Stepping Up To Step Away
Don't own them. Don't make any revenue. Be aware this is the dinner scene and is very naughty in parts. Some may even say NC17. That would be prudish of course. Joking people. It really does deal with a lot of sex. Okay, I said my peace. Hope you enjoy. Review and or follow if you want, I want you to, but may the force be with you my fair reader. I mean choice. Man, I have a sudden itch to mind crush now.
Last week:
"You needed something, Jane?"
"Oh, yes. Needing, right, we need. Ahem, yes, we need to talk."
"About?"
"About the night of the dinner and a couple of other things I shared with you, Maura."
"You mean the dinner at your home with Casey?"
"Yep, that would be the one. Yes."
"Jane, I don't think I can do that. I believe it would bring up unwanted tension between us because it once again would bring to light that I have feelings for you. More than a friend should have I am afraid."
"Maur, it is ok."
"Really Jane, I am beyond it just being… Ok? How can we sit here and discuss that when you know how it affects my emotions. I would think if..."
"Maura, you are not alone."
"Alone? Are you saying? Jane, just what are you saying?"
"I'm saying, Maura Isles, let me re-introduce myself to you. My name is Jane Clementine Rizzoli. I am a lesbian and I am in love with you.
Part 4
"So, you're a 'lesbian' now."
Silence overtook the moment but it was pregnant with confusion, acceptance and a 'thank all that's holy' all rolled into one.
"Does this mean an 'us'? A 'we can be more than just friends' us?"
"If you like and will have me that way, Maur." Jane looked away in thought for a moment. "You know ever since that night of the dinner, Maura, I have been so afraid of myself. As the weeks went by, I grew so tired of the knot that formed in my gut. It was there eating away at me, forcing me to see it for what it was."
"What was it?" Seeing the glint appear in brown eyes across from her, Maura was hesitant to guess. Never-the-less she did. "The knot was your minds way of telling you that you are gay?"
"Nope. Don't start guessing, Dr. Isles. You're no good at it." Now an evil grin took over the detective's face. "The knot was telling me that I wanted to eat you out again. I want to hear you breathe my name like a whispered prayer that can only be answered by me and my body."
The words sent a shiver of need that slithered its way through her upper body to settle between her legs. There, it sparked off a throb that enveloped the Doctor. "Well Jane, I can agree. That night was full of things that I thought I would never experience with you. If I may be so bold, what made you decide to share that with me? I always am curious if you would have ever done it if Casey were not there. Would you have, ever?"
"Honestly, no I don't think so. I was a coward when it came to that."
"You are no coward, Jane. Also, you are allowed to say the word sex." The blond gave her friend a cheeky smile full of mirth.
"I was and I know I can say...that word." A raised dark brow on the lean detective was the only glimmer of mischief to show on the otherwise calm face. "I remember that night. Us. Him. I just wish it had been us. I love you, Maur. That night was beautiful, but it had one too many involved in the bedroom."
Both women got lost in thought, remembering the night that had ultimately brought them together.
