Hey there again! Well, oh my God, I can't explain how I am feeling! I went to bed thinking 'I'll have no reviews' then BAM! I wake up, check my emails and there is loads of them! Thank you all who reviewed for that confidence boost, showing me that chapter wasn't too crappy :) And here is all this stuff I always put... lol...

SUMMARY: Edward wins Jasper while gambling with Aro to be his "slave". Edward isn't used to being a Dom, and he wants to start a real relationship with Jasper. But Jasper hasn't been shown this affection before, and with his past, can he really trust someone to give his heart too? First fic, gimme a break. Oh and it's human.

RATED: M (If you don't like boy on boy, what the hell are you doing reading my story?)

DISCLAMER: This is all Ms. Meyers, I'm just borrowing her characters into my own story :)

WARNING: This story contains rape, self harming, and many dark features. If your not up for it, click back!

JASPER POV

I woke up shaking violently. What the hell was that? Such a strange dream... I would never blurt out my past to anyone, especially Edward... would I?

Nah, I wouldn't why the hell would I? I tried to turn around, but my body was stuck, what the fuck... I tried again, and I heard a slight moan behind me, making me freeze. A trace of ''tmove!(*)ran into my head so fast it made me dizzy, but that was soon gone as I rubbed my eyes, trying to wake myself up, when I noticed that they were kinda sore and sticky. I had been crying?

Then it all came back to me.

Oh.. Shit...

I finally turned around, receiving a grumble from Edward, but he did not wake. I stared at him, this guy knew my secrets.

Well, most of them.

He sighed and muttered a small "Jasper..." as his arms tightened, making me feel insecure. I didn't struggle though, don't want to upset him. I stare at his lips, remembering that he had kissed me...

I shuddered. The kiss had held so much love and care behind it, I was surprised it had fooled me. I knew he was faking it, I knew it. I just didn't feel it. I let out a long sigh, making my ribs protest a little. Oh well, with the hospital's help, it was feeling better. Anyway, I was surprised he had only kissed me last night, and I was also surprised he had kissed me at all. I was beginning to wonder when he would fuck me. Aro had me naked the first day we met! Ugh, Aro...

Maybe Edward was just a little inexperienced in this department. I hoped he wasn't a virgin or something, man that would be awkward. But hey, he had me as a slave, anybody who had spent at least ten minutes with me had either fucked my ass or face.

I looked at Edward's beautiful face, studying him closely. I wondered if he was like Aro, who always requested been waken with a blow job, because he looked to see my 'pretty face sucking him' in the morning. Bleh. But if Edward wanted that, I would not disappoint. But did he? I would find out soon...

I shimmied myself out of his arms, just realizing that I was wearing sleep pants, which I could not remember putting on. Then I blushed at the thought of him putting them on me. But my blush soon faded into sadness, because it was all an act and a good one too. So, I had shimmied all the way down until my face was near his sleep pants covered cock. I stared at it for a moment, completing unsure if I should or if I shouldn't. The last thing I need is for him to lash out on me. Or maybe that is what I need... pain can sometimes feel good...

So I very slowly begin to drag down his sleep pants, and he doesn't wake up. I gasp when I see the the start of his manhood. Once I pull his sleep pants all the way down to his knees, I just stare at it.

It was semi-erect, but it was so big! That would kill my ass if he doesn't prepare of lube me. Which he probably wouldn't. I shivered at the thought of that thing getting pushed into my ass. He had lovely bronze coloured hair surrounding his penis, which I felt jealous at. Aro didn't like me having hair down there, and he would often shave me... I shook my head, stop thinking about him! I sighed and looked at the head of the penis, should I lick it first or the whole thing? I sighed, this is harder than I thought. Well, Aro liked me to lick all around the head before licking the whole length... I could do that, right? With one finally look at his beautiful sleeping face, I licked around his head. He groaned and muttered something, but didn't wake up. So then I licked all the way down and back up, and was just opening my mouth wider to take him in when someone screamed in a very high pitched voice, "What the fuck?"

