Manzilein ruswa hain
Khoya hai raasta
Aaye le jaaye
Itni si iltejaa
Ye meri zamanat hai
Tu meri amaanat hai haan...
A face crept over glass, wavering. A hand slightly brushed over the portrait beneath the glass as if trying to feel each and every curvature, the skin as it used to for years till few years back.
Tear threatened to escape from those powerful eyes.
" Aaj humari beti ki shadi ache se hui. Tumne dekha tha na….. wo..wo….kitni khush ti…"
" Us ki shaadi ne muje humari shadi yaad dila di."
(Last chapter was a flashback, had when that auspious song was going on during marriage)
"Hmrgh…. humne socha b nahi tha ki uss din humari shaadi hogi. Sub kuch itne achanak aur dabav par hua aur jis halth maein hua…"
"Aur us din shaadi ke sham humare beech jo hua… "
Pair of lone tears flowed as eye shut tight, as pain engrossed the heart.
Time 7 pm:
Abhijit Residence:
Abhijit and Tarika were just dropped by CID team after marriage.
Abhijit: Tarika.
Silence.
Abhijit: Tarika ?
Silence.
Abhijit turned back to look at her, she was still standing outside his home. Abhijit covered the distance to her.
Abhijit (holding her by shoulder): Tarika andhar aao. Please.
Tarika looked at him with tearful blood shot eyes, her whole body shivering out of anger.
Abhijit (taking deep breath): Tarika chalo andhar mujhe tumse kuch batein karni hai.
Tarika (teary eyes): Mujhe tumse kuch NAHI suni. Abhijit, mein…mein (turning her face down) apne ghar ja rahi huin. Humare beech ab kuch nahi hai na kuch ho saktha.
Abhijit dropped his hands to his sides. Tarika took a step to walk away. Abhijit held her left wrist and walked her inside, giving no heed to Tarika's protest.
Abhijit pushed Tarika to the centre of hall. Tarika tried to walk out again, but Abhijit blocked her. Tarika glared hard at him and walked past him. Abhijit didn't stop her this time.
Abhijit(low tone, just as she was crossing him): Tumhara sara samaan yahan hai.
Tarika turned around to face him in shock.
Abhijit (turned around to face her): Mujhe patha tha tum esa kuch karogi issliye shaadi ke waqt.
Tarika(smirking): Shaadi ? … tum jo hua use shaadi kehte ho. Mein ise zabardasti kehti huin. Tum… (voice shaking a bit) tumne meri …fai…fai… faida utaya… jab mein apne right frame of mind mein nahiti. Register mein sign karne keliye Salunkh sir se jaan lene ki dhamki dene ko kaha.
Abhijit(keeping his temper): Salunkhe sir ka idea tha, mera nahi. Kyun ki wo jante te ki meri faisala sahi hai. Unhe b patha hai ki mein tumhere liye sahi huin.
Tarika(angry tone): (pointing at him) TUM….Tum mere life ke sabse bade Galati ho. Suna Galati ho tum. Tumne khud mere life ke baremein descision kese leli. Tum ko koi right nahi hai ese karne ki. Meine phele b kaha you mean nothing…. Nothing in my life.
Abhijit(painful anger): BUS….bus Tarika. Aur kitna hurt karogi mujhe aur apne aap ko. Tum jhut bol rahi ho. Ye saaf saaf dik raha ha.
*Tarika tried to talk*
Nahi ab mein boluinga tum sunogi. Tumne bahut kuch phele hi boldiya Tarika. Ab meri bari hai. Mein aur chup nahi rehunga. Sach se bhagne ki galti nahi karunga. I will face it. Aur ek din tumhe b face karne padegi ki tum b mujh se utna hi pyaar karte ho jitna mein tumse kartha huin…. Chahe tum kitna b bhaglo Tarika.
*Tarika tried to interrupt again*
Chup Tarika.
Tarika(in pain seeing him hurt): Kyun chup rahuin mein abhijit ? Aur kya pyar, kesa pyar aur kis pyar ke baremein bath kar rahe ho tum.(Abhijit was totally shocked by her statement). Tumne pehlehi iss chiz ki wajah mujhe bohot taklif di hai, ab or ketna taklif doge tum? (holding back her tears) Phele tum mujhse dur gaye. Ab mein jana chati huin tho tum rokh kyun rahe ho. Tumhi ye chate te na tab.
Abhijeet(sad tone): Patha hai mujhe meine galti ki tumse dur jake. Dar gaya tha mein us din. Agar mujhe kuch hojatha tho mein tumhe….wo…us….(averting his eyes from her)us halath mein nahi dekh saktha tumhe. Nahi chatha tum mereliye us dard se guzaro mere jane ke baad.
