This isn't fair. Even ramen didn't make the problem go away. The thoughts are still there.
Maybe... Maybe I should be there when Hinata comes out of the hospital tomorrow, even if she doesn't feel the same. I mean, I don't even know how deep my feelings are. It could be a passing crush or... Or it could be... But it can't be so serious after only a few weeks.
I guess I have known Hinata since the academy but I didn't properly notice her until the chunin exams. Still, I never really knew her properly until she was first admitted into the hospital. I was so worried, despite not really knowing her.
I think it must go back to her fight with Neji during the chunin exams. I felt so angry and protective when he said those things to her: about never being able to change, calling her weak. Hinata would never hurt someone unless she deemed it absolutely necessary. Seeing Neji taking advantage of her kind nature like that... Something inside me snapped. I couldn't have just stood there! She needed someone to believe in her, just as Iruka-sensei and Kakashi-sensei believed in me.
Even now, the thought of her getting hurt... I just... I don't want to think about it.
I know she is a strong kunoichi but that doesn't mean I can't want to protect her.
I definitely care about her or this wouldn't plague me so much. I like her as more than a friend because I can't get her out of my head. She's so pretty without that jacket- Hell, even with the jacket- and she makes me feel so happy, so elated and cared for. I miss the calming glow of her presence.
Even if she doesn't feel the same, I can't lose her as a friend. I need my gentle beauty, my shining star, my heavenly moon in the night sky of life...
Kami, that sounded sappy. I've been reading too many of Pervy Sage's books.
Naruto finally succumbed to the call of sleep, his snoring echoing through his small apartment. Tomorrow would be a good day but not for the reasons Naruto thought.
"Hinata, I'm not sure that you should do this. It could put you through a lot of pain emotionally. Being so close to something you can't have."
"Anything is better than losing him completely."
"But if you were no longer near him, you may be able to get over him."
"I've loved him for far too long for that ever to be true. I..."
"It's ok, Hinata. I understand."
The pale beauty nodded, a small gesture of thanks to her sensei.
"Offer to train with him. Then stay silent and the Knucklehead will soon give in and bring it up on his own. I just hope this won't hurt you in the end."
"It's worth the risk. It always has been. The only difference is now I've had a glimpse of what being around him is like I can't go back to how things were."
"Good luck, Hinata. I'll leave you to rest."
"Good bye Kurenai-sensei."
I will do whatever it takes. I just hope he'll forgive me for my mistake.