I was pushed back right off the bed and into the wall, winding me and not helping my ribs. I groaned and sank to the floor while trying to get air. Then I also noticed I was wearing an old t-shirt, one of his? Oh well, I was in loads of pain.

But come on, admit it, it feels kinda good! Okay it does a little. I looked up to see Edward pulling up his sleep pants, blushing furiously. I felt myself begin to blush too. Well, that did not go to plan. He looked over at me, blushing and breathing hard. His face was unreadable. Crap, he was going to hit me. I pushed myself into the corner, bowing my head.

"I am so sorry! I... I t-thought you m-maybe wanted that!" I stuttered, keeping my eyes to the floor.

"I... uh... that... wait... huh..." he stuttered out, also backing into a corner.

"Sorry..." I whispered again.

Silence filled the room, making it even more awkward than before. I can't believe I just did that, I did something without asking him, I deserve to be punished. If he doesn't hurt me, I will hurt myself.

While breathing hard, he says, "I think... I will h-have a... uh, shower, okay? You can... make yourself some... uh, toast. Or whatever... just... whatever." He walked towards the door, then turned and smiled lightly over his blush. "And... morning." He said before walking away and towards the kitchen. As soon as I heard the shower start, I began looking into some cupboards. Half of me hoped he would find me searching through his stuff and would do the hurting part for me, while the other wanted me to just get on with it. When I couldn't finds anything, a thought ran in my mind. I could just go to the kitchen and get a knife and do it... and I could say I cut myself while cooking... I smiled lightly as I made my way to his beautiful kitchen.

I began searching through his cupboards, trying to find anything sharp enough to slice my delicate skin. It would easily blend in.

Aha, finally! A big kitchen knife! But when I pick it up, it makes me shake in fear, because I know what it feels like to be cut open with one of theses. Sure, it's good, but it does hurt. But I have to do this. With a small sigh, I hold the knife up to my shaking wrist, and I'm just about to pull it back so I can feel release when I hear a huge bang.

I jump a little, shocked by the suddenly noise, when I hear it again with some ringing.

What the fuck? I think, because I know it's not Edward. It continues with a muffled yell of "Edward, open this door!" Who the hell is that? It sounds like a man, his boyfriend? I feel my eyes string a little at the thought. But Edward doesn't seem like the type to do that... But, I shouldn't have to keep reminding myself, it's all an act. Maybe he has loads of boyfriends, why should I care? I'm a slave. God, Aro fucked loads of people when I was with him, even though he always reminded me I was his favourite. I didn't care. And I didn't care now either!

Then banging, shouting and yelling is back. I shiver, should I answer it? Would that be smart? Aro never let me answer the door when someone knocked. I kept the knife in my hand as I walked over to the door, just looking as it moved with the force of the bangs. I pulled my sleep pants away from my body (seeing I still had boxers on – I blushed.) I put the knife next to my skin and put my sleep pants back into place, the cold steel right up against my skin. I would use it later if I didn't get caught.

Do I answer the door or not?I stared at it as the ringing and pounding continued, and the muffled yells of "Edward! Open the damn door!" I sighed, I could do this. Be a man. So I reached for the locks and gave them a small pull, and the door swung open, nearly hitting me. A tall fucking muscular man stood there with a shocked (but slowly turning angry) face as he looked at me in Edward's clothes. He walked in and pushed me a little as he growled out, "And who the fuck are you and where is my brother?"

I stood frozen, staring at him with wide eyes. Aro, Marcus and Caius always called themselves brothers, but I wasn't too sure if they were. And this person didn't look a thing like Edward...

Then I remembered what what Aro did on their birthdays, and what gift he gave them. I swallowed hard.

Did Edward want this guy to fuck me?

