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Chapter Four

Natalie let the water hit her and burn her skin in the shower as she stood there completely in shock over what had just occured, she had sex with john, Michaels brother in a pasture in the back yard, she wanted to laugh at how crazy it sounded but all she did was cry as the water washed her tears away. How could she of done that, she felt lower then scum and yet her body was still reeling in the sensation over the way he took her body, images of it flashing through her mind..

He held her down with the force of his body as his hips pounded against her flesh, hitting a sweet spot inside of her she didnt even know exsisted til now and all she could hear was their panting and moans as he entered her again and again..

Her body matched his thrust for thrust as her hips moved on their own, joining his in the fuck of her life. His grunts were getting deeper as his movements became faster and harder, his mouth covered her as she cried out as her orgasm hit her, nearly knocking the wind out of her body as she clawed his back some more until he was thrusting wildly into her as his cock engorged and then she felt him flood her body with his hot seed as he collasped on her, breathing ragged as he kissed the side of her neck over and over..

She shook her head to wipe the images from her mind as she stayed under the hot stream of water, her cry was now a deep sob as she leaned against the cool tile, how in the hell was she gonna explain this to Michael, could she even do that, could she even look at him again?

After her not so relaxing shower she laid in her bed, she felt sick to her stomach and right about now all she wanted was to go home, back to AC and back to her life and away from all of this craziness but the sound of her phone ringing alerted her as she jumped and immediately looked at it, wondering if it was Michael calling but relief washed over her when she saw it was her friend Gigi from back in AC and she quickly answered..

"Holy shit you finally answer, you know i have been worried sick about you" Gigi began as natalie sighed..

"Im fine gigi, i told you i was heading to lanview" she began as that guilt crept back up..

"Uh yeah but then you never called to tell me how it went" Gigi said quickly as natalie sighed.."and, so spit it out, how did it go"

"fine" natalie sat up now on the bed.."its fine"

"Ok well nothing about that sounded fine, is his family being mean to you" Gigi said defensively..

"No gigi, they are fine, everything is fine" Natalie said again..

"Fine, huh? Whats wrong" Gigi had the uncanny ability to know everytime natalie was upset and apparently this time wasnt any different..

"nothing, i was just sleeping thats all" Natalie said as she sat there..

"and its like three pm" Gigi began..

"I may of had too much to drink last night" she began as Gigi laughed..

"ah your hung over, i get it" she laughed as natalie fell back onto the bed.."well good for you girl, you never get out anymore these days"

"yeah well i am not drinking for a very long time" Natalie began as she blocked out images of John in her mind and she quickly stood up and began to pace..

"yeah yeah, we all say that, so tell me how is it going to Michael, everything still awesome" Gigi said with a laugh..

"yeah sure, he is out possibly getting a job offer right now" Natalie began..

"holy shit already, that is great news" Gigi said with excitement..

"yeah it is" Natalie said quietly..

"Ok so what am i missing here, your spending an awesome two weeks with your kick ass boyfriend, you've met his family and he may potentially be getting a great job" Gigi continued..

"I slept with his brother" the words came out just above a whisper and honestly natalie was as shocked at herself for saying the words as Gigi was hearing them, the phone line got dead for a moment but then it was filled with laughing..

"Oh my god i swear i just heard you say you slept with his brother, thats a good one nat" Gigi laughed and natalie got very quiet.."You are joking right" Gigi got serious.."nat tell me you are joking"

"I wish i was" she said low as tears filled her eyes..

"Oh my god nat what the hell ,you have been there barely two days" Gigi began to yell..

"i know ok, i know, im not happy about it" Natalie said as she stifled a cry..

"Holy shit, how the hell did this happen, does Michael know" Gigi began with concern..

"No of course not, oh my god Gigi what am i going to do" natalie said with tears..

"For starters your going to calm down ok, and then you going to explain to me what the hell happened" Gigi tried to remain calm..

"I dont even know how it happened, it just...it just did, god i have fucked everything up" natalie said as she covered her face with her hands..

"but Michael doesnt know right, so that is good, we dont need to freak out nat, this is fine, it is" Gigi said with a panicky voice..

"i slept with his" Natalie began with tears..

"dont even finish that sentence ok, dont even think about it, actually act like it hasnt happened and get your ass home pronto" Gigi said quickly..

"I cant just leave" natalie said in tears..

