Chapter 4
When Gabi had left the room, Will turned to his boyfriend. "Seriously, is everything alright?"
"Yea, no worries," Sonny replied breezily.
"Really? Cause what I walked in on seemed pretty heavy."
"Gabi is just going through a lot. And so are you. So, I don't want you to worry about little things."
"Ok," said Will still a little skeptically.
"You are right, though. I am yours! Mind, body, and soul."
"Haha. Good."
"I am yours and only yours. You know that, right?"
"Y-yes. Of course I do."
"Casue I got something to tell you." Sonny took Will's hand and led him over to the couch.
"What is it?" Will asked when he sat down.
Sonny took a breath. "I talked to Brent the other day."
"Oh. And what did he say?"
"Well, it's not so much what he said. It's what I said to him." Will starred at Sonny with wrapped attention. "I told him that him that the way he was acting was too inappropriate and it was making my boyfriend uncomfortable."
"Wha-what? Sonny, aren't you the one who said I was overreacting? And that I didn't have anything to worry about?"
"Yes. Babe, you don't have anything to worry about. Not with me. I just wanted to make it clear to Brent that he needed to keep his distance. Because I don't want him seeming like a threat to you."
Will lowered his head in thought. When he raised it, Sonny expected to see that gorgeous smile that lit up his face. Instead, he saw an exasperated look, and an agitated Will.
"Sonny! I didn't want you to cut off contact from your friends. What you said…it's just proving him right! That I am a paranoid jealous boyfriend who's way too possessive and insecure. "
"Will, I don't care what Brent thinks. I care about you. And I didn't want you feeling like crap every time I hung out with him."
Will shook his head. "That is so sweet of you, babe. It really is. And I know that you're trying to protect me. But I don't need protection from Brent. Ok? I already stood up to him and told him off and it made me look like an idiot."
"Will, you don't understand. I get it now. I know it took a while. But I noticed how Brent kept doing this-this- thing where he would talk up all of this stuff that kept me away from you."
"Really?"
"Yes. I told him that he can't talk bad about my life, or about you. And I told him to back off."
"Were you really that forceful?"
"Well, yeah. I had to make it clear that you were my priority."
"Will smiled at Sonny, but he didn't say anything. He just looked down at his shoes. Sonny searched Will's eyes for a sign of relief. Of understanding. Of gratitude.
"Sonny, can I ask you a question?"
"What do you think? Of course."
"When you told Brent to leave you alone…was it because you knew that Brent was doing and you didn't want him to? Or was it because you thought he made me uncomfortable?"
"What are you asking?" Sonny was a little offended." Are you serious right now? Are you asking me if I wanted Brent to keep making passes at me?"
"No. But you didn't seem to mind that Brent always brought up your grand adventures! And you certainly had a great time working together. You praised his brilliance every chance you got! Do you really expect me to believe that you just told him to get lost just like that?"
"Yes! Because I did! Will, I would do anything for you! Including alienating my old friend."
"But not because you wanted to."
"What? You're not making any sense!" Sonny was compelled to stand to express his feelings. Sonny although showing mostly anger, was actually extremely hurt by the things Will was saying. What hurt the most is that it seemed as though Will was questioning the sincerity of his feelings for him.
"Sonny, you told your friend and your business consultant to scram, NOT because you wanted to, but because your crazy, possessive boyfriend wouldn't like you hanging out with him. Don't you see? You're doing all these things for me, but…but I want you to do things for yourself!" Will was standing at this point also.
"Will I wanted to do that for you. I want you to be absolutely sure that I am totally committed to you. "
"Sonny, I know that you are committed to me. But I don't want you going around telling your friends that you can't do the things you like or hang out with people you like, because of me!"
Sonny could not believe he was hearing this. "Are you kidding? Is this about Arianna and me being 'tied down' again?"
"Sonny, I just don't want you to do limit your life because of me."
"Oh, here we go again." Sonny was really tired of Will insisting on this crazy theory.
"I know that you think you are doing this for me, and helping me. But what you're actually doing is setting up problems for us!"
Sonny couldn't help from raising his voice. "Why would you think that my wanting to commit to you and spend time with you, could ever possibly be bad for us?"
Will scoffed. "Because I don't want you to end up resenting me!"
Sonny stopped in in tracks. He stood and silently starred at Will who had his arms half-raised.
Will took a few deep breaths and then continued. "Maybe you won't realize it today, or tomorrow, or next week, or even next year. But someday, you might wonder what …could've been. And you might regret it, or…or question all of the things that you say that you want. You might wish that you had done more and I don't want to be the reason why!"
Sonny's heart sank. This was Will. These were his raw feelings. Sonny knew how difficult it was for Will to talk about what really weighed on his mind and his heart.
"Will-"
"Y-you know what," Will put up a hand to stop him. "I'm tired. I'm gonna head to bed." With that, he whisked right past Sonny and into their bedroom. Sonny turned and watched the door slam. The loud bang rang repeatedly in his ears.
That door closed on Sonny's heart. Will had closed the door on that conversation. Even though it was a mere two inches of wood that separated them, it seemed like Will was unreachable tonight. It was as if he was locked out of Will's heart.
But that's where Sonny desperately wanted to be. So, he took a deep breath and resolved to let it alone tonight. He would express to the love of his life just how wrong he was in the morning.