I was at an all time high. Never in my life have I ever felt this much control. My life seemed to have finally given me the reigns. Since my family's death almost two years ago, I thought I was doomed to a boring, fruitless, miserable, and tiring life. I never expected to meet Levi. That seemed to be the start of events that changed my. Though Levi was the textbook definition of a jerk, an idiot, a cold hearted bastard, the cliché drug dealer without the heart of gold, and dick teaser, Levi was actually ok. Maybe he was ok to me because I was getting free rent, food, and really good sex but that is beyond the point.

I had just finished having another round with Levi. Lately he let me take over and top and let me tell you it was amazing. It's kind of crazy how the sex I'm having with Levi symbolizes how my life is going. Having control of sex and being the one that can bring your partner pleasure or a prayer for another partner is exciting. It felt great to see Levi withering beneath me for once with his face flushed a deep shade of crimson. It felt amazing to be inside of him and making him moan my name for once.

How I feel is a result of more than sex though. I didn't get a choice when my family passed and I had to take care of myself. It definitely wasn't my choice to work at that shit diner and have those men try to rape me, or meeting Levi in such a way. However it was my choice to move in with Levi. Lately I decided to go back to school and finish out. I am going to get my GED and then go to a small two year college. There I will probably get a degree in hospitality since I know how to fake smile and working in a hotel doesn't seem too bad. Honestly, I don't know how long this thing with Levi will last and I want to make sure I will be secure. I also went back to work, but not at the diner. It took a lot of convincing to Levi to let me work. Although we never claimed to be this loving couple, Levi is very over protective of me. He takes this whole "you are mine Eren" thing too seriously. We don't talk about feelings and I don't want to. I am not some love struck puppy, so I don't ask and he doesn't tell. But I had to give some good head to make him back off and let me work. I don't want him spoiling me for the rest of my life. Yes I am very stubborn, my mom used to get on my case all the time when I was younger. I now work at a grocery store and only encounter the occasional grumpy old guy.

In an odd way I am really enjoying my life right now but there are many times I really miss my family. My mom and dad were the textbook definition of suburban parents and make sure I lived comfortably. I had a sister named Mikasa, who appointed herself as my bodyguard. It used to irritate me to no end, but now I would give anything to have her in my business and scaring off anyone who looked twice at me. If I had to be truthful I think that is why I accepted Levi so quickly. No he doesn't have a secret heart of gold under that ice he calls a heart, but his extreme tendencies when it comes to me reminds me of her. But unlike my family he was complete shit at being comforting. If I had a low point he would spout off about life and dealing with the blows. My favorite is the bullshit he's telling me now.

"Eren suck it up!"

"Levi I can't! I should have studied harder! I can't afford to mess school up. I could have done it but I had to work all last week!"

"Well you decided to take that job. I told you that working was something you didn't need to do."

"You don't understand I have to do well and I have to work!"

"Eren why is this so important to you?"

"Because my mom used to stay on my case about school and I never listened. That was all she asked of me! Our last moments together were of us arguing because I wasn't listening to her. I wanted to run off and join the military and figured school didn't matter. She kept saying it was important and to try harder. I just wish I could tell her I am sorry it's my biggest regret."

"Eren you can't change your past, only the future. Do your best now and make school first. That means you need to quit or take less hours. Do that or be stubborn and keep working. If you want to lose sleep to do both than go ahead. No matter what kind of wisdom dictates you the option you should pick, no one will be able to tell if it's right or wrong till you arrive to some sort of outcome, resulting from your choice. The only thing we are allowed to do is to believe that we won't regret the choice we made."
That was the most insightful and comforting thing Levi ever told me. I didn't know what to say so I just acted. I jumped on him and kissed him hard. Normally if he thought I was being extra emotional he would push me away and tease me. He must have thawed his heart a bit because he just held me and kissed me back.

"Thank you."

"Whatever brat. Now we need to go sleep, I have things to do in the morning."

I decided to be a little shit and ignore him. I kissed him again and straddled him. I began grinding against him till I felt him getting hard.

"Eren." Levi whispered huskily.

Moved to no one's point of view

Eren started kissing along Levis jaw and moved down to his neck. He laid kisses down his chest and stomach. He smiled innocently at Levi and placed kisses on his growing budge. This made Levi hiss at him and run grab his hair.

"Get on with it brat."

Eren pulled down Levis pants and blew at his erection. He licked the tip and looked up again at Levi with big eyes. He planted open mouth kisses along the top and bottom. When the grip in his hair tightened, Eren stopped playing and took Levi in his mouth. He didn't have a set skill or pace yet so he just worked off instinct. He bobbed his head up and down and flattened his tongue out. When he reached the tip he would lick around it and in the slit. Levis moans only encouraged him to go further as he took all of Levi back in. he grabbed Levis balls and played with them as his sucking got more frantic.

Before Levi could finish he pulled Eren away from his erection making a wet popping sound. He replaced it with his hands and said "suck." Eren coated Levis fingers and Levi pulled him up into a kiss. He reached around to Erens entrance, and placed a finger there. He slowly pushed in earning a gasp from Eren. He moved his finger in and out slowly teasing Eren who was getting more aroused by the second. He added a second finger and moved faster. He simultaneously sucked on Erens neck while pushing in and out of him.

His thrusting got faster and he pushed in a third finger. Eren was grinding hard against Levi creating great friction against his erection. Levi curled his hand and hit Erens prostate causing him a loud moan. Once Levi found his spot he rubbed against it mercilessly and slowly until Eren was whimpering and beginning for release. Levi took both erections on his hand and started pumping them while thrusting his hand in and out of Eren. Eren didn't last much longer and came hard on Levi and soon Levi followed after. They fell on to the bed in a satisfied and exhausted heap.

Erens Pov again

"What happened to going to bed?"

"Well I had to teach a little shit a lesson about teasing people when they are trying to sleep."

"Yeah whatever!"

Levi planted a kiss on me before relaxing into sleep. It was out of character and I am guessing he's still high from his orgasm.

"Night Levi."

A grunt was my reply.

There is so much in life to think about that romance isn't the top of my priorities. I could be saying that because I kind of have somebody and it's consistent. I will sound like a sap if I say Levi is the yin to my yang but with answers like the one he gave me tonight it's hard not to. Of the many events that have taken place in my life moving in with a jerk may have been the best thing that has ever happened. EW I sound like a shoujo manga! Anyways life has given me a kicks and turns but I finally feel like I have some control in my life. I just hope I have the will to make something of it.