"Like hell you cant, just say there is a family emergency, your dad is sick, hell say i am sick" Gigi said frantically..

"he is gonna hate me, my dad will find out, my god Gigi i have just ruined my life" she cried..

"fine then im coming to you" Gigi began as natalie's eyes got wide..

"No, you cant do that" she finally stopped crying..

"Watch me, im not gonna let this get the best of you Nat, im coming there" Gigi said as natalie felt her chest tighten..

"Ok ok, im better ok... im not freaking out" natalie began as the phone line went dead.."hello...gigi? Hello?" she yelled into the phone but no one was there..The sound of a car pulling up and the the sound of Michaels voice outside made her jump as she ran to the window and looked out as he got out of the car, she quickly backed up from the window and ran to the bathroom, she needed to get a grip, she couldnt let him see her like this and so she quickly tried to fix herself, like it or not she was gonna have to face him..

Thankfully as she got downstairs John was no where to be seen, right now she seriously didnt want to deal with him, it was gonna be weird enough as it was..

He lay collasped on her as he tried to regain his breathing.."that was amazing" he said as he finally pulled his head back from her and smoothed the damp locks from her face..

Natalie could barely look at him now, the realization hitting her hard as she laid there on the ground, he was still inside of her as she rolled her head to the side.."look at me natalie" he said a bit demandingly as she finally turned her head, a lone tear tracing down her cheek.."this was not a mistake" he said as if he could read her mind and then he moved off of her as he grabbed his jeans.."its not everyday that you connect with someone like we did" he continued as she wiped the tear from her face and grabbed her jeans, she felt so horrible right now, she wanted to die and mainly cause she still wanted him, she wanted more of him, what the hell was wrong with her.."he's my brother, i get that ok but he will get over it, he will move on" he continued as she stood up now and adjusted her clothes..

"what do you mean, this is never happening again" she finally said as he looked at her..

"so your just gonna go back to him, just like that" he said in shock as she looked away.."No...no i wont let you" he walked over to her and he grabbed her arm as she looked at him now..

"he is your brother, my boyfriend.. Im not doing this, im not hurting him" she said with tears as she looked at him and he let go of her arm..

"so your gonna deny this..." he looked at her.."because of guilt to him, come on natalie you wouldnt even let him touch you" he said angrily..

"i dont care ok, i dont, this was nothing ok, a bad decision" she said with tears..

"Bullshit, this was two people who felt something from the first time they saw each other, this is real" he said as he moved closer to her and she swallowed hard.."Tell me that he makes you feel this way" he said with a heavy desperate breath..

"dont you get it, it doesnt matter, none of it does... Im with Michael" she said with tears..

"we'll see...we'll see" he said as he backed up from her.."you cant ignore this, as much as you try Natalie you cant ignore this" he yelled as he walked away from her and she stood there and cried..

"There you are" Michael said as he turned and looked at Natalie as she came down the stairs, he ran up to her and surprisingly picked her up as he spun her around..His mouth closed on hers fast in a smoldering kiss as he spun her around, it literally took her breath away...

"i thought i heard a commotion in here" Joseph said as he entered the room and Michael put her down as he looked at his dad..

"i did it, your looking at Pennsylvanias new assistant chairman to the senator" he said with a beaming smile, it literally took natalie by surprise..

"thats my boy" Joseph said proudly as they hugged and natalie stood there shell shocked and then michael looked at her..

"Im so proud of you" she said quickly as she forced a smile and he walked back up to her and grabbed her hand..

"i couldnt of done it without you" he squeezed her hand..

"well this calls for a celebration" Joseph said with a smile.."were going out tonight, go find your brother and tell him the news" Joseph said as he left the room and Michael looked at natalie..

"i really did it Natalie,I finally got everything i wanted and needed" he said as he kissed her again and then quickly pulled back.."have you seen John?"

"No" she said quickly as guilt coursed through her..

"wait here" he said as he ran up the stairs calling out Johns name, natalie moved into the livingroom and wrapped her arms around herself, this was becoming a nightmare..

The sound of the front door opening made her look and then there he was, John and he looked at her.."We need to talk " he said as he walked over to her and her eyes got wide as Michael could be heard calling his name.."whats going on"

"Your brother has some news" she said nervously as John looked up by the staircase and then Michael came running down..

"He's not up there, he must of gone out" he began and then he saw John.."Oh man there you are" he said with excitement as he ran over to John who looked at him all confused.

