Chapter 4
by Candylyna
Suzanne looked at the spirit speechless.
- The spirit of Christmas past? She repeated, what the hell do you want?!
- Jacob did tell you to expect some visits, didn't he? Said Anthony.
- Spirits? That's the visit he was talking about? Well a message from a ghost, what did I expect? It could only be another ghost! Figures!
- I'm going to take you to the past, so you can see what you set in motion.
- What I set in motion?
- Yes, what made you what you are now… said Anthony.
There was a windy sound and some fog. She saw Candy happy with him…
- Oh my God! That's Candy, with you! She said looking at him.
- Yes…
- You were with Candy?
- Yes, I loved her very much.
- And she loved you too… said Suzanne. Was that before she met Terry?
- Yes…
- And you die… so if you hadn't died…
- I might still be with Candy.
- "Might"?
- Yes, might, because she loves Terry very much.
- She would've stayed with you. I'm sure of it and Terry would've been available…
- Maybe…
- Maybe…?
They were now watching Candy and Terry's first meeting. They heard Candy's thoughts. She thought Terry looked like Anthony…
- She thought Terry was you?
- From behind only…
- Maybe she transferred her feelings for you to him… it wasn't real love, that's why she left him to me so easily…
- Suzanne… said Anthony shaking her head, just continue watching.
They watched and they saw how Candy and Terry were starting to get closer and closer and how he helped her get over her fear for horses and move on, leaving Anthony behind…
- He actually forced her to move on? She said surprised, he wanted her that much?
- He loved her… said Anthony.
- It doesn't bother you?
- I wasn't there anymore, I was happy she was moving on. I want her to be happy…that's why I'm here…
- You're here for Candy???!!! Figures! She always out stage me!
- Let's continue watching them…
They watched the rest…The kissing-slapping-slapping-slapping, brought a big smile to Suzanne's lips.
- She slapped him! I told you she didn't love him!
- He loved, and she loved him, she was just a little confused…
- You're defending her kiss to another boy?? Right! You want her to be happy! You're weird!
Anthony didn't respond and they continued watching how Terry sacrificed himself and left, how she followed him yelling she loved him… Even Suzanne felt their intense feelings for each other… The return in America, the missed meeting at the Pony hill, and the King Lear… how Terry was looking at where Candy was, without seeing her on stage, how he heard her call his name in the crowd… how he went looking for her, how she lied to Candy, and why Terry stayed a the door waiting for Candy and the glimpse they caught of each other… Suzanne was devastated, because she thought at that time that Terry was in love with her… but he only had one woman in his mind--Candy…
- He was so happy after that when he came back in the train, he even talked to me nicely… it was because of her!!! Oh my God! I was so stupid! All that time I though we had something. How delusional was I? He only loved one woman, that's Candy! I made all that play for him for nothing.
They watched as Terry was rejecting her attention each and every time she tried to befriend him…
- Oh my God, I had no idea he hated me, how could I have taken all that rejection?
- Well, you were blinded by your love for him…
- Love? I look like an obsessed fan! Oh my God!
- I was trying to be nice, said Anthony, but yes you were obsessed with Terry!
Suzanne was feeling sad. She saw how Candy and Terry were writing each other, how excited they were to finally be together at the premiere… her accident, how her mother played on Terry's guilt… How devastated Terry was to be force to be with her. How torn he was when Candy arrived and he couldn't fully enjoyed her presence because of his guilt over her… She was feeling Terry's pain. She saw the stair separation and she was crying… had she known how much Terry loved Candy, she would've refused for him to be with her.
- I was just a charity case, an obligation! No wonder he's so cold to me… I feel like such a burden… forcing him to take care of me, I can feel his pain, that's unbearable.
They saw how he's fall into alcohol… and how the view of Candy sobered him up and made him go back to her…
- So Candy put him back on track? Candy?
She was hurt, devastated… Candy, it all came back to Candy… he was in America because of Candy, he was passionate for the theatre living his dream to be with Candy, he became a drunk, because he missed Candy and he came back to her because he saw Candy!!!!
There was wind and they were back in her room.
- My job is done, said Anthony, think about what I just show you. Think about your life…
- Is that all?
- You'll get another visit… Goodbye Suzanne…
- Goodbye Anthony…
Anthony disappeared. There was another wind chill and a man was in front of her. She had a little scream when she saw him…
- Aah!
- Hello Suzanne Marlowe, I'm the spirit of Christmas present.