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Chapter 4

Enough

Sebastians POV

I'd left the room that Ciel and Elizabeth were in saying I had to make lunch preparations. I'm sorry master, I lied. I couldn't stand to see you and her chatting so happily.

I went to the kitchen to make myself some tea. I smelled something awfully strange. Almost as if…

"Sebastian!" cried Bard "nothing to see here! You can go back to doing whatever butlers do!" I hope he knew I could see the burned steak behind him. The one that was supposed to be for Ciel's lunch.

I sighed, turned around, and left to go to the garden. I really needed to hire an actual cook.
Praying Finny hadn't destroyed the flowerbeds or any other part of the yard I'd toiled over I stepped outside. Thankfully everything was the same as I remember leaving it.

Since I still had some time before i needed to attend to the ruined lunch I decided to contemplate how I should pleasure Ciel tonight. Obviously he'd be bottom, that much I was sure. Despite how he'd grown I was still a few inches taller than him and also much stronger.

Sebastian had waited very long for this day when he could finally hold Ciel. It probably didn't seem long to Ciel, in fact Sebastian had only taken an interest in Ciel's soul up until Ciel turned 16. Four long years Sebastian had been thinking of only Ciel, nothing else. Those four years seemed to stretch on forever, and constantly being near Ciel probably hadn't helped Sebastians growing desire to monopolize his master. Changing the Lord's clothes and bathing him proved to be a admirable foe against Sebastian's willpower. Finally Sebastian didn't constantly have to fight the instinct to feel Ciel.

Sebastian's mind began to burrow deeper into more things he couldn't wait to do to his master, no, his uke.

Instinctively licking his lips in anticipation he began to think thoughts that he would never share with anyone, except he hoped to try them out in bed…

His eyes closed as he thought more deeply. He could almost feel Ciel touching him. Sebastian so desperately wanted to embrace Ciel's small frame, but at the same time wanted to completely ravish him.

Before Sebastian completely became unaware of his surroundings a loud crash was heard in the house.

What was going on?!

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Ciels POV

It had been quite some time since sebastian had exited the room. I unconsciously I kept glancing at the door, wanting him to come in.

"Cie~l! Hello?! Are you paying any attention?!" Lizzy said into my ear playfully.

"Hm? Oh yes, something about the winter ball coming up? I thought we already discussed the arrangements. I'd be meeting you there since I'd be in a meeting late. Don't worry I'll come." I said, a somewhat bored tone entering my voice.

"Hey," she lightly smacked my arm, "why don't I go to that meeting with you? As your future wife I'd love to see what you do! Oh, I could even wear that beautiful new dress my papa got me! The golden one! Yes and then we'd go straight to the ball! It'd be perfect!" she beamed.

"No, I wouldn't want to have you sit in one of those stuffy meetings. They aren't fun and it's all pure business. You probably wouldn't understand what we talk about." I lied. I really did not have to have Lizzy constantly proclaiming our engagement everywhere we went. Even if she didn't bring up the engagement she'd look at me expectantly to introduce her as "the future Mrs. Phantomhive."

"Awh Ceil! Pleas~e! I promise not to talk during the meeting! And as long as I'm with you it doesn't matter if I don't understand!"

"Elizabeth, I think you'd much rather go to the ball before me."

"But Ceil-"

"NO!" I yelled. Wait, did I really just yell at Lizzy?! And somehow I was standing with my back turned to her.

"Elizabeth just stop," was that me talking?! "I don't have time for games anymore. Please don't try to act like you don't already know. If you don't then you really are dense." I was still facing away from her but I don't remember telling my mouth to speak. Was it even me talking? Yes, it sounded just like me, but it seemed so far off. "In case you don't get what I'm talking about I might as well spell it out for you.

"I don't see you as anything more than a friend. Why else would I decline getting married when we were 18? It was because I didn't see you as a lover. I'm not sure if I ever did. It's that simple."

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What. Just. Happened.

In my head I was screaming "what are you doing! No! Stop!" but my mouth wouldn't listen.

Everything was quiet for a while. My throat was dry, as if I'd been yelling. Finally I heard a small whimper. One that was sure to be followed by sobs.

I slowly turned around. Every second seemed to move so slowly. When I was fully facing Lizzy I wished I could die. Her eyes were watery, fighting tears that were about to fall. Her mouth was scrunched up in a grimace, trying to hold back the strangled cries that attempted to escape her throat. And worst of all her hands were clenched around her engagement ring, equally wanting to pull it off and throw it at me, and wanting to beg me to say I was joking.

I couldn't say sorry though. Firstly because my throat was so constricted at the sight of her inner battle and secondly because it was all true. I couldn't say I was joking and then later break her heart again.

"Lizzy, you need to find someone who loves you back equally. Someone who's not me."

I was surprised at my ability to sound so calm.

Her face contorted in anger then in agony. She let out a strangled cry, then another and finally a huge sob. She jumped off the couch and blindly ran towards the door.

"Lizzy, wait! You'll hurt yourself!" I cried after her but she was already in the hallway on her way to the front door. I chased after her but she was running hard. She ran into a table that was holding plates and other chinaware, knocking the whole thing over and creating a huge crash. I narrowly missed getting hit by a saucer but avoiding the glass took precious time. Lizzy was far ahead of me.

"Lizzy!"

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I could hardly keep up anymore. We'd run all the way out the doors and to where her carriage was waiting.

"Elizabeth! Please stop!"

She stopped but did not turn around. I could still hear her crying and her hands were at her face wiping away tears.

"I'm not sorry I've hurt you now. The reason for my sorrow is that I had to hurt you in the first place. You are a dear friend of mine and I did not want to hurt you more than necessary. This was the only way you can be happy later. I won't ask you to forgive me, I don't deserve forgiveness, but at least accept that I will always care for you as a friend."

I breathed a sigh after finally saying what I'd wanted to say for so long.

"C… Ciel. Thank you." she gave a slight, wavering chuckle and turned around. "I accept your feelings of friendship, although you should know it will be a while before I move on. I'm glad you told me now, instead of at the altar. I cannot forgive you yet, though I hope to someday. Thank you Ciel." she smiled sadly and stepped into her open carriage.

"Thank you."

Before you murder me Elizabeth fans please listen!

I don't like making her sad and I got no pleasure out of it, but I didn't want her and Ciel together while Ciel was cheating on her with Sebastian. That's not fair to any of them, especially her.

Please take care of me!

KRM