Im sorry its taken me so long to update. My Mom took my computer away and I had no way to post anything.

Spencers Pov:

I rolled over in my bed. I glanced at the clock it read 5:15 am ; I have 15 minutes till I have to get up. I don't want to, sometimes I just wish I'll go to sleep and never wake up. Im not trying to sound "emo" I just feel that it'd be easier than having to face everything. In 14 minutes imma have to get up and call Corey and tell him I made a mistake and that I want him back. But, the thing is I didn't make a mistake and I don't want him back. I hate Glen and I hate Corey and I hate this stupid alarm clock that's going beeping in my stupid ear. AH!

"SPENCER!" Glen yelled for me to get up from downstairs.

"Yeah Im up." I yelled back.

I laid in bed for a few more seconds before I got up and put on my robe I threw my hair in a bun and walked down the hall to the bathroom. I think im going to hold off on calling Corey for right now. I want to be calm when I call him so a nice hot shower should do the trick.

I knocked on the bathroom door. The last thing I want to do is walk in on one of my brothers or my dad. EW!

Clay opened the door.

"Hey Spence." he said putting away his tooth brush.

"Hi Clay!" I said looking past him.

"Are you alright?" I nod my head.

"...are you sure I heard you and Glen last night."

"Um yeah...Im fine." I said grabbing a towel and rag out of the cabinet.

"Spencer you don't have to do everything he tells you to. You have to. Just tell mom or dad." he said placing a caring hand on my shoulder.

"Clay. Im fine there's nothing to tell mom or dad. Glens just upset about Corey that's all. Im fine." I said pushing past him.

"Spencer I love you and I care about you. Im worried that's all. If anything were going on you'd tell someone right?" clay stood by the door looking at me.

"I love you too Clay. Don't be worried Im fine..and yes if anything was going on I'd tell someone." I told him.

"Ok." Clay closed the door behind him.

I got in the shower and let the hot water run down my back it was so relaxing just what I needed after last night.

Clay is right about telling someone about Glens anger issues. But, I don't want to because then he'd get more angry with me and I don't want that. Glen has been controlling my life since I was six. He yells, screams throws things and a few times hes hit me. Last night was just a preview of what hes done in the past. He just grabbed my wrist too hard. I cant tell my parents because they wouldn't believe me. Well my dad might but my mom never will.

I got out of the shower and got ready for school. I went down stairs and my dad was reading the paper and drinking his coffee like he always does. While Glen was eating lucky charms. Clay must of already left for school.

"Good morning sweetie" my dad said putting down his paper.

"G'morning daddy." I kissed him on the cheek and then poured myself a glass of orange juice cant start your day off with out a nice tall glass of OJ. I sat down at the island across from glen.

"So Spencer did you call Corey?" Glen asked with a mouth full of marshmallows.

"No." I glared at him.

"Your going to right?" He pushed.

"...No." I stated.

"What!" he said a little to loud.

"What is going on you two?" dad asked.

"Nothing dad Glens just upset that I broke up with Corey that's all." I said putting my glass in the sink.

"When did you guys break up?" dad asked.

"Yesterday" I answered.

"Im sorry." he said. I just gave him a small smile.

"Spe..." Glen was about to start again but dad cut him off.

"Glen its none of your business if Spencer and Corey are together or not ."

"I know dad its just."

"No Glen." Dad stopped him again.

"Um your mother called last night. She wants you three to stay at her place this weekend." dad informed us.

"Dad I cant I have some things I have to do." Glen said trying to get out of it like he always does.

"Do we really have to go?" I whined.

"Yes Spencer you'll both pack Thursday."

I'd rather jump out of a plane and land on the fiery pits of hell than to go to my mothers for a weekend. Shes not a bad mom its just shes not a good mom either.. Ever since my mom divorced my dad 6 months ago. We've been forced to spend time with her. I don't understand we why we even have to go. Shes never home with us her jackass husband is and he thinks its nice to grab my ass and whistle at me when I walk into a room. I'd never tell anyone because none of them will believe me.

"Fine." me and Glen said.

Glen got up and grabbed his keys. "Come on Spencer we're gonna be late. See ya dad."

"Bye Daddy love you." I kissed him again on the cheek.

"Bye hunnie."

"Spencer!" glen pulled me from my thoughts.

"What?" I said coldly.