I took him all in – his body was huge, imagine what his size would be... I froze. If I thought Edward was big, why did I get the feeling I was in for a shock? I began to shake as this guy walked up to me and shook my shoulders, his face twisted into anger.

"Well? Who the fuck are you? What have you done to my brother?" His grip tightened, making me whimper. This touch wasn't soft and caring like Edwards... But that was an act, so I tried to ignore the difference.

"Speak up, fucker! Or I won't be responsible for my actions." He hissed out. "I'm warning you!"

I just shook and I could feel the knife dig into my skin, cutting it. I moaned when I could feel something running down my leg – I was bleeding. Pain and pleasure all into one. I couldn't describe the feeling.

"What the fuck is your problem?" He yelled in my face and then pulled his huge fist back, and for once I actually feared getting hit. His fist was huge and I could expect a broken nose, or worse. I shut my eyes and got prepared for the hit.

I heard it swing and then a "Emmett! Stop!" and then something knocked into me, hard. Throwing me near the open door. I yelped out as I landed on my cracked ribs, my hand moving to them while the other gripped on the knife, making sure it was still there. It was, so I looked up to see who had pushed me. Edward was wrapped in just a towel, with his hair wet and sticking up everywhere, just like yesterday. He was standing just where I had been, one hand clutching a cheek. His face was twisted in pain and anger. Did he take a punch for me? Or was he just angry at me? I couldn't tell as my eyes drifted to the open door.

Edward and 'Emmett' were too busy arguing and that 'Emmett' guy was apologising, so he must of hit Edward. Edward was yelling at him for being so careless and that he should of called, his attention not on me for once. I once again looked at the open door, I could just run through it while they were arguing... No one would notice until it's too late... But could I leave Edward behind? Hadn't I told myself last night I couldn't? When did it all change?

Then Aro's cold laughing voice came into my head, spitting out: "When you found out he was a liar."

And with that thought, I let out a cold hearted sob and jumped up and ran through the door, tripping over a big box, making me see I have no shoes on. Oh well, I had to keep going. The death grip on the knife made me realise, since I was alone, no one could stop me with this knife. I smiled and thought maybe I'll see mum soon.

EDWARD POV

"Emmett! You complete and utter jerk! What the fuck was going through your thick mind when you did that?" I yelled as I clutched my sore cheek. Damn Emmett and his huge fist. Fucking hurt.

He tried to take my hand away from my face, but I glared at him. He rolls his eyes. "Oh come on, Eddie, lemme take a look at it, just to see how bad it is!" I shook my head.

"No way, don't come near me! At least let me get changed!" I hiss at him. He rolls his eyes.

"Like I haven't seen you naked before," I blush furiously.

"Emmett, watch TV or something, I need to get changed!" He sighs and walks out the front door, confusing me but I rush into my bedroom to change. I grab whatever I see and throw it on, not bothering to check myself in the mirror. When I come back out, Emmett has a huge box in his hands.

"It's labelled for you." He says with a shrug and puts it down. Hm, I never ordered anything...

"Oh dude! Your face! Man mum is gonna kill me!" Emmett starts fussing over my face. I slap his hands away while I go in the kitchen to get an ice pack. I wrap it in a towel and hold it to my stinging face, ouch.

After a few minutes I ask, "Emmett, what are you doing here? I thought you were meeting Rosalie's parents or something..."

He nods. "Well, I would of, until Rosalie told me that her mother had been murdered when she was at boarding school and she didn't have a clue about her father. That's so bad, right? So I ended up comforting her, if you know what I mean?" He waggled his eyebrows. I made gagging noises but laughed, this was typical Emmett.

"So, how did that party thing go by the way? And who's wide eyed blondie? You never told me you got a boyfriend!" He slapped my back, making me cough.

"God sake Em, watch it! The party was like... Wait... Where's Jasper?" I asked him.

