Waking in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgraceStuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemyI've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me?I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not preparedI hyperventilate
Looking for hope somehow somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemyI've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me?
God!Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me?
Given Up- Linkin Park
Given Up
Bella
I unboarded the plane and I got my stuff and sat down.
I looked around and saw people with a sign. It said, The Cullen Family.
I got up and walked to them.
"Bella?" The blonde guy whispered.
I nodded, but said nothing.
"Jasper, take her stuff," he said.
The blonde guy, Jasper Hale, took my backpack and luggage.
I gave him a small smile.
We went to the two cars.
I went with Carlisle and Esme, the rest went in the other car.
I stayed lying down in the back seat.
The car ride was quiet. We finally made it to their house. It was big and white. Jasper got my bags and we entered.
It was beautiful.
"Do you like it?" Esme asked.
I nodded.
"Let's sit," she said. Everyone but me sat down.
"So Bella, as you know I am the famous Edward Cullen," he said.
I smiled.
"Too bad you're not straight," I whispered.
"Sit with me," he said.
I went to sit next to him but he pulled me onto his lap.
"So Bella, you know what your new name is right?" Carlisle asked.
I nodded. "Marie Cullen," I whispered.
He nodded.
I noticed everyone paired off.
Rosalie and Emmett, Alice and Jasper, Esme and Carlisle.
"Edward are you dating?" I asked.
"Yes," he told me.
"So I'm the only single one here," I muttered.
"Yeah," Edward said.
We talked a bit. I decided to go to see my room. It was like my old room, bit better.
I saw a teddy bear. It was from Sam when I was five.
Flashback
I was six, Sam was seven, and Jacob was six.
"Sammy, get me the blue teddy bear," I asked.
He got the water gun and got ready. He played, but lost. He tried again. And again. It was his fifth try when he won. Sam gave me the blue one. I hugged him, and kissed his cheek.
"I love you, Sammy," I whispered.
Present
I hugged the bear and cried to sleep.
I was running. I stopped when I saw him.
He was smiling.
"Sammy?" I whispered.
"Belly," he said, smiling.
I ran to hug me but stopped when he appeared.
"Sam, run!" I shouted.
James got a knife and stabbed Sam from behind. I screamed.
I opened my eyes and ran out the room.
Edward
I was awakened by a scream. I heard a knock on my door and I went to open it. The sight caught me off guard.
It was Bella hugging a teddy bear and a blanket. She was crying.
"C-c-can I-I sl-sleep here?" She asked.
"Come here," I said. She hugged me and cried.
"Want to talk about it?" I asked.
"J-James st-stabbed S-Sam," she cried.
"Aw honey," I whispered.
She fell asleep next to me. I put my arm around her waist as she hugged her bear.
Whispers woke me up. I opened my eyes and saw my family.
"What happened last night?" Carlisle asked.
"She came knocking on my door because she had a bad dream. She was crying so much," I explained.
I checked the time and I had to get ready for school.
Bella woke up.
She was still with her teddy bear. She smiled at it.
"Hello," she whispered.
"Hello Bella. You can sleep here or anywhere. Kids time to be ready," Esme told us.
"Where you going?" Bella asked. She looked ready to cry.
"School," Emmett told her, "don't worry Belly-Bear, we'll be back."
"Promise?" She asked.
We all nodded. She clutched her bear harder.
"What's with the bear," Rose asked.
"Someone gave it to me. But he doesn't care about me. This is all I have of him," she whispered. She stared at us. We stared back
"School?" She whispered.
We all ran to get ready. We heard someone giggling. We froze and looked at Bella. She had a smile on her face.
We laughed and started to get ready. We all ate and left.
Lunch came in no time. We decided to call home.
"Hello?" A sleepy Bella answered.
"Hey Bella," I whispered.
"Why did you call so early?" She asked.
"It's the afternoon," Emmett said.
"Is that why it's so bright?" She asked.
"It's like you've never seen the light," Jasper joked.
"I haven't seen it in a year," Bella cried, or when he wanted to torture me outside.
"I didn't mean it like that," Jasper said.
