Author's Note:
Yes, it's confusing how Ashley has a kid, and NO it is not Aiden's. I had to make that clear. But I have it all thought out about how she has a kid and nobody knows. In the first chapter, I mentioned that her brother and her father are always on tour, yeah, you got the idea from there, but they are going to make an appearance soon.
Thanks for all the reviews, I loved em.
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Chapter Four
Bad Reputation
The next day at school, Ashley stopped at her locker, throwing all of her text books in there. She was startled when Kyla poked her in the side and leaned against the other lockers.
"What do you want?" she asked, Kyla pouted.
"Why do you think every time I come over to you, I want something?"
"Because every time you come over to me, you want something," she said, not phased at all by her sister.
"Well, there is this one little favor I need," her sister asked, a little hope in her voice. Ashley gave her a look to continue. She hesitated for a second. "We need a replacement on the squad-"
"No, I'm not even going to listen," Ashley said, shutting her locker and started walking away from her sister.
"Ash," she whined. "Please, Spencer will be there," she saw that Ashley's stride had slowed down, seeing that she was interested, she continued to say stuff about the blonde. "And she'll be wearing a cheerleading uniform," she was slowing down more. "And it's only for a few games, and hopefully by then Helen will be back for competition."
Ashley halted and looked at her sister. Spencer+ Cheerleading UniformHotter Beyond Belief. Do you really expect me to turn that down? "Wait, I thought Spencer was the alternative."
"Oh, she was. Until Madison kicked Janice off the team, and then Helen broke her foot because Madison put her on top of the human pyramid even though she's probably the most unbalanced person in the world. Guess it'll teach her to leave Mads alone," Kyla said. If Ashley didn't know Madison's soft spots or how she operated, she would've been scared.
"Does Madison know that I'm going to be the replacement?"
"Actually, yes. You use to be one with her and you know all the basic cheers, you were one of the best cheerleaders then. She'll resort to you if she has to," Kyla said.
Ashley sighed and looked at her sister. "If I agree, no more whining about my Lamborghini or Porsche, do you hear me? No more," she said.
"Thank you, Ash," she smiled and kissed her sister on the cheek. Ashley shook her head and shoved her sister playfully away from her before she went on her way to find her two idiot best friends. She found them on the quad, battling none other than, Madison Duarte.
"Dude, Madison, please, just like back off, all right?" Rae asked. Ashley could see that they were struggling and she knew what Madison was doing, trying to push them to the point to come out. Ashley wasn't going to let that happen, she was going to have to make a scene. A group of people were already gathered around them.
"Aw, little gay girl feeling pressured-" Ashley shoved Madison as hard as she could when she got to her.
"Fuck off, Madison," she said.
"You did not," she said and then started to curse in Spanish, but nobody really knew what she saying. Then she pushed Ashley back, before Ashley took it any farther, she felt a hand on her shoulder. She tried to shove it off of her, but it gripped tight.
"She's not worth it, Ash," the voice whispered into her ear. Ashley stopped immediately, hearing her nickname pretty much breathed out of Spencer's mouth could've been the sexiest thing she's ever heard- and she's heard a lot of sexy things in her short lifetime.
The Latina smirked at what happened but Haley had enough of seeing her there. "Leave, Madison. And FYI they're just friends," she said, standing up from the bench that her and Rae were sitting on.
"Oh, so you're admitting that you and Rae are more then?" she said, grinning evilly. Haley's blood was basically boiling at this point. She heard stuff from Madison's mouth everyday about them and she was this close to admitting it, but she couldn't. Rae was still terrified of coming out, and she couldn't do that to the girl she loved without doing it together, so she had to deny it, even though it hurt.
"No, were just friends," she said as convincingly as she could at that moment.
"Haley and Rae sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes Haley with a baby carriage," Madison and her evil minions sang basically in Haley's face. Before Haley even got to the punch, Ashley stepped in front of her.
"Fucking stop, Madison. We were all your best friends 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, and 10th grade. Now your being a bitch to us because what? We chose to like girls? Really, what is so bad about it? When did you give a fuck?" Ashley yelled. Madison smirked and Ashley closed her eyes, she said 'we'.
"We?"
"Yes, we. I'm in love with Haley Dennison. Get the fuck over it," Rae said and grabbed Haley, not hesitating to kiss her right in front of everybody. Ashley and Spencer smiled and looked at Madison, whose jaw dropped to the ground. The bell rang and the two girls stopped kissing, but both had a smile on their face afterwards.
