JARED POV:
4. Where was Kim? I needed to apologise for wednesday. Obviously, I couldnt phase in front of the entire school and be so close to her at the same time...the thought was unbearable; but I loved being around her so much, it was near impossible to leave. The boy was so careless, almost smacking right into her fragile body, she could have been hurt! The memory made me shake again.
"Calm down man, she'll be here" Embry whispered, I knew how much I'd been annoying them with my constant thoughts about Kim the past couple of days, almost all of them. Sam was overjoyed, someone finally knew what it was like to be so commited and caring over the one girl, nobody else understood how we could be so satasfied with just the memory of their face. When I looked at Kim, for what seemed like the first time; she was all I saw. When I thought about all the other reasons for living, she was definitely the only one strong and pure enough to make it all worth while. The whole werewolf thing, that was easy if it meant feeling this way about Kim. The way her bright white teeth looked against her perfect, russet skin. How her sleek black hair slid down her back, when she'd smiled up at me, I thought I might faint. She was truly the most perfect, wonderful thing on this planet. I just wish I could get to know her.
Nobody can push away that level of love and commitment, Sam's words stuck in my head since I imprinted, he explained how it was with Emily to prove it was true. I hoped Kim wouldnt push it away, was she even remotely interested? Something I would have to test, what would I do if I didnt? How could I live if she didnt want anything to do with me? I had to be some part of her like...any part, as long as I was connecting with her, I could prove how literally perfect we were for each other. I was designed to be with her, after all.
"Jare" Quil said, jilting his chin to the classroom door. My breath caught in my throat when I saw her, she looked straight at me instantly and I wanted to jump up and hold her; right there and then. She smiled briefly and I felt my heart swell inside my chest, I had to have her.
When she sat down it got better, all I could smell was her zesty, fresh scent and all I could think about was how close she was and how might it feel to reach out and touch her face. She was incredibly warm, I could feel it on my bare arms. "Hey" she whispered, she looked a lot more comfortable beside me now, more so than she had been a few days ago. It made me happy, that her muscles relaxed and her face looked that little bit more composed, the permananent blush to her cheeks was now just a faded stain. "Hi, sorry for taking off on wednesday, I have uh..."
Think, Jared. What could I say to cover the almost phasing into a werewolf scenario.
"...have some anger problems" I said quickly, I hated lying to her, but it was kinda necessary at this stage.
Why did I think the stages would go any higher than this?
"Oh..It's okay. I was kinda worried about you" she said, her cheeks flushing and head bowing, like she was ashamed.
My first instinct was to comfort her, then it dawned on me that she wasnt sad about it, she was coy. Happiness flooded me and I felt strangely emotional, she really worried about me? "Don't be worried" I told her, I felt so inclined to make sure she knew she could totally be herself around me, I wanted her too. I wanted to stroke her hair, be loving towards her. Maybe someday in the future Jared, maybe...
I had to do something, I had to talk to her properly; hopefully without being surrounded by other people. I couldnt help but notice how close she was, how warm she seemed to me...how beautiful she was. I would ask her out on a date! It seemed highly casual and silly to go on a date, my feelings for her where much, much stronger than just liking her and wanting to take her out. It would seem normal to her though, a date was something a boy did to impress a girl...perfect. "Kim" I whispered, watching as she dragged her eyes from the front and set them on me, her pupils dialated.
"Yes?" she asked curiously, an excited glitter in her deep green-blue eyes.
"Would you go see a movie with me tonight- If your not busy" I asked, bracing myself in case her face showed signs of uninterest. I heard Embry stifle a laugh and shake his head in my direction.
Her eyes lit up, and I exhaled a sigh of relief.
"Um,sure" she said, looking away briefly to copy something off the board with a huge smile on her face.
"Great" I didnt care if my eager smile showed on my face...I wanted her to know just how insanely drawn to her I was.
"I'll pick you up at seven-that okay?" I asked nervously.
"Yeah, sure. That's great" she said, smiling. She looked slightly dazed.
I couldnt help but feel annoyed at the teacher, snapping her fingers impatiently at us, interupting this perfect moment.
I didnt speak after that, just shifted a little closer to her; not being able to stay inches a part anymore. I linked our fingers together and held her hand for the rest of the lesson, feeling blissfully happy that she never pulled away or anything like that. It felt like we were completely alone, my pulse raced(even more than usual) when I noticed she had also had a huge grin on her face for the next hour. Her beauty overwhelmed me.
That Night...
I know the feeling, your lucky there's no drama involved this time though...but dont think I regret it at all. Just wish it was a lot simpler, you know?