"It's okay," she whispered.
"So what are you doing?" I asked.
"Nothing. When do I get to go to school?" She asked.
"In a week. Mom and dad want you to get used to things," Jasper told her.
"Oh, can you bring pizza on your way home?" She asked.
"Yes, what kind?" I asked.
"Pepperoni," she told us.
"Are you still with the bear," Emmett asked.
"Yes, don't take him away," she begged. She sounded like she was crying.
We all glared at him.
"We aren't going to take him away," Rose told her.
"Okay," she said.
The bell rang. "We have to go, see you when we go home," I said. We said goodbye and left.
School ended. We went to buy pizza and then we went home.
We found Bella asleep on the couch. The television was on the news. It was talking about her. I turned it off and woke her up.
She freaked out at first, then smiled.
The pizza's in the kitchen, I told her. She got up and walked to it. She sat down, with the bear on her lap.
She started eating. It was like that the whole week. Bella would have a nightmare and come to my room. We would go to school. We would call her at lunch. Bring her food. Hang out on the day. Sam and Jacob missed Monday.
She would always be sleeping on the couch, except Friday.
We came home with a sandwich. The bear was on the couch, but she wasn't. The back door was open and the house was freezing.
Damn who left it open? Emmett asked. He had a red bear on his hand for Bella.
Jasper when to check it was raining hard out there.
"BELLA!" Jasper shouted. He ran out the door. We followed him.
"Bella!" He called out. She was on the ground. Her lips were blue and she was shaking. Emmett picked her up. We got a lot of blankets and covered her.
"Rose, call Carlisle," I told her.
Carlisle
I was in my office when Rosalie called me.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Daddy! It's Bella," she said.
"What? What happened?" I asked.
"She was in the rain for god knows how long. She's turning blue. We're trying to warm her up. What do we do?" She asked me.
"Bring her here. Stay on the phone to tell me if anything changes," I told her.
"We have to take her to the hospital," I heard Rose say.
"NO! I WANT MY BEAR!" I heard Bella scream.
"Here," Edward said. I heard them running and close the door. I went to get a stretcher and waited at the entrance.
The brought Bella in and she looked bad. They put her on the stretcher and she smiled at me.
She hugged the bear and closed her eyes.
Alice
It's been a while since they took Bella in there. Carlisle finally walked out.
"She's okay now," Carlisle told us, if she stayed out longer, it would have been worse.
She stayed at the hospital for another day. Emmett gave her the red bear. She named both. The blue one is called Sammy Bear and the red one is Emmy Bear. She would never put them down.
We got her school equipment ready for Monday.
Emmett
I heard a knock on the door at four a.m. Monday morning. I opened it and Bella was holding both her bears.
"Can I sleep with you?" She asked in a small voice.
"Sure," I told her.
I tucked her in and I fell asleep next to her.
Someone was shaking me so I opened my eyes.
I saw Rose standing over me with a smile.
"Hey, sorry I slept with another girl," I told her.
"No, it's fine. She looks so cute," she said.
"I don't think she likes sleeping alone," I told her.
"Me neither," Rose answered.
"I'm going to ask Mom and Dad if we could turn the game room into a camping room. So we can sleep together until she's okay sleeping alone," I told her.
"We never thought of that. Wake her up, it's time for school," Rose told me.
Rose went to tell mom and dad of me idea.
"Bella wake up," I whispered, while shaking her.
She just continued sleeping.
I picked up Emmy Bear and started poking her with its paw.
"Bewwa pwease wake up," I said in a squeaky voice.
Bella woke up and giggled.
"Go get ready and meet us down stairs," I told her.
She nodded and walked out slowly. She turned and walked to me.
"Thank you," she whispered and kissed my cheek. She left super fast.
I smiled and got ready myself.
I went to the kitchen smiling.
"What are you happy about?" Alice asked me.
"Bella came to my room instead of Edward's, and she just kissed my cheek," I told them.
They all smiled and Bella appeared in the kitchen. Her contacts were darker brown, almost black. She was nervous.
"Get something to eat," Esme told her.
