They stared at me in shock, seemingly unable to process the fact that I killed my crew. "I really don't know why I want to go back... All I know is that my existence is a sin itself." I noticed Natsu stand up quickly "You think that it was a sin for you to be born? Don't screw with us!" I remained silent, not bothering to answer "If you had really thought that, then wouldn't you have killed yourself off long ago?" he pressed
"I had people depending on me! As the captain of a ship, I swore lay down my life for them- the ones treated as outcasts and misfits for one reason or another! And now that every single one of them is gone, what's left for me to protect? What reason do I have to live!? I only wish to die!" I yelled back. No sooner had I said this, I found myself flat on my back, glaring into Natsu's eyes "Natsu!" Lucy started I noticed Erza putting her hand on Lucy's shoulder, restraining her. "What do you think that'll accomplish?" he roared. "It's the only way!" I shouted, tears streaming from my eyes, I saw Lucy holding back her own tears. "Don't give me that crap! Stop putting everyone before yourself as if your life was nothing!" I punched Natsu in the face when he said this, and next it was me who was on top of him "I wouldn't expect you to understand!" I was shaking. I took one more look at his enraged expression and dropped my anger. There was only an overwhelming sadness left; I buried my face in my hands. "I don't want to lose anyone anymore..." I sobbed, trembling.
"Karin..." Happy said. Lucy put her arms around me and hugged me tightly "You don't have to keep fighting alone. We're here and ready to fight alongside you. We're your friends." I looked up at her when she said 'friends'. "Ever since I joined Fairy Tail, each battle I had was never fought alone. They've been with me, every step of the way." I glanced the others, Erza, Gray, Natsu and Happy were all staring at me with encouraging looks on their faces. I stared at the ground "Is that really true?" I asked quietly.
"Of course. That's what comrades do." Gray stated.
"Karin." Erza called; I looked at her as she smiled "Stay here. With us."
And for the first time in weeks, I smiled. "Yeah..."
Karin: Okay, this chapter is pretty short... So I'll include a bonus inside-chapter!
We walked along on our journey, me along with Erza, Lucy, Natsu, Gray and Happy. I kind of wished Wendy came along, too.
I knew I could trust these people- after all, they went through the trouble of treating me and making me feel at home at Fairy Tail. "Dammit, Gray! Don't go acting all cool!" Natsu yelled, disrupting my thoughts. "I look cool cause you're lame." he replied heatedly. "Calm down, you fools!" Erza scolded, her voice seemingly resounding and striking fear into the two boys' hearts. They immediately stopped and put their arms around each others shoulders, pretending to get along. "Aye!" Natsu squeaked "There's Happy #2 again." Lucy raised her eyebrows. "Aye!" the real Happy said.
I tilted my head to the side. Not ten minutes away from the city and we're already getting into arguments and whatnot. "Erza... what's in the- er- bags?" I asked, glancing at the heavy load the dragged behind her "My armour. I take it around with me like this." she replied as if it were obvious. "Of course..." I mumbled. What strangely happy people...
Night fell, and we made camp. But then it rained suddenly, putting the fire out. "Here, let me." I offered and froze some rain, forming a large igloo that kept us dry enough to start another fire. "That's really cool! It's like Gray's ice-make magic." Happy grinned "I bet she could take on both you and Natsu at the same time and beat you like Erza!" he snickered much to Gray and Natsu's annoyance. "No way! I could take her on myself! Karin, fight me!" Natsu objected "You were already beaten, it's my turn!" Gray retorted, obviously affected by Happy's snide remark. "Hey, you two. Knock it off." Lucy complained "It's getting late, so we should turn in for now." Erza said in the same commanding voice as earlier. When I had turned back to the boys, they were already cozy and seemingly asleep.
"Good night." we bade each other. I laughed to myself as I fell asleep; maybe being around them wasn't so bad at all.