They shifted one and all using one hand to trail over each other's body. Maura skimmed her hand lower to Casey's hip, down to the inside of his thighs. Curious fingers traveled up and over his manly, coarse hair gently. Finally the M.E.'s hand came up and was about to grip Casey's manhood when Jane reached out and grabbed her hand in a delicate grip. Jane placed her hand in between Maura's hand and her boyfriend's hard member, shielding the fair skin from having to directly touch her boyfriend's manhood. Accomplishing this, the dark haired brunette began to firmly jerk Casey off. With little direction she encouraged Maura to cup her hand around her pumping fist in order to give Casey a good show of two women stroking his impressive hard on. At the site of the two beautiful ladies working his body over, the military man almost lost his mind and had an orgasm then and there. Easing their very pleasurable hands off of him he physically negotiated Jane onto her back. He turned and then caressed Maura's shoulder while easing her face down on top of Jane. Getting the idea of what he wanted, the women sorted themselves so that Jane's pussy was angled just right so that Casey could penetrate her. Not gaining enough depth because of Maura's round delicious ass, they maneuvered a pillow under Jane to bring her up off the bed in a better position for fucking her. Casey looked down into Jane's eyes and he could tell being under Maura, naked, nipple to nipple and nether regions pressed hard against one another, was driving his girlfriend insane with want. Eyes almost black lusted, met, and stayed. Jane was secretly was imagining that it was only Maura about to enter her. Just the thought of the Doctor pushing deeply into her dripping apex, brought her almost to the point of passing out. Maura, seeing the untold love of her life in such an overwhelming state of passionate distress, placed sweet kisses on her best friend's forehead while whispering soothing words. Casey waited for just the right time to plunge into Jane because he knew she was so close to having the most powerful orgasm he had yet to see her experience. Watching Maura whisper to Jane as she trailed calming fingers over the officer's face and neck turned him on even more. At Jane's nod of approval, Casey gave himself over to his pleasure and shoved himself balls deep into Jane, in one stroke. He was glad for the alcohol piping through his veins, because if not for that, he would have shot his load upon entering.
Later on, after giving Casey all the pleasure he could handle, Jane and Maura decided to leave the bedroom and move to the living room. Their intent was to wind down from the evening. Quietly, they left the bed, heading to the door. They picked up their clothes along the way. Jane opened the door and allowed Maura to go through before her. Smiling as Maura went by, Jane glanced back over to Casey to make sure he was still asleep before she gently closed the door.
As she turned to speak, Jane was rendered speechless as she took in the continued state of her friend's nudity. What really stole the breath from her body was the look of desperate need that was clear and present in hungry green eyes. Always one to crack a joke or at least pull a smirk, Jane quickly found it hard to pull the trigger on either one of her trademark reactions. Still aroused by the M.E., she was drawn to the other woman, moving towards her with unknowing steps. Blind to everything else, Jane stood before Maura. They were still locked in a pheromone alpha/beta war. Sighing, she dropped her eyes to take in the lips she had kissed. When she returned her eyes to Maura's, Jane was taken aback at the tears in her friend's eyes.
"Maura, what's wrong?"
"Oh, Jane, I'm so sorry. I thought I could just let you go. Let it go."
"Maura, what are you talking about?"
"Jane, I have to ask. Please, Jane, let it just be us just once. Please, I need you alone so badly. I ache, Jane. I ache on the inside for you. Just looking at you...please let it be me...just this once"
"Maur, I wish...Maura, it has to be not real out loud."
"Not real out loud? Jane, I don't know what you mean."
"I want you to, Maur. It just cannot be reality."
"You mean you want it to remain like an experiment."
"Yes, Maur. I want you to, but it has to be that way."
"Just to clarify, if we continue to pleasure one another, you would classify our joining as an experiment."
"No. Yes? I'm scared, Maur." Jane admitted with a forced whisper.
Maura's heart broke at the admission. She had done what she had feared she would do. She had frightened Jane. Embarrassed and heartbroken she pulled away. She was surprised when the long, strong arms of her best friend tightened around her, preventing it.
"No, Maur. Stay."
Gathering her courage and fortitude, Jane pushed the unease down until it no longer wreaked havoc with her emotions. Taking a deep breath that was flavored with the sweet essence of the woman in her arms, Jane forced herself to focus on that. After several minutes her body, of its own will, started to respond. Still, something was holding her back.Jane was so overwhelmed by being this close to the naked M.E. She had to close her eyes against the burgeoning feelings of the unknown that was scaring her once again. More than anything else she trusted her friend so by pure instinct she laid her head against the smaller woman's shoulder, seeking the shelter that only Maura could provide, as her body began to shake.Taking a deep breath, Jane tried to settle herself. She placed a soft kiss against the junction of her best friend's neck and shoulder.
"Jane, honey, please. I am really attracted to you and I still want you."
"Maur, I just cannot ... it has to be a fantasy or something. I just can't."
