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Chapter 4: Regrets

Natsume's POV

I was pacing back and forth for almost an hour in front of the Emergency Room, waiting for the lights to turn off to signal that the operation was already over.

Realizing that it won't make any difference if I keep on pacing, I decided to sit and think back of what happened earlier.

Flashback

All of us were sitting quietly in the living room, no one even tried to ease the tension building up ever since my argument with Mikan in lobby.

As the apartment door open, I quickly scanned all the people that entered, waiting anxiously for my Mikan to enter so I can grab her In our room and talk and apologize to her in private, but all I saw were angry faces of Youichi, my mom and Hotaru, the sad faces of Sumire, Nonoko and Anna and lastly the grimaced look from Mikan's mom.

"Oi Imai, where is that little girl?" I asked Hotaru of Mikan's where about

"Don't you go using that tone with me Hyuuga, and why the hell should I tell you where she is? So you can hurt her again?" said Hotaru in an angry tone

"Just tell me where the hell is Mikan, I have the right to know damn it?" I snapped and raised my voice as I asked Hotaru where Mikan is, I'm getting really worried about her and I really want to say sorry

"Don't go using that tone to Hotaru-nee Natsume-nii, you hurt already hurt my nee-chan and that is unforgivable" Youichi told me with an angry voice

"Right?, you're saying you have the right to know where she is claiming you're her boyfriend, but what I saw in the lobby and from you're argument, I can say that from then on, you don't have any right to call her as your girlfriend, maybe you should just cut all your relations with her and let her be, then you flirt with that slut Koizumi all you want!" Hotaru told me with venom and pure anger in her voice

I was taken a back by her words; everyone was silent as Hotaru made her way to the window while saying all those words to me, it made me speechless, I know she's right, the way I acted a while ago doesn't really give me the right to be Mikan' boyfriend but I really want to say sorry to Mikan, I didn't really mean everything I did at the lobby.

"It's about to rain, that Baka doesn't have any umbrella… She's outside taking a stroll better follow her and bring an umbrella… bring her back safe and sound, you better apologize to her when you find her, I better see her smiling when she comes back with you, go now… before it's too late" Hotaru said in a calm manner, but the last part almost a whisper, everyone was puzzled on what she said on the last part but I have no time to waste.

End of Flashback

Thinking about what happened in the apartment and the last words that Hotaru whispered that I ignored, everything made sense, her words now kept ringing in my head "… before it's too late" so this is what she means something was wrong with Mikan and I will find it out after the operation, for now Mikan has to survive.

As I wait there for the operation to be finished, everyone that I left in the apartment came running towards me, as they halted in front of me they kept asking me questions.

"What happened" Youichi demanded but it was written on his face that he was really worried

"My daughter, where is she, what happened to her?" Mikan's mom asked, remorse and worry etched on her face

Everyone was still asking where and what happened to Mikan, but what caught my attention was what Hotaru asked

"Tell me what happened when you found her" she demanded so I started telling her everything from the moment I left the apartment.

Flashback

Natsume's POV

As I dashed out of the apartment and into the elevator on my way to find my Mikan all I was thinking was how I will apologize to her , I want her to come back to me, I want her in my arms and smiling at me.

As I run around the city, I keep on getting this weird feeling that something was really wrong, something the words from Hotaru was bugging me "… before it's too late", I have to find Mikan as soon as possible.

I was shouting her name, hoping she would hear me and let me explain and hoping she accept my apology.

"Mikan, Mikan, where are you?" I continued on shouting as I near the street, the signal lights were red so I was not able to cross the street, I looked pass the street and saw an auburn-haired girl, that I recognize was Mikan, she halted on her tracks, "Maybe she heard me calling her" I thought

Mikan turned around, her hazel eyes full of confusion and hurt met my crimson eyes which was full of worry and regret.

At that moment, time has stopped and when both of us realized that the lights turned green, when I was about to walk towards her, she run away.

"Mikan, please stop, can we just talk for a while" I shouted while still running after her, I was almost near her as I was really doing my best to catch up with her but it's not really that I was going faster, I was running at the same speed as before but it's the fact that she was slowing down, maybe she will talk to me now.

I saw her stop, when I looked around what I saw was a beautiful scenery, we were at park where a lot of Sakura trees, it is my and Mikan's favourite place where we always sit back and enjoy the view of the Sakura petals flying around, as I look at her turn around, I was caught on the sight in front of me, as Mikan turned around the cold wind blew past her, it blew her long wavy hair together with the Sakura petals flying around circling her, the sight caught my breath and is very comforting, I was still panting after the long run but I cannot help but look at the beautiful sight in front of me.

"She's so beautiful, how could I have hurt her" was all I can think about

"Mikan, can we please talk for a while" I said as I slowly made my way towards her

Mikan tilted her head up and faced me as I was already a short distance towards her, I can see her face clearly she was smiling her sincerest smile but what caught my eyes was she was also crying. I was about to talk to her when she spoke.

"Natsume, I have been thinking about everything you said, and I realized I have been keeping you from your freedom so now I'll let you go, I'm giving you your freedom Natsume... I wish you would be happy now… I Loved you Natsume and I always will, you will always be in my heart" was what she said, no this can't be happening, Mikan can't break-up with me.

When I was about to talk to her, I saw she was closing her eyes and was falling, so on instant reflex I run to her to catch her before she completely fall and hit her head.

