make you feel better to see your son?"

It wasn't that he didn't want to see Jack, it's just everything was a mess. He was a mess. Perry wasn't fit to take care of his boy in an apartment with glass shards and booze stained floors. He fingered the train tickets he had found yesterday. J.D hadn't reserved a flight yet but apparently he had taken it upon himself to begin planning the actual trip. New Delhi to Bangalore, the ticket was good for all year.

"Jordan, look, everything here is broken. Nothing works here anymore. This isn't the right place for Jack. I'll come visit him soon, okay?"

"Perry…"

"Goodbye Jordan."

The phone slid to the floor as Perry lay silent on the couch. He felt a wave of sleep wash over him and reluctantly succumbed to it.

"Open your eyes!" Perry shook the man, trying to keep him upright and forcing him to look at his mistake. "Do you see, do you see what you did?" The man continued to squirm. Perry had never felt such unbridled anger in his entire life. Everything about this kid pissed him off, his stupid buzz cut, the nasally quality his voice had as he screamed that he was sorry, the country music that was still playing in the car wrapped around a pole. "Was it worth it?"

"Nooooo." The man was weeping now. "I'm so, so soorry."

"Do you know what this man did with his life?" Perry put his face up to young man's and smelt scotch. He wanted to throw up. "He was a doctor. He saved the lives assholes like you trashed." Perry was vaguely aware that he was screaming now. "What the fuck do you do?"

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorr…"

"Shut the fuck up!" He screamed. "Look at him. Do you see him?" The man shut his eyes. "Open your fucking eyes! You did this, look!" Perry heard the police pull up.

"You fucking did this."

"Sir, please let go of this man." Some cop gently tugged the drunk away. "We need to take him into custody."

Perry let him go and then promptly collapsed next to J.D.



Perry woke up sweating as much as he had sweat that night. It had been so hot outside, they just wanted to leave Elliot and Keith's stupid bonfire and go home. He groaned thinking about Barbie. Perry knew that she was going to tell Carla that they slept together, that Perry was a bad man, that Perry was, well, bad.

Sure enough a soft knock came on the door.

"Perry, you home?"

"No." He did not want to see the latina nurse right now.

"I'm going to use my key and I'm going to come in." He heard the lock turn. Shit.

"Perry, this place is a disaster." She looked around, her eyes fell to the small pile of glass that was close to her feet.

"Didn't J.D just get you this for your anniversary?" He had never seen her look so sad. There were lines under her eyes that he knew hadn't been there a week ago. Her voice lacked the vigour it once held.

"J.D and I aren't having an anniversary Carla. J.D is dead." He was surprised at how raspy his voice sounded.

"I know. I know he is."

"Why are you here? Don't you have to nurse Gandhi back to health; he just lost his other wife." Perry turned way from her on the couch.

"You need me more right now."

"I slept with Barbie." He couldn't believe that he had said that outloud. How awful had that had been. Everything about her had felt wrong.

Carla sighed. "I know Perry." She paused a moment. "So does Keith."

"That's too bad."

"Why?" Her voice was genuinely curious.

"Well, it's not like it meant anything. I've called a lot of things but I've never given anyone a reason to call me a home wrecker before."

"You honestly think that Elliot cared about that marriage?" Carla buried her hands in her hair. "No, Elliot was as in love with J.D as you were; it just took a tragedy for her to realize it. No, they're both better off without each other. They both owe you, probably."

"Carla, I'm still in love with J.D." Oh dear god. How much girlier could he sound? And he just set himself for the whole, "Time heals all wounds" speech.

"Well, yeah." She stopped there.

Perry turned back towards her and looked her straight in the eye. "Nothing works here anymore."

Author's Note:

Sorry! I had to break the elephant!