Par jab tumko dekhe bina wo 14 days guzarne pade tab….ek ek pal bahut mushkil tha katna. Itna dard mehasoos hua ki mujhe uss din meri maa ko pehchane mein inkaar karne ke waqt sochkar b nahi hotha. Dil itna bechain hogaya ki meri ankhe sirf tumhe dundh rahiti, aur dil ki dhakan tumhare hi naam le rahiti.
Jab meine tumhe Virat ke saath dance karte hue dekha tho mujhe jalan feel huyi… kahin mein gabara b gaya ye sochke ki kya Virat mujhse b jada tumko pyaar na karein… Kahin tum meri zindagi se chali tho nahi gayi. Apne pyaar par hi himath ko baita mein…. Aur tab tum ayi, mere khaylon mein.
Humari saath bitaye yaadein aur wo akir din jab tum mere ghar ayi… Tum mere saath na hoke b meri hausala badaya. Humari sath sath bitaye din ki yaadeinne mujhe wo thakat di. Tumhare in ankhon mein jo mereliye itne pyaar bare hotete usne mujhe apni zamin pe tikaya Tarika.
Mujhe ehsaa hua ki Pyaar se jude hue dard aur dar pyaar se hi tik kare jate hain…pyaar karne waalon se bhag ke nahi.
(Abhijit walked forward.)
(Tarika's eyes filled with fear to see Abhijit loving her so much as much as she wished.)
Maanta huin mein ki ye shaadi zabardasti karwayi hai tumse. Par ye shaadi galat nahi hai. Balehi humne saath phere na li ho par Tarika tumko ye wachan deta huin ki tumhe mein har duk aur dard se bachahuinga, har khushi duinga par tumhe meri sath deni hogi. Tumhari shaadi ke sapne pure nahi ki par shaadi ke baad wali zindagi ke sapne pura karunga Tarika.
Mera….pyaar sacha hai. Humara pyaar kamzor nahi hai. Mein eek bar jane di parjab wo firse aagayi tho ab kabi jane nahi dunga. Nahi rehpaunga mein tumhare bina. Nahi dhek saktha koi tumhara khwashion ko pura karte. Tumhari har khushi sirf mein dena chata huin. Aur teri har dard ka marham sirf aur sirf mein bana chata huin.
I want to be the only one in your life whom you trust blindly damn it.
(Silence)
Is waqt hum dono ne sab kuch koiya hai. Humare dil mein andhera hai jo pyar keliye thadap rahi hai. Tum manogi nahi Tarika. Agar esa nahi hai tho tum apne akelapan ko dur karne keliye ek terminal cancer patient ko adopt nahi karti church se.
(Silence.)
(Stepping forward.)
Abhijit(bleak tone): Pyar tumhe b chahiye mujhe b. Aur dono ko sirf sur sirf ek dusre k pyaar ki zarurath hai. Aur humare dil ko aur koi nahi bar saktha Tarika.
(holding her shoulders tightly)
Jab mein tumse dur gaya tab tumne meri intezar ki. Ab meri bari hai. Jitna waqt chahiye lelo Tarika. Mein zindagi bar rukhne ko tayar huin. Tum yahin rehna. Apna ghar samjhna. Tumhe dhekar hi puri zindagi katlunga mein.
(Just above whisper)
Kyun ki mein tumse pyaar kartha huin.
Saying he tenderly kissed her forehead by holding her cheeks. He put everything, words and unsaid.
For a second love sparked between them. Both looked into each other's eyes lost.
Tarika removed his hands and walked past him. Abhijit stood there with his head hung low, shoulder slouched.
His words were ringing in Tarika's ears. She was in shock. Nothing was happening in a normal way. A confession which she dreamt for years happened now after their unusual marriage, but at a very unimaginable odd way. She sat on the dinning chair still stunned.
Abhijit sat on the sofa. He had his hands on the knees and head buried in his palms, all the held up tears flowing down freely.
Sun raha hai naa tu
Ro raha hoon main
Sun raha hai naa tu
Kyun ro raha hun main
Tarika just lay on the table totally drained. Whatever he said was too much truth to digest which she didn't want all this to happen now. She knew she wasn't worthy of him nor his love. Now after knowing that she…. Still God played games with her. After taking away everything he was giving what she wished for all her life before when she didn't want it.
A/N: Dedicate this chapter to Kamikaze Me. And thanks a lot for helping me out in this chapter.
Chapter on whole is filmy, but tried to keep the dialogue natural. Emotions and thoughts in human mind keep changing so some lines may seem to be repetitive and boring. Sorry for that. I really don't know how good this chapter is. I am sorry if this is rotten and extremely sorry for late update.