I made a vow goddamnit! Now here's the next chapter ^.^

Angel had established her routine; wake up run 3 miles to the park do push ups and sit ups, come home eat lunch, shower, throw up, have dinner with less than 400 calories.

She had been doing this for 2 weeks now she has lost so much weight now and Collins was being more attentive. She thought it was because he found her hot again, he thought she was sick and dying. He hadn't mentioned anything to her because he didn't want to scare her or find out his Angel was really dying.

Today though Angel had to skip her run because Mimi was coming over, she was in need of a manicure and major girl talk. They talked for an eternity while Angel did a professional on her friend's hand.

"Ok, chica your turn!" She squealed grabbing angels signature blue nail polish.

"Oh me? I'm ok I don't need one" she his her nails and fingers by curling her hands into fists on her lap.

"Why not?"

Angel's nail polish had faded oddly and her fingers had calluses on the back of them all from the stomach acid. She tried to keep anyone from noticing.

"Oh I just don't want you to go through all the trouble for me"she forced a smile and laid her hands on the coffee table.

"Girl, we have got to get you some lotion for these hands!" Mimi laughed not realizing what the cause was.

God Angel get a hold of yourself you thought Mimi would figure out your secret your too paranoid! Angel screamed in her mind.

Mimi sat on the floor next to the table applying the nail polish as carefully as she could. After some elm talk and a second coat of polish Collins came home with a surprise.

"Hey there ladies," he said walking in the door.

"Hi honey!" Angel ran to greet him.

He pulled her into a long passionate kiss wanting to make each one count never knowing which one will be their last.

How was your day?" She smiled.

"Good but I thought my favorite ladies might like be hungry and like their favorite Chinese food" he held up the plastic bags.

Mimi popped her head up from the couch "you didn't!"

"I did!"

"Teriyaki chicken with chow mien and fried rice?"

"With the soy sauce on the side" he passed her a box.

"You're the best!" She squealed.

"And for my Angel Beijing beef with veggies!"

"No" Angel said her mouth watering "you really shouldn't have."

"I wanted to" he handed her a fork "now eat up."

She devoured the food but with every bite she hated herself more and more but part of her couldn't stop. She wanted to eat it all and keep it all down and be happy with that but she can't get fat..

Everything about her was so different now. Her hands were rough and callused, her eyes lost their shine and had sunken in, she wore her clothes baggier, her hair was falling out, and her mind hated her body. This was the lightest she had been in her adult life... She never felt fatter. She couldn't achieve that perfect body she was chasing after there was always too much fat here not enough muscle there.

So when she finished eating the panic spread over her. She had to get the calories out. But not now not with them so close.

"How did you enjoy your food? Must have been starving to finish it that fast."

"Sorry.." Angel said sheepishly.

Fuck see! Angel mentally scolded herself this was all a test! He wants to see if you can actually keep the weight off, you chow! And you just scarfed it down that whole thing... Angel could feel the calories piling on her thighs. So if you can't get rid of it in the bathroom, where?

"Um, honey do you mind if I go out drumming?"

"Aw come on, baby I just got home and I thought we could have some fun after dinner" he winked.

"Ooooh" Mimi said with noodles hanging out of her mouth. "I'll take that as my cue to go. Bye Angel ill call you tomorrow, I want details."

Collins finished his food while they talked about their days. Angel helped him clean up before he pulled her into a deep heated and passionate kiss. He let his hands roam as usual and they drifted down to her mass. He gave it a gentle squeeze and realized how different and smaller it was.

"Come on babe let's get you out of all these clothes" he whispered in her ear.

She shuttered, "It's been so long."

"Too long" Collins kissed her neck he let his hand drift up her shirt and paused when he felt how defined her ribs were.

She pushed his roaming hand away and smiled devilishly "uh uh uh not yet."

She led him down the hall to their bed and pushed him onto his back and straddled him at the hips. Slowly she helped Collins out of his shirt in a painfully slow fashion knowing how it drove her lover wild. Now it was Angel's turn she hesitated for a minute feeling a little shy she took it off and threw it across the room. Collins gasped and sat up.

"Oh my god Angel!"

"What?" She got off of him wrapping yourself in a stray blanket, "what's wrong."

"Angel you you what happened to you?"

"I know it's my weight I'm trying to get better!"

"Why didn't you tell me should we go to the doctors? Are you sick?" He looked her over for lesions.

"No no it's just little weight problem. I'll get back on track."

"Ok Angel... Come here" he pulled her into a tight hug and held her for the rest of the night.

Neither of them realized they were talking about two different things Angel though colonies was pointing out how much She gained from dinner and Collins thought Angel was talking about her inevitable sickness taking over her body.

The next morning Angel woke up to breakfast in bed. She ate a decent amount before going to take a shower. She turned on the water to cover the sound and placed herself in front toilet expelling all of her breakfast as quietly as possible. Soon she showered dressed and went back out to be with her love. She gave him a deep kiss which made Collins gag.

"What's wrong?" Angel panicked.

"Honey did you throw up in there?"

She forgot to brush her teeth after "getting rid" of breakfast.

"No" she dismissed "it's probably just my morning breath..."

And in that moment everything clicked for Collins.. the constant working out, the loss of appetite, the rapid weight loss.

"Angel..." He touched her shoulders gently. "Do you have an eating disorder?"

heartbreaking isn't it lemme know whatcha think...