Note: Sorry I've been gone for so long I've been so busy with school and everything but I'm trying! Hope you enjoy!
I stood in Jem's room trying to figure out how I couldn't have seen that he was as sick as he was. He looked like he was getting better when I was with him he wasn't coughing he seemed fine; I guess I was wrong. I sat by the window sill and looked out the window, remembering how Jem would play his violin for me. I will always remember his smile, how it reached his eyes and there would always be that twinkle whenever he smiled when we shared a special moment.
"Oh Jem why did you leave me, I love you so much I wish I could find a way to be with you.' I touched my cheek and felt my own tears cascade down my face.
"He wouldn't want you to join him in death Tess, he would want you to find happiness again." I jumped at the sound of Will's voice, I turned around and looked up at him.
"Oh Will you scared me." I said softly
"I'm sorry." He said as he came and sat beside me.
We sat in silence, both of us lost in our own thoughts and worries about what was happening in the circumstances that we were in. I looked around Jem's room and then looked to Will who was staring right at me.
"I meant what I said Tessa, he would want you to be happy." He said in a hushed tone.
I shook my head in disagreement, and started to cry again.
"No. I can't do that to him, I won't do that." I sobbed
Will kneeled down in front of me and grabbed my hands in both of his, and just looked at me with a sad expression on his face that was filled with sorrow and understanding.
"Why not Tess? Why wouldn't you want to be happy, later on in life? I know your hurting Tessa I understand your pain but you need to know that you deserve to be happy. He would want that." Will said with emotion that over whelmed Tessa even more.
"I'm scared that, that if at least try to be happy that I will forget him. That I won't remember hi smile or the way his voice sounds or that I will forget what he looks like. I don't want that to happen Will. I can't have that happen!" I cried out
Without another word I was in Will's embrace while he tried to sooth my pain. I don't know how long we were there just holding each other but once I calmed down I pulled back and looked at him.
"Thank you Will, I'm sorry though I never meant to let that all out but it felt better to get it off of my chest." I said quietly.
He nodded in understanding
"I'll always be here for you Tess, no matter what. I'll look out for you. That was one of James's wishes was for me to look after you, once he was gone." Will said softly
"And I appreciate very much." I responded in a soft tone.
Will moved towards the door, and stopped mid step and turned around.
"Good night Tess." Was all he said and then he was out the door
Sorry this chapter is so short….