Tiny Vessels
Tiny Vessels
Song by Death Cab For Cutie
"Umm...this next song is called "Tiny Vessels"," says Craig
The audience gives him a small round of applause
"Graeme if you will," says Craig
Graeme follows suits and begins to play
This is the moment that you know
That you told you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she doesn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she doesn't mean a thing to me.
I spent two weeks in Silverlake
The California sun cascading downs my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day
All I see are dark grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "was something wrong?"
That I think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."
So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me (x2)
As Craig finishes playing the last few notes of the song he can see that certain members of the audience are wiping the tears from their faces. He knows that he has gotten the desired response he wanted from them and that they have an insight into what his life has been like.
"Umm…this is harder than I thought it would be," says Craig while trying to regain his composure.
"Well I was in California for a couple weeks about a month ago or so," says Craig while release a bit of a chuckle
"It was for this is function that i had to do for my record label where I had to play. And anyone who has been to L.A especially the Silverlake area knows how beautiful it can be year round. And on the way to the hotel, I had a rush of emotions that eventually became this song. I just started to think about my life and all the people in it and how I felt about them. And I came to the conclusion about certain people who told I loved but I really didn't. That no matter how many times I said "I love you" to this person it never resonated, and the only person I was trying to prove to was myself. No matter how beautiful they were or how great they were it was a lie that I was telling myself," says Craig
He looks down for a second and when he looks up he sees that the eyes of everyone in the club were on him.
"It's not like I hate this person or I have ill will towards them. It's just that I couldn't continue to live a lie, which is basically why I began to distances myself from them. And when they sensed the pain in my voice I tried to brush it off and then after a while it ended. I wish that person the best of luck but I couldn't continue to live a life full of lies. If I am going to become a good man that I can't lie to people about I feel about them, it would just be disingenuous," finishes Craig
As Craig is spouting off about the meaning of the song, everyone at that table knows how he is talking about. Light bulbs go off in Marco head, it all makes sense now he tells himself that Craig never really loved Manny, that she could sense and that is why she ultimately broke it off because she couldn't live a lie either.
"Because I don't want to further embarrass myself, we'll just play the next song but before we can do it we need a certain someone come up here," says Craig motioning to the back of the club. As that someone comes up the stairs to the stage they give them a round of applause. The person waves to everyone and says hello.