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BPOV
Golden beautiful topaz eyes...
Then darkness...
Finally I felt the darkness begin to recede faintly, I felt relief, it would be over soon I thought, although I wasn't sure how long the blackness had consumed me... I then felt something else begin in my toes and fingertips, a strange warm sensation... what was happening to me?
The heat then spread further, becoming hotter and hotter until I wanted to scream "I'm burning! Help me", but I couldn't find my voice, I couldn't move, I was paralysed and I don't know why, fear? pain? Then it hit, my memories flying back at me violently. Edward running towards me, yelling "Noooooo!" with a look of pain and devastation burned across his eyes and then...OH MY GOD! I remember...
Jasper attacked me!
This was not how it was supposed to be, oh jasper I'm so sorry, I hope he'll forgive me, I was so stupid, a stupid clumsy human! My thoughts were suddenly halted as the burning grew impossibly fiercer, spreading throughout my body now and I realised I wasn't dead... no, but perhaps I wish I was, the pain was so fierce. No, I realised I was being changed; into a vampire...I wasn't quite sure how I felt about this. But luckily or maybe not so luckily the fire grew too fierce and consumed me totally now, ceasing any thoughts but the burning.
EPOV
I had gently carried my beautiful pale and broken Bella up to my room and laid her down on our bed. She looked impossibly fragile and I knelt by her side on the floor burying my face in my hands near her head, "God Bella I'm so sorry...so sorry...for everything...it'll be ok...I love you so much, I'm right here, I won't leave you!" I vowed to her, kissing her pale cool cheek. She must be in so much pain right now, I moved to lay beside my love gathering her gently in my arms, soothing her hair and face, holding her, trying in some way to help her through this, I remembered the pain... no matter how much I wanted to forget it, I couldn't bear the thought of my love experiencing such pain and being unable to take it away, it literally caused me physical pain to watch her.
This whole time I listened to her beautiful heartbeat, one of my most favourite sounds in the world, only surpassed by her beautiful sighs of pleasure, how I love those, and I hoped with all my existence that I could make her sigh them again and I would... no matter what, I would not and could not lose my love. Her heartbeat had been gradually slowing and growing fainter throughout the first night and day and I felt another jolt of pain, with the knowledge that she would have to endure more pain before it was over, with most changes taking around three days. Then I thought what will she be like? I knew she would be beautiful, but it was hard for me to comprehend how she could be any more beautiful... but I stopped myself; I couldn't think that far ahead. I had to be here and now, helping my love, I ran my cold holds softly over her face, caressing gently but shakily the bite mark on her beautiful neck, I then stroked my hands down her slender arms to her fingertips and then back up to her face. I knew my hands would not cool the burning she was experiencing but I had to do something, I hoped her knowing I was here made her feel slightly better, she always said she wasn't complete unless I was near or touching her.
I continued to lay with Bella throughout the rest of the day and night; at the beginning of the night her pain seemed to intensify and I felt Bella tense impossibly tighter in my arms, I held her tightly reassuring her, whispering my love in her ear, until the pain seemed to peak and then loosen some of its tight grip on her. In the early hours of the morning I watched her in the pale light of the moon, I could see her changing already, her skin was paler, her skin slightly harder on the hand that I held. She then moved, twitching her hand slightly, I rolled onto my side and brought her onto her side as well and wrapped my arms around her, my face millimetres from hers, then kissing her cheek gently, reassuring her. She didn't or couldn't open her eyes, still too consumed by the burning but responded to my presence, wrapping her arms around my body, gripping my back and pulling us together tightly, holding onto me, for what seemed like her life. I hugged her back tightly, kissing her softly and whispering my love to her.
When dawn broke on the second morning, I was mentally preparing myself to endure another day and night of Bella's pain, waiting for her heart to cease beating, signalling her death and the changes completion, but these thoughts were interrupted by Bella suddenly loosening her grip around my body and opening her eyes at me and then whispering softly "Edward". I was swamped with so many things at once, one: this was too early for her to awaken, two: her eyes are still the beautiful chocolate depths I love so much, but her irises were ringed with the deep red that signalled a newborn, three: her beautiful voice, impossibly softer and calling to me even harder than before, but throughout all this I was simply stunned and mesmerised by her, she was stunning, beautiful, impossibly more so, I couldn't speak... "Edward...Edward is everything ok" she whispered, I snapped out of my thoughts. "Yes my beautiful Bella" bringing my hands up to cup her beautiful face, "Everything is ok now that your back with me", I leant down to kiss her beautiful lips, but suddenly panicked flashed across her eyes and then she was gone, if I wasn't a vampire I wouldn't have even seen her move, but luckily I was, she had sprinted into our bathroom and it sounded like she was throwing up? Impossible, it can't be, she's a vampire now.
I ran to the bathroom, and yes she was truly throwing up, I knelt by her side and gently pulled her hair back from her face, and when she was finished I helped her over to the sink so she could wash her face. Once done I pulled her into my arms and held her tightly "don't worry Bella...its ok, Carlisle will know what to do, what happened", I hoped...
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