"See you at practice, Mads," Ashley said and grabbed her two friends, who were now holding hands. She was glad that they finally came out, but felt a little bad that it was her who pretty much did it for them. Plus, now they were going to be kissing everywhere. Eww.
"What do you mean, see you at practice?" Haley asked.
"Kyla might've convinced me to fill in for the squad for a few games," she said sheepishly. Spencer laughed.
"She told me she was going to try, I didn't know she'd actually convince you," the blonde said, still laughing.
"You're going to be a cheer bitch? Isn't this against our code?" Haley asked, Rae just laughed.
"What code?" the brunette asked.
"The code, you know?"
"No, I don't know."
"Oh, well we should make a code saying we can't be a cheer bitch."
"Hey, I'm a cheer bitch!" Spencer said with a pout.
"And I'm a replacement cheer bitch," the brunette said with an identical pout to Spencer's.
"I figured out how she convinced you!" Rae said randomly, causing the three to look at her. She was grinning ear to ear.
"How?" the other two asked in unison.
"She said that you'd be in uniform, duh," Rae said, like it was the obvious thing in the world; which in a way, it was.
Ashley shrugged. "I'd do a lot for that."
"How about, I don't know, go to a game?"
"But I won't be near you. I'll be next to your sweating half naked body. It's almost like sex if we do the human pyramid and I'm holding your ass."
"That's a guys' job."
"In which way, for cheerleading or life?"
Spencer hesitated for a minute. "Cheerleading," she said and then went to her portable, which of course, was different from the other three.
"I think we found a winner," Haley said with a smirk.
Ashley stayed quiet for a little, just smiling as she looked at where Spencer was. It was scary that she had only known the girl two days and she already had this effect on her.
"Earth to Ashley, we need to get to class," Rae said and snapped her fingers in front of her. After they regained Ashley's attention, they went into their portable and took their usual seats next to each other. Of course, Aiden has to sit next Ashley since his stupid ass has this class, too.
"Hey Rae, Hales, Ash," he said and set his messenger bag on his desk. He saw across from his sister, who grew an irritated look because he, like Kyla, always wanted something we he bothered them.
"What do you want?" all three of them asked.
"Did you guys really kiss in front of the whole school because it's bad enough I dated a dyke, but now the school knows my sister is one, too? My rep is going to fly down and there's going to be rumors that I'm gay," Aiden said. Ashley turned so she faced him and kicked his chair over hard so he fell pretty much flat on his face onto the floor. The other two girls laughed.
"Lesson number one, never, ever, ever say that in front of the person you dated that is now a, quote unquote 'dyke'. And plus, dude, that was like 7th or 8th grade. Everybody's forgotten that," she said to him. He got up; the whole class was shocked at first and then laughed. He grew a bright red and picked his chair up and sat back down and pretty much hid his face behind his messenger bag.
"And dude, the whole school would think you were gay if you did half of things you do at home, here. Because they're pretty gay," Haley added. The three laughed and he rolled his eyes, grabbing his back pack and moving to a different seat.
Just then, the teacher walked in and the boring stuff began.
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Ashley almost flew out of the classroom, hoping to catch Spencer before she went to second period. She successfully did.
"Hey," the blonde said with a smile. Ashley smiled back and was about to say something before Spencer said something. "You think it's worth it yet?"
Ashley gave her an odd look. "Worth, what, huh?" Spencer laughed.
"Skipping?"
"Oh, yeah, that sounds good. She can go without a peer today," she smiled; glad that she would have Spencer pretty much to herself.
"Where?"
"Starbucks?"
"Sounds like a plan."
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"Wow, I don't think I've ever heard this song when it wasn't in a movie," Spencer said. They were listening to a mixed CD of Ashley's and 'Bad Reputation' by Joan Jett and The Blackhearts.
Ashley laughed and shrugged. "My freshmen year I thought I was total bad ass and that's when I made this CD. But you can never forget the classics, right?" she said with a soft smile. Spencer nodded.
"Mind if I see what else you listened to in your freshmen year?"
"Don't be astonished if an N'Sync song pops up. Or Backstreet Boys," she said. Spencer raised an eyebrow before laughing.
