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Here is chapter 3. It's the end of chapter 2 in Rosalie's POV.
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Two Souls, One Heart
Chapter 3 – Holdin' On
Rosalie's P.O.V:
They say that it's only in the deepest darkness of the night that the stars are visible. And that those stars will always take you where you're supposed to be. They are the reasons you turn to when the world is against you and everything seems impossible.
And right now I was surrounded by nothing. Everything was black, but in the far distance, I knew there were three bright lights. Emmett, and our two baby girls.
And when my body felt like giving up, I clung to my three stars, my reasons, my life.
I heard their voices. Emmett's and Carlisle's. I took in every sentence, every word, but my brain wouldn't comprehend them. Just simple things went through.
I knew that my babies were out, and that there were two instead of one.
I knew that Emmett didn't want to cut in my body with the scalpel, but I barely felt it when he did. Everything seemed so distant. So close, yet so far away.
It was like it was right in front of me, but when I reached out to touch it, I couldn't.
I could feel Emmett's hand holding mine, and hear his scared voice when he talked to me. More than anything I wanted to open my eyes and tell him that I was fine, because like everything else, the pain also felt distant.
It's really hard for me to describe. It was like I wasn't in my body anymore. Like my soul was watching from the sideline, while my body fought the battle. And without my soul, there was no pain.
For all I knew, I could be dead. I didn't know. I didn't see. And it made everything so much harder. I wanted to be able to open my eyes, to see and hold my girls, to assure Emmett that I was ok. To fight the battle on my own.
But I was wrong. Wrong about the pain.
Pain would come. Without any omen of its arrival. And I could do nothing but lay there and accept it all.
I felt him take my hand. I felt him kiss my forehead. It felt more real this time. Closer.
"Rosalie, Rosie." He spoke softly. Hearing him saying my name felt incredibly good.
"I don't know if you can hear me, but I have to try this anyway."
Though his touch felt closer, his voice was still distant. Echoing in the dark room I was locked in.
"As I said before, you gave birth to twin girls. They are so gorgeous and look just like you, except from their dark brown hair. They are doing very well despite their early birth, and they squeal and gurgle a lot."
I wanted to smile, but I didn't remember how to.
"You have to wake up baby, I got a letter from Aro and he is furious about the girls... He has threatened to kill them, unless we do it ourselves."
My comprehension was gone. Aro? My girls? He was going to end their lives?
Unless we do it ourselves… Ourselves…
Killing our babies?
Then it came. I wasn't prepared. It stung like needles in my heart.
The pain.
It cut through me like a knife. No mercy. No sign of it coming. Nothing I could do.
I hoped Emmett didn't feel this kind of pain, nor my girls.
"No, I am not going to kill our babies, and Carlisle is helping me to save them.
But the only option to save them is...is to give them away.
Far away from us, so Aro won't get suspicious or find them."
Give them away. I didn't want to give them away. I wanted my baby girls, I needed them.
I hadn't even laid my eyes on them before they were torn away from me?
How could this be happening? How could I possibly let this happen?
"I really need you to be with our children before we have to give them away.
I don't know what more to say baby. I'm so, so sorry that I can't save you and our babies from this."
I wanted to wake up more than anything. But I fought a battle against invincible darkness.
If I woke, maybe we could find another way through this…
When you've had something growing inside you for 9 months, you grow a love that's like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity. It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.
I'd die for my babies if someone asked me to. Without hesitation at all.
The life without them inside me, seemed like a dream I'd once dreamt...
Now, I could not see my life without them.
A part of me wanted to wake up, see them, hold them. But the other part of me didn't want to wake up, knowing that the goodbye would be a lot harder.
"Please wake up baby, please..."
In that moment, my body made a decision.
One single tear rolled down my cheek.
- My life was changed forever.
*****
"I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing.
With a broken heart, that's still beating.
In the pain, there is healing.
In your name, I find meaning.
So I'm holding on.
I'm barely holding on to you."
- Lifehouse - Broken
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