Tears of anguish slipped out of Jane's eyes landing on Maura's naked shoulder. Something was upsetting her and it was disrupting Jane as she knew herself to be to her core. Not wanting this to continue, she tried to bolt away from being held, but deceptively strong arms held her in place.
"Jane, please sweet lady.Shh, it's going to be alright. Stay with me, Jane. It is just us. You know I would never hurt you. It's not worth our friendship."
"I want you to, Maur. I just...it just cannot be real, Maura, please. I don't know what's going on. Why am I feeling this way? It feels so right, but isn't it wrong?"
Maura pulled back as Jane raised her head from her shoulder. She still saw the raw need in her friend's eyes, but there was also something else. Deciding to move forward Maura kissed the detective deeply. With that kiss, she vowed, to herself, that this would be the first and last time they would ever be this way with one another, in this capacity.
"Do you want me?"
"Yes." Jane admitted in a low, tortured voice.
"This is an experiment then. If that is what you need to hear. This is an experiment for you."
Like a starving animal being unleashed from a cage, Jane attacked the M.E.'s lips. She pushed her tongue into the honey blonds' mouth without remorse. Jane felt her own wetness grow asMaura began to thrust herself against her left thigh. Not being close enough, Maura wrapped her arms around the tall brunette, bringing their bodies tighter together.
Jane craved this. Maura, her Maura, nothing else mattered. It was the just the two of them. She had never been so wet. Her body overflowed with want. She raised a shaking hand to Maura's cheek, pulling her up for another hard, wet, tongue twisting kiss that shook both of their souls. Releasing her lips, Jane asked in a broken whisper, for permission from the M.E. to pleasure her. At the go ahead, Jane brought her left hand up and wet her long middle and index fingers in her mouth. Pushing her hand between their bodies while kissing down the refined neck, she entered Maura. Jane began to move in and out slowly. The essence of her friend flowed in copious amounts. The need to please Maura drove Jane to relinquish control over her movements and began to finger fuck her good Doctor swiftly and deeply.
Maura was defenseless against the onslaught. Desire erased the heart splitting word 'experiment' from her mind as a dark, all encompassing craving for the Italian woman took reign over everything and anything.The shorter blond woman looked deeply into her taller friend's eyes and saw a pool of need fueled by an abundant supply of uncontrolled desire. Without knowing how, Maura found herself seated on the couch with Jane kneeling between her legs. With one lick of her best friend's warm, velvety rough, wet tongue up through her center, the world as she knew it ceased to exist. It was only the two of them. Jane, the one, the only, badass detective whom she had always desired in secret and herself. That thought alone was the ultimate fantasy, but that was until Jane demonstrated her never-before-used oral skills. Jane's tongue was dynamic. The body's most perfect muscle was performing acrobatics on her most sensitive area under the direction of her best friend.
"Oh my good God, Jane, do not stop!" Shivering uncontrollably at the amount of desire pulsing though her body, the M.E. had to remind herself to keep her eyes open. She wanted to cement everything of this moment to her inside of her skull, because if this was her only chance to be with the one person she ever truly gave her heart away to, she was damn sure going to remember it.
"Wow, I have to say, that night was very enlightening, in more ways than one." Jane arched her back as she straightened out her legs and brought her palms together, executing a much-needed stretch to help drain off the tension that had developed while thinking back to that night.
Maura watched Jane move with feline grace. All that was missing, she thought, was a forest, and a beam of sunshine curling through the leaves of the trees ending its destination upon the ever-present tanned skin that covered the detective. Shaking her head, Maura cleared away her not-so-pure thoughts.
"Jane, where does that leave us now?"
"Well, my beautiful M.E., that is up to you. For myself, I would love to be with you in every way. I love you, Maura. That's the truth of it. If you choose to wait, I'll respect that. I do not want to, but for you, I will."
"I don't want to wait, Jane."
"What do you want?"
"I want you to follow me to my bedroom and lay with me in my bed tonight."
Sharing a dimpled smile the two women took each other's hand and headed for the stairs that led to a bed that would witness the joining of two halves of a soul, become one.