Chapter Four

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Girly. Neurotic. Annoying. Selfish. Conceited. A waste of space. Needy. Stupid. Worthless.

I've been called many things, but those words sting the most. They hurt. They really hurt in general, but mostly because Damon has said most of them to me. Of all people.

I've been sitting here crying all day. I can't open my shades, I don't want to go out. Everything hurts.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked Stefan, avoiding his gaze. He had heard me crying from outside. I couldn't lie to him, not my best friend, so I told him the truth. "I'm so sorry."

He didn't say anything, he just had this look on his face. Like everything he has has been drained.

"I'm loosing everyone to him." He said finally, breaking the awkward silence. "Elena, and now you."

As if my heart couldn't break anymore than it already has, those words absolutely did it. "Stefan you are never going to lose me!"

He looked at me, a shade of green in his eyes I've never seen before. "I-I just don't understand."

I looked down, knowing what he was talking about. "I don't either."

"I guess it just sort of snuck up on me, these feelings. I feel safe when I'm with him, and I can't imagine my life without him in it. I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. I love him."

Stefan nodded slowly, sitting down onto my bed next to me. "So what are you going to do Caroline?"

"He doesn't love me." I whispered, not wanting to say it too loud. "I told him, and he left."

"I guess we have that in common." Stefan said looking up at the ceiling. "But I've decided Elena isn't worth it anymore. Is Damon worth it?"

Is Damon worth all of this? After what he did to you? Is he worth all of this heartache and tears? " I don't know."

Stefan looked at me, sadness in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me suddenly kissing my hair. "No one deserves to be hurt like this Care. He doesn't deserve to this to the both of us. Don't let him."

"I don't know how not to Stefan! He was a different person when he was with me, I felt unbelievably alive and wanted." I cried, wiping at my face."I've never felt that way before Stefan. I've never felt like I truly belonged until I was in his arms."

He didn't respond, and I honestly don't expect him too. What's he supposed to say to that?

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Damon POV

I call her again for the twentieth time today, and it goes straight to voice-mail. I really messed up this time.

"Hey." Elena says, as I walk through the front door. "I missed you."

I fake a smile, and say it right back to her, lying.

"Where were you? I told you I was coming home from college this morning two days ago, but you weren't here when I got here." Elena said, crossing her arms.

"I was hungry, so I went hunting." I replied, matter of factly. "What's your problem?"

"My problem is you've been distant ever since I left for college five months ago! I'm the only one in this relationship,and when you don't show me affection, I-I think stupid things and do stupid things." She says, hurt buried deep down in her voice.

"Did we really it would be the same Elena? There's no one here. I'm alone all the time with my thoughts, and they've been telling every single day that this wrong! I love, but this is what's truly wrong!"

I slept with two people." Elena said out of nowhere, avoiding my gaze. "There names were Jamie and Ross, and I-I was so lonely. It's been killing me, I needed you to know."

I stared at her in shock, but all that could come out my mouth was a laugh. "I always though I was the one who didn't deserve you, and that Stefan did, But truth is you don't deserve either one of us."

I felt kind of funny saying that because I had been unfaithful as well, but she was the one who was so set on us never being unfaithful. And that it was a sin, and that'd she never be anything like Katherine. Truth is she shares more than just her looks.

"Don't act all innocent Damon. I've always known you had a thing for Caroline and I've always known she had a thing for you. Don't you even try and tell me you didn't sleep with her."

"I won't, but I will tell you to get out of my house." I said, anger rising inside of me. "Now."

"Fuck you Damon."

"No thanks, I wouldn't want to get an std now would I?" I asked her, smirking.

and then she was gone.

I sat down onto my couch, realizing my surroundings once again. My brother hates me, the girl I love hates me, and I'm alone again.

Maybe this is how it was meant to be. Maybe this is what I truly deserve.

A/N- It's been two months I know. I'm so evil and I'm so sorry. I lost all interest in this but I've decided to finish it. I finished the vampire diaries a long time ago, and the season 5 premiere was great! I lost interest in this because I found a couple I loved more and that's Klaroline.

But if Klaus didn't exist, this would still be my Caroline otp.

Not beta, excuse mistakes.

Not sure when I'll update again. But it won't be long!

Again I'm sooo sorry!

Review please!