She changed to the next song which was none other than 'I Need You Tonight' by Backstreet Boys came on. Spencer laughed a bit. "I use to like this song," she smirked.
"It's cute you have to admit," the brunette said.
"Does Ashley Davies have a soft spot for corny boy bands?" Spencer asked, but Ashley smiled, hearing her full name from Spencer made her heart rate go faster.
"Open up your heart to me. And say what's on your mind, oh yes. I know that we have been through so much pain. But I still need you in my lifeless time. And I need you tonight, I need you right now. I know it's in my heart, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right, I really need you tonight," Ashley sang, a smile on her face.
Spencer was taken aback at how the older girl's voice sounded. The radio wasn't up to loud, so she heard it clearly. She was amazing. "I would put that on my Myspace if it was you singing it."
"That's why I still like some of the songs. If Ne-Yo sang it, everybody would love it because it Ne-Yo. Sometimes you have to listen to the song," she said, but they both started laughing at it.
They arrived at Starbucks and got out of the car. "What do you want to drink?" she asked, taking a wallet out of her back pocket and taking a ten out.
"Oh no, no, no, I can pay for myself," the blonde said and subconsciously grabbed for her purse that she didn't have.
"Mhm, I'll just leave you here to clean the dishes then," Ashley smirked and Spencer laughed.
"Yeah, I don't bring my purse to school, but I bring it everywhere else," she said, she laughed softly again. "I'll pay you back."
"No need. It's my treat. I'm Raiffe Davies' daughter. I have more than enough cash," she said. "Now tell me what you want."
"Vanilla Frappuccino," she said.
"One Mocha, one Vanilla Frappuccino please, both grande," Ashley said and gave them the ten bucks. She got her change back and put it in her wallet before she slipped it back into her back pocket. A few minutes later they had their drinks and sat down in the corner of Starbucks.
"So, when you planning on coming out?" Ashley asked, catching the blonde off guard.
"Is never an option?" she asked, Ashley smirked a bit and then shook her head.
"Why'd you tell me and my friends? You could've lied, you know?"
"Yeah, but you had to be catching on. I was flirting with you," she said. Ashley shrugged.
"I thought you were straight," she said. Spencer shrugged also.
"Mine as well just tell others who have been in my position. I mean, I really, why wouldn't I tell you guys? Especially with Haley and Rae coming out today, I don't know," she admitted.
"Maybe you thought we needed another closet gay kid," she said trying to lighten the mood.
Spencer smirked. "Maybe."
Ashley took a sip of her drink and then put it down as she looked into Spencer's eyes.
"So, I'd bet my whole fortune to say that your mom sure as hell doesn't know," the brunette said.
"Ha, I'm probably telling her last," she said, shuddering at even the thought of telling her mother.
"Hardcore Catholic?"
"Yeah, almost kicked my brother out when she walked in on him having sex in his freshmen year. It was his first time. I'm surprised he's actually had the guts to have sex after that. That week was hell for him. Amusing for me," she said with a slight smirk.
"You're one of those evil little sisters, aren't you? Like Kyla," she said. Spencer laughed and shook her head.
"Only when he's evil to me."
Ashley smirked, watching Spencer take a sip of her drink. "So, Carlin, do you flirt with other girls, or is it just me?"
"Oh, I have a whole list of other girls I have to attend to today. I bet that one in second period is missing me, oh well, she'll see me later," Spencer said teasingly.
"Pfft, and here I think I'm special," she smirked.
"Can I ask you questions?"
"Plural?"
"Yes, plural. You can pass if it's too deep, but I want to be straight forward," the blonde said. She wanted to know the real Ashley Davies; not the one she hears in rumors.
"Only if I can ask you a question back," the brunette said and took a sip of her drink.
"Deal," she said and tried to figure out how to word her question. "How many girls have you slept with?"
Ashley almost choked on her drink when Spencer asked that, but saved herself just in time to just swallow it. "Um, wow. Is too many an answer?" she asked. She didn't know if the blonde was disappointed or not, her face was still the same.
"You don't know the number?"
"I had a phase, and that's two questions."
"You answered my question with a question so in a way that's not an answer."
Ashley thought about it and then shrugged. "Fine, my turn. When did you find out you were gay?"
"Beginning of my sophomore year," she said. Ashley waited for her to continue but she didn't. "You asked when, not what happened."
"Smart ass," she said under her breath. "Fine, ask yours."