"Your calling Corey." he parked the car.

"Did you hear me?" he grabbed my arm as I tired to get out of the car. He tightened his grip he repeated himself.

"Yes I did loud and clear." I broke from his grasp. And ran out of the car. I didn't stop at my locker I ran into my lst hour nobody was in there,. I put my head down and with out my consent millions of tears just fell. I couldn't stop them, I haven't cired like this since I was little and Glen pushed me out of the willow tree in our back yard. I broke my ankle. I screamed and cried for hours kinda like what im doing right now except im really not screaming. I lifted my head and my face fell in my hands.

"Are you okay hunnie?" I felt a hand on my back.

I looked up at whoever asked me it was ms.lane.

"Um yeah...im fine. Just one of those mornings." I told her.

"Okay but if you need to talk to someone im always here or you can talk to the counselors."

What is it with teachers wanting you to talk about your problems. God!

I nodded my head and got up to get some tissue. For some reason I still couldn't stop myself from crying I tired to gain control of myself again but I just couldn't.

"Hey Spencer!" a filmilar voice said from behind me. I turned around and I was met with the beautiful Ashley Davies.

"Um hi Ashley." I said wiping my face.

"Spencer whats wrong?" she rushed over to me.

"Nothing Ashley I had something in my eye." I lied it was the worse lie ever if that.

"Don't give me that bullshit" she told me

"Excuse me." I said taken back by her comment.

"Im sorry its just your lying to me." she looked me in the eyes.

"So why do you care?" I said. But I really wanted to know.

"Because I just do okay...im sorry that I do Spencer but please tell me whats wrong." she pleaded.

I looked at her and the tears just started falling uncontorlbly again. Before I could say anything she grabbed me and wrapped her arms around me. She drew light circles on my back. Whispered "its gonna be okay. Don't cry" into my ear. I stopped whimpering like a sad puppy who was lost and my tears came to a halt. But we still stood there in the middle of the classroom in each others embrace. I moved my head down to her shoulder and opened my eyes. It was hard they felt like they were glued shut.

"Spencer" she said quietly. She moved the hair out of my face.

I looked into her eyes. Wow! There beautiful I've never seen a beautiful shade of brown like the one im looking at right now. Looking in her eyes made me forget everything else going on in my life. I could look into her eyes forever.

The bell must have rang because everyone is in their seats except me and Ashley of course.

"Ms.Davies and Carlin, can you please take your seats." ms lane asked sweetly. I like her shes the nicest teacher I've ever had.

We both took out seats. I couldn't stop thinking about Ashley. Her eyes, the way she smells. It's a mix of spring and heaven. The way she held me while I cired none of the guys I've been with have done that. No one ever made me feel the way shes making me feel. I think I might like her. I've never been with a girl. I've never had a crush on a girl well with the exceptions of Jessica Alba and Carrie underwood. Ashley Davies is...looking at me weird. But why? She gave me a piece of paper.

"Are you okay now.?...& why are you scribbling my name all over your worksheet?"

-Ashley

Shit I did didn't I. Well I didn't write Ashley I wrote A.D. that could be anyone or anything.

"Yeah im okay now thank you! What makes you think its you?"

I gave her the paper back. She smiled as she wrote me back.

"It isnt?"

Think Spencer who could you put to cover it up think..

"Its Aiden Dennison." I passed the note back to her again. Her smile soon turned to a frown.

"Oh so you like him or something?" she wrote back.

"Or something." I hate lying but I don't know how she feels about me or even if I actually like her or im just feeling like this because she was there for me when no one else was. I don't know. I hate my life.

"Um okay" she writes back and turns her attention to ms. Lane talking in front of the classroom.

"Okay class page 56 in your workbook needs to be finished by tommorw. There will be a quiz so be prepared." ms.lane said as the bell rang to go to 2nd hour.

"Ashley" I said.

"Hmm." she said putting her bag over her shoulder.

"Um well I was thinking that maybe we could hang out afterschool or if your busy then.." I rambled.

"Spencer. I 'd love to hang out with you. We can go to my house or something. And if you want I can ask Aiden to join us you can get to know him a little more." she said looking down.

"No! I just want to hang out with you." I said

"Ok I'll wait for you by my car after school then." she smiled. Man do I love that smile.

"Um okay." I smiled back.

This is going to be a long day.