I recieved a glimpse of Leah's torn, heartbroken face as Sam told her it was over in his memory, her eyes brimmed over with tears of grief and I suddenly got a surge of Pity for Leah Clearwater, Harry's bitter daughter. I couldnt control it Sam thought defensively, his thoughts flooded around Emily and I saw how she looked through his eyes when he imprinted, it made me miss Kim. It was nice, only having one more person's thoughts in my head. Not as crowded as when all of us were in our wolf forms, and everyone's thoughts intervined with my own, causing my head to feel warped and twisted; like I was insane. You need to pick up Kim in half an hour Jared, it'll all work out- dont worry. Sam's reassuring tone made me hopeful, Emily hated him at first but now look at them...Kim didnt even dislike me, I could tell. Sorry I muttered as Sam winced at my mentioning Emily. I felt his thoughts slip away and realised I was on my own. I ran through the thick green forest until I reached my house, nobody was in. I quickly phased and ran inside...planning on taking a brief shower and picking up Kim.
I knew where her house was, I'd followed her scent from near the school and found it easily. Even as a human, my senses were highly advanced, I could sometimes pick stuff up a few miles of their course. I parked outside her house at five to seven and listened closely to the going on's in her home. I heard an older woman's voice, crooning a lullaby, they made sense when I heard the baby's happy gurgles. A man'a laughter boomed at a TV show, followed by a gently shush from the woman. I listened harder until I traced the gentle rhythm of Kim's heart, she was singing along quietly to an old 'Iron and Wine' song, her silky voice was just slightly out of tune, it still sounded magical. I heard her curse quietly and the flick of her switching off her bedroom light; the warm yellow of it vanished in the dark night. "I'm leaving mom" she whispered, her voice was closer now that she was downstairs. "Where to?" her mom whispered back, her voice was concerned. It felt nice that Kim had people in her life who cared about her, a real family. "Um, a date" Kim said, I recognized the shyness at once.
Her mum chuckled, "Alright then, be back before eleven."
Kim thanked her and I heard her footsteps draw nearer, until I saw her front door swing open and a pool of pale yellow light spill onto the pavement.
She was wearing jeans and a tight long sleeved top, thankfully there was a jacket hung over her arm- the air was very chilly tonight.
Her face and hair looked slightly groomed, it was unnecessary but she still looked breath taking. As she said a small "Hey" and slipped into the car, I smelt harsh chemicals hide her fruity scent. She'd even bothered with perfume, my hope raised a little higher.
"What would you like to do tonight?" I asked, she could say she wanted to visit a library of history- I still would have been eager. Just to be near her was interesting.
"A movie, I thought?" her soft voice confused.
A movie had just been an excuse to get her alone, but if a movie was what she wanted...she would get it. Anything for her.
"Oh yeah, of course. What do ya wanna see?" I asked.
She shrugged and inhaled curiously, "Anything" she breathed.
"Guess we'll have to wait and see" I said, smiling as she looked up at me.
"guess so" she said, smiling and looking away.
There was a group of boys stood outside the movie theater, kicking an empty can around and laughing stupidly. Kim floated closer to me and I held her hand protectively, though I knew these boys were nothing of a threat; just some stupid kids who grew up in bad families. She looked up at me with wide, trusting eyes and I felt my heart stutter at her innocent expression. When we came closer to the boys I saw the oldest nudge his friend and look at me, they stood up straighter and their laughter died off. I chuckled lightly and Kim nudged me in the side "What's funny?" she whispered. It felt great that she was becoming more confident with me now, I wanted to ease her out her quiet exterior and find out everything about her.
"Nothing" I said, reassuring her with a smile.
I don't even know what I paid money to see, Kim's whole phenotype was far too interesting to concentrate on anything else. We sat in at the back of the theater, talking quietly as the previews started.
"How did you know I would be outside when you left tonight?" I asked her, half worried that she might have to have waited on her own, but I would never leave her waiting.
"Oh..I saw your car out the window" she said, her face almost invisible in the darkness of the cinema.
I wondered if she thought this was a good or bad thing.
"It was good you were early, I was already ready" she confessed, her whispering voice was loud in the darkness.
"Then I'm glad I was on time...I'd hate to keep you waiting" I admitted. I saw her smile in the dim light, her skin turning luminious. She inhaled shakily and slid her hand into my palm that I realised what facing towards her on the armstand. I pushed the armstand up and shifted closer to her, letting her fragile head rest on my shoulder, our hands still intiwined. "I like you a whole lot more than you realise Kim" I said suddenly, I felt her body stiffen and relax, she may not have realised it but she sank a little deeper into my body.
"You too" she said calmly, and my heart soared at the possibility.