"Have you ever been in love?"
Ashley paused, taking a sip of her drink to stall the answer. "No," she said after about a minute. "I've loved, but I've never been in love," she admitted. Spencer nodded, not saying anything and waited for Ashley's question. "What happened in your sophomore year to make you like girls?"
"In the locker room, there was this one girl. She was really pretty, beautiful really, and I sorta thought she was cute in a more than, I guess you'd call it, 'straight' way. I got a look at her while she was changing and she had an amazing body, breath-taking really. I didn't admit to myself that I liked girls right then and there, but I know that's how it started," she said. Ashley saw that she had stopped and frowned how Spencer kept stopping in a middle of a story. She would have to use another question to keep it going. "Okay, this is personal, but I heard a rumor that you were suicidal your freshmen year, why?" she asked.
Ashley hesitated big time looking down at the table. She hated that word, nobody used it around her after what happened to Carmen, but this girl didn't know, so she couldn't be mad at her for it. But could she tell her why? "It's stupid," she said softly.
"Ashley, it can't be stupid if you were thinking about ending your life over it," her voice was no louder than a whisper and her hand went over Ashley's. The brunette's eyes looked up into Spencer's.
"My parents were hardly ever home, Brett was always out with his new girl toy, and Kyla had friends to worry about. Yeah, so did I, but I wanted my family way more than my friends. My parents had already split, but sometimes, we'd have family dinners all of us. My mom would even come. And it was nice, like we were a family for one night, but of course, my parents would start fighting and me and Brett would break it up, but it was nice while it lasted, you know?" she said, pausing for a second and looked back down at the table. "I did it for attention. I pretended that I let it slip while I was hanging out with Brett and Ky and they immediately told our parents. My dad stayed home for two weeks, the longest he's ever been home and my mom even cared enough to cancel some vacations and talk to me about it," she said, her voice was getting softer by the second. "I ended up telling my brother why I did it after our parents just went on with their lives. He spent a lot of time with me after that and so did Kyla, and that's when I noticed was all I needed was them, but it was nice to have a mom and dad every once in awhile," she looked up into Spencer's eyes, and they were filled with nothing but sympathy.
"I'm so sorry. Nobody should have to resort to that for their parent's attention," the blonde said and gave Ashley a reassuring squeeze. She just shrugged, not trusting her voice right then and there. "If you want, you can ask me a deep question now."
She cleared her throat, smirking a little. "But I don't know any rumors about you, it's just not the same," she said. Spencer smiled, glad that she bounced back. "Go ahead and ask me more questions, but after you're done, you tell me about that locker room chick, deal?"
Spencer nodded and then thought a little longer. "Okay, since you had that 'phase', do you have any STD's?"
"Nope, clean," she nodded.
"Another deep one, you don't have to answer it, but you and Kayla what happened?"
"Jeez, interested in my love life, hmm? You like me, don't you?" she said with a cocky smirk, more to avoid the question than anything.
"I'm asking the questions now," Spencer said with a small smirk of her own.
Ashley sighed and slurped a big sip of her drink. "If I answer this question truthfully, you may hate me and the chance of you liking me, will be crushed," she warned.
"If that's your way of trying to make me not want to know, it's not working."
Ashley sighed and slipped her hand away from Spencer's since the blonde's was still on top of hers. "Me and Kayla met in like 6th grade. It was me, Kay, Rae, Hales, and Mads; we were the girls everybody wanted to date. Five completely different people, too. Madison couldn't listen to country while Kayla would make fun of rap songs, but we all loved each other. But when me and Kay came out, Madison left the group. Not really thinking we were disgusting, but because of her reputation, she wouldn't have one if she was seen with us. Of course, since we were gay best friends, we were suppose to get together, but it didn't happen like that. We didn't get together until this year," she said, and paused. "My last girlfriend before Kayla committed suicide. Kayla helped me through it and I was vulnerable. She didn't take advantage me, hell, I kissed her, but our feelings weren't the same. I found out mid into our relationship that she had feeling for me for awhile and I, well I was a hollow bitch who basically just stayed with her because I couldn't bring myself to hurt my best friend," she didn't want to look at Spencer at this point, so she stared at her drink as she continued. "I was... I had been drinking one night. I wasn't drunk, but I wasn't sober either. It was late, midnight-ish, and I went over to her house. I was a little horny so as soon as she opened the door, I started kissing her and one thing led to another," she hesitated before the next part. "Thing was, she was virgin," she whispered, with the slightest hope that Spencer might've not heard her. "I knew that, too. But I did it anyway. A week later, I broke up with her. I was, of course, drinking again and I told her exactly how it was. We haven't spoken until she sent that Myspace message the other day. I thought she hated me, but she invited me to go to a Nickelback concert with her. I'd really love nothing more than to become friends with her again because she really is an amazing person, I just never loved her like she did me," she said and continued to stare at her drink, scared to look up and see Spencer's reaction to her story.