"Whats going on Michael" he said suspiciously as natalie backed up some, she seriously was about to have a panic attack..

"I did it man, i got the job, your looking at Pennsylvania's next assistant to the senator" Michael said as he walked over to natalie and put his arm around her.."so get dressed, were going out to celebrate" he smiled big as John looked over at the two of them, his eyes lingering on natalie who looked like she was about to pass out.."come on John, lets go, this is a cause of celebration" Michael said again as he turned and looked at Natalie and then quickly he pulled her into a kiss as John stood there and then he walked up stairs to get dressed..

They all headed to a restuarant across town called The Palace, it was very swanky and very expensive but Joseph was adament about going there for his boys and so they did but it didnt help the uncomfortableness that natalie and John felt as they sat across from one another, sipping wine as Michael and his father went on and on about how wonderful his new job would be..

"Im just so happy to have you back in Lanview" Joseph began and Natalie now looked at Michael as he happily sipped his wine..

"Your moving back to lanview?" she asked..

"well it is a seat on the board in Pennsylvania" he began as she stared at her drink and then sipped it more..

"Isnt Natalie going to school in AC" John quickly interjected and natalie nearly spit out her drink as she looked at John all wide eyed, god why did he have to say anything, it was making this even more awkward..

"well yeah but there are colleges everywhere, you can transfer, right" Michael began as Natalie stared back at her glass..

"Im working for my dads business right now michael as well as school" she said as she glanced up at him..

"But you have been saying that you couldnt wait to get out from under him, is that changed now" he said with worry in his voice.."this is a big deal for me natalie"

Natalie took another sip of her drink, she really didnt want to have this conversation here and now..Thankfully Joseph had already been thinking the same thing.."Listen there will be plenty of time to discuss all of this, right now we should all just focus on this wonderful meal were about to eat" he said as they all looked at him..

"i need some air, its too stuffy in here" John said abruptly as he got up, his chair screeching across the floor as he walked over to the balcony and everyone got quiet..

"what is his deal dad, cant he just once be happy for me" Michael said with annoyance..

"Michael right now is neither the time or place for this" Joseph said warningly as Michael sighed and then reached over and took Natalie's hand in his and kissed the top of it..

"Your right, im not going to let anything get me down" he said with a nod of his head as he smiled at natalie who just nervously smiled and drank back her wine..

The food came as John came back to the table, the steaks looked wonderful and everyone ate even though Natalie felt incredibly sick to her stomach as she sat there, finally she had excused herself to the ladies room, this was all just too much for her to bear..

She had just about made it to the bathroom when a hand grabbed her and pulled her into the nearby coat room and her eyes got wide as she saw it was John.."what are you doing" she said in shock as she looked at him..

"what are you doing" he said with annoyance..

"Listen im not doing this right now ok" she said as she tried to walk out and he grabbed her arm, stopping her..

"I am not just gonna let this go, there is something going on between us" he said seriously as he looked at her..

"we are at your brothers celebration dinner, do you not see that" she yanked her arm back as he ran a frustrated hand through his long hair..

"fine your right" he said as he looked at her.."then you tell him tomorrow" he said adamently..

"what, tell him what" she said in shock as she shook her head...

He walked up to her until her back was against the wall and his arms boxed her in.."i get it you dont want to hurt him ok, but he is gonna be so busy in the next few weeks" he began as he looked at her..

"do you even hear yourself, im not doing that to him ok" she tried to move but he just moved in closer to her..

"I know you feel something here" he was breathing heavy now as he looked at her and she swallowed hard.."say you dont and i will walk away right now" his eyes challenged hers and she felt her heart race.."You cant do it , can you, cause you feel something for me"

"i dont know what i feel right now, ok but i do know your brother is out there and like it or not he is my boyfriend" she said with wide eyes as her voice shook..."Please just let me go" she said with a desperate plead in her voice..

"Fine, but not until i do this" he said as he leaned into her and his mouth collasped on hers in a very hot kiss that had her toes absolutely tingling as she stood there but then just as quickly he pulled back , breathless as was she as he looked at her and then he was backing up as he left the closet and she stood there shaking and completely confused as to what she was going to do..

Natalie didnt say much on the car ride home but then again there wasnt much to say, she was completely confused and feeling like utter shit, Michael was still going on and on about his new job and as much as she wanted to be happy for him, well she was just feeling horrible, how was she going to deal with what happened with John and how was she going to deal with these new feelings that were developing for him..