She nodded and sat down near Rosalie.
She ate quietly.
We went to school with two cars. Edward's Volvo, and Rosalie's BMW. Bella rode with us. When we got to the school, she didn't want to go anymore.
"Don't make me," she begged. She started crying.
"Please don't cry," I told her.
She was holding the driver seat. She wouldn't let go. No one noticed.
Jacob and Sam were coming towards us.
They stopped when they saw her.
Edward went to them. He talked to both and they left.
"Bella, do you want to drop out of school?" Jasper asked her.
She shook her head.
"Then come on. We'll protect you," he said.
"Promise?" She asked.
We all nodded. She got up and went to Edward.
Bella
Everyone was staring at me. I just looked down. We made of it to the main office.
We stopped at the front desk.
"Ms. Cope," Emmett called out.
She looked at everyone and stopped at me.
"The newest Cullen," she whispered, "nice to meet you. Um you taking tenth grade classes. I made sure someone is next doors."
I nodded and we went to class. Everyone was staring and I hated it.
Rosalie was with me. She went into class with me.
"All the teachers know you've had a hard past. If you need me just get up and go to my class room," she told me.
"Won't they get mad?" I asked.
"No, they understand you need your family," she said.
"Thank you Rosie," I muttered.
I sat down and she left. I heard a chair on my right move, then on my left.
"Listen here girl, stay away from the Cullens. They don't want you. They pity you. We know you were raped. And you liked it," the one with brown hair said.
I got up and left. Once I stepped out the door I started to cry.
Rosalie
"Ms., there is a girl crying outside," John said.
"Bella," I whispered. I ran out to see her rocking herself.
I walked up to her and sat next to her.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"D-do you w-want m-m-me?" She stuttered.
"Of course. You're a part of this family," I whispered.
She just continued crying. The bell rang and we waited for Emmett. He took her to her next class.
Emmett
I went to Bella's class to see her crying. Rosalie got up and walked up to me.
"Make sure she knows you care about her. She thinks we don't want her," she told me.
I nodded and went to Bella. I picked her up.
She just put her head on my chest.
"I'm stupid," she whispered.
"Why?" I asked.
"I'm a seventeen, tenth grader," she told me.
"It's not your fault, it's his," I told her.
She just nodded and closed her eyes.
The week went passed fast. Bella was talking to us less.
Bella
Every day Lauren Mallory and Jessica Stanley would tell me things. They've called me so many.
Some of them were true.
All I knew was that I had to end it. I looked through the cabinets and found it.
Jasper
"Jasper can you go get Bella?" Esme asked.
I went to her room, but she wasn't there.
I saw the bathroom light on.
"Bella," I said, while I knocked.
No answer. I looked around and saw a wet spot on the carpet near the door. I ran my hand threw it and my hand was red.
"EMMETT! CARLISLE!" I shouted. Everyone came running.
"Emmett, knock down the door," I told him. He ran to the door and broke it down.
There was blood on the white floor. Bella was on the floor. Blood coming was out of her veins.
Edward ran out of the room and came back with two pieces of cloth. I tried to stop one wrist and he got the other.
Emmett picked her up and ran to the car. Edward and I went with him. Emmett put her on a stretcher and the doctors took her. The girls ran inside and to us. Edward called Jacob. Jake and Sam both ran in too.
"How is she?" Sam asked.
"We don't know," Rose answered.
We all waited. Finally Carlisle came out.
"How is she?" We all asked at the same time.
"She's going to be okay. The cut wasn't deep, but there was blood loss. She's staying here for the weekend. She on suicide watch also. When she comes back, someone will have to be with her at all times," he told us.
"Can Jake and I see her?" Sam asked.
Carlisle nodded.
Sam
Jake and I went to her room. She was just asleep on the bed. Her wrists were bandaged. She's changed so much. She's paler than anyone. She barely looked like the girl from the picture. Her hair was a bit longer, and different. The contacts, she has to wear to school.
"We miss you," Jacob whispered,
She started to open her eyes.
"Jakey? Sammy?" She asked in shock. We waited for her to tell us off.