"Mikan, Mikan, wake up, what happened, Mikan, please open your eyes" I was shouting and calling her name asking her to wake up, I panicked and so worried, Mikan was not opening her eyes, and I didn't notice that because of that I was already crying hugging her body.

As I realized that it was not time to panick, I picked her up and called for a taxi

"Take us to the hospital, quick" I told the driver as I was really worried for Mikan

As the driver sped thru traffic, I was stroking Mikan's hair as she lay on my lap, I was getting really worried as I saw her breathing getting slower.

"Could you hurry up a little bit more, this is an emergency, just step on it please" I was already shouting at the driver but I know he understands my situation.

"Mikan, please don't do this, I love you so much, don't leave me, please open you eyes" I whispered to her as I kissed her lips lightly and my tears falling down her cheeks.

As we arrived at the hospital I quickly paid the taxi driver and carried Mikan inside the hospital, as I reached the receiption area I practically shouted help.

"Anyone, please help, my girlfriend needs urgent attention" I shouted, no more tears can be traced from my face

"What happened here?" a doctor said, when I looked at him I recognized him as Hotaru's older brother, Dr. Subaru Imai

"She fainted… after she broke up with me" I said, the last words a whisper but I knew he heard it, when I looked up to him his face showed worry, and immediately he called the nurses and told them to bring Mikan to the emergency/operating room. I think he already knows Mikan's condition even without giving her a check-up as he already ordered the nurses what to do, but to my shock was why the emergency/operating room.

"What, why the emergency room?" was all I can ask

"Explanations later Natsume, for now Mikan's already in danger, we have to save her" was Dr. Imai's words before he rushed inside the emergency room leaving me behind pacing back and forth waiting for the lights to turn off to signal that the operation was over.

End of Flashback

"That was all that happened, until now" I said to Hotaru

"Now tell me, what is wrong with Mikan?" I asked, I really need to know

With that question, everyone stared at Hotaru waiting for her reply, I know she knows something judging from her words in the apartment.

"So that was what happened, I shouldn't have let her go walk around herself, no… I shouldn't have allowed you to go after her" was what Hotaru said with regrets in her voice, but I really need to know what was wrong with Mikan so my temper snapped

"Damn Hotaru, just answer my question, I know you know what is wrong with Mikan, just tell it now, please tell what's wrong with her" I shouted at first but soon turned into pleading, I was really worried about her and I don't care if my pride goes down the drain, I really loved her.

"Don't you dare use that tone with me Hyuuga, you have no right or whatsoever to shout at me, in the first place, this was all your fault, no not only you, this was also your fault Aunt Yuka. You really want to know what the hell is wrong with MY bestfriend" Hotaru was now shouting, her voice filled with anger and sorrow, everyone was quiet, even if I want to speak, I want her to finish what she was about to say

"Well, for everyone of you to know, especially you Hyuuga and Aunt Yuka, Mikan has a weak heart, it was already diagnosed months ago when she fainted when you two had a small fight Hyuuga and she came to me crying, she won't be able to bear any emotional stress or her heart won't be able to take it as what my brother explained to me. My brother already told Mikan that she needed an open heart operation and it was supposed to be scheduled by next week, but noooo… everything went falling when you Aunt Yuka, kept on ignoring Mikan like she wasn't your daughter, that you didn't even want her, and you Hyuuga, I thought you were the smart one, you didn't even notice all this time that Mikan was sick, and you pull off that stunt this morning with Koizumi in front of Mikan, what do you think she will feel, you destroyed her Hyuuga, you were the last person she needed to hurt her that will make her give up her reason for living and going thru this operation. Now see what you have done, even if she undergo this operation, her reason to get thru this was already gone, base on your story, before she blacked out, she gave yo your freedom, meaning she already gave up her life for you, If she doesn't comeback to me alive, if I don't see her smiling again, I won't forgive you Hyuuga" was the longest words that Hotaru spoke, at first she was angry but at the end I know she was also hurt and was already crying.

Ruka went beside her and comforted his girlfriend.

"What have I done, I was a bad mother, how could I do this to my daughter, I'm the worst, Mikan I'm so sorry, please get well soon, I will make it up to you just comeback please" was Aunt Yuka's words of regrets.

"Onee-chan, please be safe, please comeback to us" I heard Youichi say both him and Aoi were crying.

"Mikan, I'm so sorry, please forgive me… I don't know what I will do without you, I will win you back just please comeback to us" was all I can think about as we silently waited for Dr. Imai to come out of the operating room.

"Please Mikan, I didn't mean any of those things I did this morning, I really regret hurting you, just be alive and safe, I promise you I'll make up for every wrong I have done, just please, please be alright" again were my thoughts while praying for everything to be alright.

As we waited for another hour, the lights of the operating room turned off, all of us stood up, and went near the door waiting for Dr. Imai to come out, as the door opened I quickly confronted Dr. Imai.

"Tell us, what happened, is Mikan OK, where is she? Can we see her?" I asked Dr. Imai in a very worried voice

"Nii-san tell us, is Mikan going to be alright, is she fine? Did the operation went well?" Hotaru asked her older brother

Everyone was standing still waiting for his reply, when he spoke all of us were delighted but soon turned sad

"The operation went well, Mikan is alive but… she is now on a coma, her will power to wake up is very low, we will now transfer her to the ICU, for now you can't see her, but tomorrow you can visit her, but only one person is allowed inside the ICU" was what Dr. Imai said before leaving…

To be Continued…