Once they arrived at the house she knew she just needed to be alone but she really didnt want to cause suspicion and so she faked an upset stomach..

"do you want me to call The palace, i mean if this is food poisioning" Michael said angrily as natalie shook her head..

"Im sure its not Michael, my stomach is just upset, probably from all the drinking i did the night before" she said as he touched her face..

"I just worry about you" he said softly..

"I know and im ok, i am, im just gonna lay down" she said as John came into the room and stopped as she glanced at him..

"Ok, but if you need anything you let me know" he said as he leaned in and kissed her forehead..

"i will" she said as she walked past him as John watched as she went up the stairs..

"whats wrong" he asked as Michael looked at him..

"her stomach is bothering her" Michael said as he ran a hand through his hair.."Listen i wanted to talk to you, do you think we can do that" Michael said seriously as John brought his attention back to his brother..

"yeah whats up" he said as Michael walked over..

"Lets go for a drink, its still early" Michael said as John glanced at the stairs then at his brother.."I really need to talk to you about something important"

"alright, lets go" John said as they both headed out to the truck and then left to get a drink..

Natalie watched from her window as the guys took off, her stomach twisted as she stood there, My god would John say something, the consequences of this could be far greater then what was just felt here, she quickly went to her bed and sat on it, what had she done?

John and Michael sat at Rodi's as they sipped beers, John was anxious to get back home, he was worried about her and he honestly didnt want to be sitting here while she was back at home consumed with worry and guilt..

"Listen John i know we have had a rough couple years" Michael began as John was snapped from his thoughts.."we dont always see eye to eye"

"thats an understatement" John said with a roll of his eye..

"I know but i want that to change, i do" Michael said honestly as he dug something out of his pocket and then placed a small black box on the table..

"whats that" John said as he looked at his brother..

"open it" michael said nervously and John didnt want to, he knew what the box looked like and his gut twisted.."Im gonna ask her John, im gonna ask Natalie to marry me" Michael said as he opened the box and John stared at the large diamond ring.."i love her man, i love her so much and i dont want to waste anymore time"

John stared at the ring in shock, his eyes locked in on it..

"well say something" Michael said as John looked up at him..

John drank back his beer quick as Michael watched him and then he spoke.."i think your making a mistake" he finally said as Michael's eyes got wide and he picked up the box..

"what?" Michael said in shock...

"hey you wanted my advice and im giving it, i think your making a horrible mistake" John said as he got up and headed to the bar for a stronger drink as Michael sat there with a shocked look on his face..

"John listen i know you think she is just some spoiled rich brat" Michael said as he stood and walked over to John who was now drinking back a shot..

"You have no idea what i think Michael" he said honestly as he ordered another one..

"she's not like that John, she is a good girl, she deserves this, she deserves someone who can give her everything she wants and needs, and i can give that to her" Michael said defensively as John looked at him.."Man im talking about the whole nine yards here, the house, the pickett fence, shit even a dog if she wants that"

"i think your rushing into this, you barely know her" John said as he took back another shot..

"Bullshit, you have no idea the relationship we have" Michael said angrily.."I love her man and i plan on giving her the world" he snapped..

"yeah well then maybe you should be discussing this with her and not me" John said bitterly as he grabbed another beer..

"You know just because you dont believe in love doesnt mean it doesnt exist" Michael snapped and then he sighed.."I didnt bring you here to fight with you John, i brought you here cause i wanted, i was hoping you would give me your blessing and be my best man, i need you" he said softly as John looked at him now, right about now he wanted to hit something..

"yeah well maybe you should wait and ask her first" John walked past him..

"i already asked her dad, before i got here, i went and asked him" Michael called out as John stopped now and Michael walked up to him.."she wants the fairy tale John and i can give her that, i want to give her that" he said low.."Just tell me you'll do this for me, please...it wont be right without you" Michael said as John looked at him now.."I love her"

To say that John felt consumed with guilt would of been an understatement, here his brother was pouring his heart out to him and John couldnt help but feel like shit, Michael was right, he could give her everything she wanted and needed, what the hell could John give her, nothing cause he had nothing to offer, the realization hit him like a mac truck and it hurt like a son of a bitch..

"Just say you'll do this for me" Michael said as he looked at his brother..

"you know i will" John said low as he drank back his beer..