HELLOOOO
IT`S MEEEE
jem no
I`M IN CALIFORNIAAA
HELLO FROM THE OUTSIDE
AT LEAST I CAN SAY THAT I TRIED
to post even if I was in Berlin...sorry!
Here, have this super long Chapter 4!
IT DOESN`T TEAR YOU APART ANYMORRREEEE
Enjoy it!
The first thing she noticed after she woke up was, that her head ached.
It was a cold saturday, and her mother had told her that they would visit Octavian and his father again today.
And now, she was ill.
In a crazy way, it was good. She wasn´t ready to face Octavian, not after the last time, when he had turned out to be her best internet friend.
In person, gods, she hated him in person; but when he was Taviqan, acting like her best friend in the whole world, then he was great.
Hello
Her mother made sure she had everything she needed before making her way to Octavian and his father, Fergus; told her to call her if something went wrong, and even promised her that if she would be better by tomorrow, she could go in two weeks and go to the ArtCon in New York, which she received the invitation for today. Meridiana would be at ArtCon, she thought, coughed again, then looked at her phone shortly.
A message, from no one else than Octavian himself, popped up, made her smile a bit. Wait, why was she smiling? She hated Octavian!
Octavian, yes. Taviqan...not so much.
" RACHEL IS ILL! WOOO!" Octavian had texted her, and she rolled her eyes, supressing feeling either offended or smiling.
" You´re so mean" She texted him back, opening her tumblr and looking at the requests, when a video popped up in her messages...a video?
She looked it up, and closed the page in as a huge wave of shock overcame her...
The video was from noone else than Octavian...Taviqan himself, wit the cover set as his own face-
" Hey, I just saw that you went offline, and...are you okay?" He texted her now, but she was to busy coming to breath again. If he revealed his face as Taviqan to her, did that mean that he wanted to see her face as well? Did that mean he wanted to see her, did that mean that she had to reveal that the girl he was always so nice to, Meridiana, the artist; that she was Rachel Dare, the freak, the loser with no friends in real life?
She couldn´t do that, at least not now. Maybe later. Maybe never.
Shaking, she opened tumblr again, clicked on the video.
it´s me
" Um...Hi." said Video-Octavian, his messy blonde hair falling into his eyes, his blue eyes staring right into the camera. " So...Hi. Gods, that´s awkward. Um...Hi. My name is Octavian...but you know me as Taviqan. I thought that, maybe it´s time, time that you finally get to know how I look like. So, yeah. That´s me. You know the rest about me already. You don´t have to send me a video, I know how uncomfortable that makes you. I wish that we could see each other on ArtCon in New York, if you´re going. My father won´t let me. So...that´s it...Bye"
She raised her eyebrows while watching the video, watched it over and over again, because that was so not Octavian of him, being so nice.
When they had met in person, even if he didn´t knew she was Meridian back then, he had been so mean, so ignorant; you could even say he had been narcisstic; and as soon as he didn´t saw her as Rachel Dare any longer, oh how nice he was then, all of sudden.
She shuddered, angry, but touched at the same time.
It wasn´t fair, to her, that even people who only knew her over the Internet were mean to her in person.
But it had always been that way.
The bullying she had to live through whenever she was in real life had started when she fell in love in 5th Grade, with a boy named Percy Jackson. Gods, he still was handsome, but he was in a relationship with another girl, and she was nice, smart. They were cute together.
But, back to 5th Grade.
Unfortunately, at the same time as she fell for him, another girl, 6th class already, liked Percy.
Her name was Calypso Nymph, and she was so pretty, so perfect. She was in Rachels class now, since she failed one grade last year and now was in 11th class like Rachel.
And since then, nothing had changed.
Rachel didn´t have any friends in real life, only Internet friends, and even some of them left her. Everyone left her.
Until Taviqan came along.
She took her phone, texted him, feeling stupid all of sudden.
Why didn´t she just reveal herself?
I was wondering if after all these years
The problem was, that she was afraid.
Afraid that of Octavian would find out who she really was, he would leave her, too.
" Your video was cute" She typed into her phone, sent it to Octavian, a smile on her face when the response came.
" Lies. I´m not cute...but, like, could you tell me your name, maybe?" He had texted, and she closed her eyes, shaking a bit.
Her head started aching again, but then, she opened her eyes again, and decided to take the risk.
" My name is Rachel. Like your weird friends." She typed.
Gods, this was risky. Risky, risky, risky.
" Woah, that´s funny" He had wrote " AND she´s NOT my friend!"
She readt the message, smiling; then, the next message came.
" Rachel is a cute name...because it´s yours."
Blushing, she bit her lip, her head aching once again, and she felt her eyelids drooping down, she yawned.
" Are you flirting with me?" She typed, then drifted of into a weird dream.
Rachel, at the ArtCon, smiling, happy.
But what is that? There are no other artists, only she, and the fans...those fans are scary...
Bloodshot eyes, and mean smiles...they look like Calypso Nymph.
They are throwing her down, to the floor, laughing at her.
" Stupid girl"
She s´tries to stand up, but they are hitting her, and she is freezing all of sudden, when another person comes into her eyesight. Octavian.
Taviqan.
He looks shocked, running to her. " Meridiana!" He cries out, but then stops when he sees her properly.
" You´re not Meridiana!" He says, coldly " You´re a freak...this freak...Rachel!"
You´d like to meet
" Right" One of the Calypsos says, smiling at him. " I´m Meridiana. Just ignore Rachel, that freak"
And then, Octavian...
No, Taviqan...is leaving her, while for her eyes, everything collapses to grey and black, the word LIAR floating infront of her eyes, red words on black ground.
She´s shivering, whispering.
" Don´t leave me...I need you"
She´s whispering " I need you", over and over and over-
and then, she woke up, sweaty.
Her mother was sitting next to her, holding her hand.
" Dear, are you okay? You cried out...the fever is so high. But, I hope that you will be fine soon. Sleep" Her mother said, running a hand over Rachel´s sweaty forehead, and Rachel did as her mother said, fell asleep-
When she woke up again, her mother was gone, and it was still dark outside.
She had one unreadt message on her phone, and looked at it, even if the light hurt her eyes.
It was a message from Octavian, and she shivered, remembering her dream.
Only a dream, she thought, but could it be the reality?
She begged, prayed to god that it wasn´t, would never be.
When she opened the message and readt it, a shiver went down her spine-
" Have been for the past year, but thanks for noticing"
It didn´t make any sense to her.
Not even a bit.
to go over
Everything
They say that time's supposed to heal ya
But I ain't done much healing
Hello, can you hear me?
I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger
and free
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet
There's such a difference
between us
And a million miles
Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
to tell you I'm sorry
for everything that I've done
But when I call you never
seem to be home
Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
to tell you I'm sorry
for breaking your heart
But it don't matter,
it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
Hello
how are you?
It's so typical of me to talk about myself
I'm sorry
I hope
that you're well
Did you ever make it out of that town
Where nothing ever happened?
It's no secret
That the both of us are running out of time
Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
to tell you I'm sorry
for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home
Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
to tell you I'm sorry
for breaking your heart
But it don't matter,
it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
Ooooohh, anymore
Ooooohh, anymore
Ooooohh, anymore
Anymore
Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
to tell you I'm sorry
for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home
Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
to tell you I'm sorry
for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
" Are you flirting with me?"
" Have been for the past year, but thanks for noticing"
I´m back from Berlin, and traumaticised.
It´s terrible what happened around the world.
#prayfortheworld.
#prayfortheworld
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*lizzy voice*
ANd I´ll see you soon
BYE
-Hazy and Jem