"You regret it?" she asked.
"Every day, I wish I just would've told her the truth to start with," the brunette said and looked at Spencer. Her face was unreadable, and it scared Ashley a little.
"Is that you, though? I'm not stupid, I know you like me. Half because Rae told me and half because I have common sense. And maybe I like you, but I don't know you and that story isn't the most convincing one. How do I know that won't be me?" the blonde asked, looking straight into Ashley's eyes.
Ashley broke the eye contact and looked down at the table. "You don't. And you never will unless we try," she said and slowly led her gaze up to Spencer's. "But the thing is with Kayla, I never liked her, liked her, she was always just my best friend," she said, not knowing if it was convincing or not.
Spencer paused. "Do you like me, like me?" the brunette slowly nodded.
"Yeah, I do. I know it's been, like two days, less then that really, but you're… different," she said, a smile playing on her lips. "You're the only one I can't figure out and keeps surprising me by flirting back and not blushing or stuttering words," she admitted.
Spencer stayed quiet and then looked at the clock behind Ashley. "We need to get back, I have a test in History class and I can't miss it," she said and mutely got up and started walking out of Starbucks.
Ashley sighed and let her head fall for a second before she followed suit behind Spencer. She finished her drink and threw it away right before she left through the doors. She was about to unlock her car before somebody called her name, and it wasn't Spencer.
"Ashley, oh wow. I haven't seen you for like a month, that was a great night," a red head said, making Ashley raise her eyebrow.
"Who the hell are you?" she asked, unlocking her car so Spencer could get in. I totally saw that pissed off look she just had, shit.
"Um, don't you remember me? A month ago, Gray?" she asked. Ashley bit the inside of her lip and tried to remember this girl but it wasn't working. It didn't ring a bell.
"Christina? You told me you loved me," she said and got closer to Ashley, wrapping her arms around Ashley's waist and inching her closer to her. She went right for Ashley's ear lobe and that was definitely her soft spot.
She almost gave into the girl but instead pushed her away. "I must've been drunk because I don't remember you. Plus, never believe a person in a one night stand who tell you they love you, are you crazy?" she said and then got into the car, sort of scared to look at Spencer.
She started the car, leaving the baffled red head on the sidewalk. She began the drive back to school, '21 Questions' by 50 Cent playing. Neither of them bothered to mess with the radio.
"That's long behind me."
"A month ago isn't long," Spencer said, maybe with a little attitude, but Ashley couldn't really tell.
"I party every once in awhile, I usually don't do that, but I let it slip," she said softly.
"Let it slip?" the blonde scoffed and looked out the window. Dude, did she really like me that much? Fuck, I blew it.
"I know it sounds like I don't care, the way I phrase it and everything, but I do. I'm ashamed that I don't know how many people I've slept with. I hate it, really. When I went through the phase, when I'd wake up with hangovers and nobody's there, I'd always wonder if anything happened the night before. And then it's worse when I woke up with a girl next to me with no knowledge what so over of the girl," she said, glancing over at Spencer. "I've changed since then, a lot. That was my sophomore and junior year and I wish I could forget it, but I can't."
Spencer just continued to stare out the window for a few minutes, listening to Ashley and thinking about her words. "How do I know you've changed?"
Ashley stayed quiet, pulling into the school parking lot; she stopped the car and looked at Spencer. The blonde was about to get out of the car until Ashley grabbed her by her arm. "Because I'm a mother," she said in the softest voice she could use.
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Author's
Note: Cliffhangers, don't they suck. Hah, sorry but I
couldn't help but end it on that note
Spencer's past is coming, but now you know a little about Ashley's. She is going to explain the whole pregnant and how she gets away without anybody knowing and stuff in the next chapter.
Well, please review and I'll try to update quick.
-Nikki