He cocked his head to the side, then grinned. "Oh, the guy that was in here that I would of punched if you hadn't gotten in the way? He's called Jasper, huh? And what does he-"

"Emmett! I don;t have time for twenty questions! Where did he go? What did you say? What did you do? Oh God, I need to find him!" I say already jumping towards the door. Emmett grabs my arm, obviously stopping me. I shake and squirm frankly.

"Whoa, calm it, let me at least get you some shoes before you go running! Wait here." He gives me a look as if to say if you don't I will hunt you down. I sigh and nod and sit on the floor, removing the ice pack from my face. It stings, but not as bad. I grip my still wet hair, why did he go? Did Emmett scare him? Did I? I groan, I need to find him. I knock into something and notice the box yet again. I give it a strange look before I opening it, wonder what I have. It's filled with loads of things I have never seen before, and a note is lying on top. I pick it up as it reads:

Hello Edward

I just thought I would drop off some of Jasper's things, just a little reminder of his real home. I can tell he misses the stuff in this box. So make sure he gets it. I hope he isn't being to bad, remember to punish him! And if you decide you don't want him anymore, just call me. I'll be happy to take him back, he can show my other slaves how to act.

Goodbye for now

Aro

I see red. I can't believe this. I have never wanted to hurt someone as much as I wanted to now. I crumple up the note as I take various items out of the box, my eyes widening as I see each. I pull out another collar, which as 'S L U T' on it. I shake with anger as I pull out another one with 'B I T C H' on it. Putting it next to the collar, I pulled out a fucking huge whip! I stare at before putting it down, thinking how painful that would be. There is some more whips and paddles and... it looks like ropes? And... handcuffs? I picked up another thing, which looked a shocking thing... what would that be used? Whenwould any of this be used? Then I picked up another thing that would make any gay man gulp... a huge dildo. And I mean huge. There was another note attached to it, just saying: Use this without preparing – for punishment. I glare at the dildo before ripping the note us, to join the other. I put everything back in the box and decide when I find Jasper I will demand to tell me what Aro did to him, just so I can hold more against him when I slaughter him.

And speaking of Jasper, where the hell is Emmett? I close the box so Emmett can't see it's contents and yell "EMMETT! WHAT IS TAKING YOU SO FUCKING LONG?" He appears then, throwing me some shoes.

"Sorry, I spaced out. I think Alice is meeting us here too, so can you sit for five more minutes?" I groan, bad timing Alice!

"Can't you just-" I was going to say just wait here, but then, knowing Emmett, he would look in the box. So I drop it. "Doesn't matter. We're waiting five more minutes then I'm out of here."

Emmett rolls his eyes and says, "Can I at least find out about the guy I'm chasing please?" I freeze. Well Emmett, see that party you got out of? Aro's one? Yeah that one. Well, I won him. Yeah I know, won him. And he's really depressed and is like scared ta anything, and he told me a little about him. He had a bad bringing up, poor guy. And that's really it. Emmett would probably nod then go... wait, what? Typical Emmett.

So I tell him: "Emmett, I... I can't explain this... I really can't. Not yet... not maybe ever, just don't tell mum and dad? Please?" He glares at me.

"Edward, we have always told each other everything, why is this guy different? Who was the first person you told was gay? Me. When people were bullying you? Me. When you needed to talk to someone? M-"

"Emmett, it depended on what the subject was. If it were clothes, me. If it were cooking, mum. Some doctor stuff, dad. And it was only you when it was boys being typical boys; cars, new games, all that." Said my pixie sister, standing at the door way, a small smile on her small face. She was just like a pixie, her black hair was cut and spiky, as some people said was a version of mine. We didn't see it, and Alice got offended because 'this hair took her hours to get perfect and you say it looks like that mop?' I always laughed at the annoyed look on her face. Her eyes were a midnight blue, while Emmett's was sky blue. I was the odd one out.

"Oh shut up Alice, I was trying to prove a point." Emmett huffed as I pulled my shoes on. Hey, Alice was here, so I could go. I stood up and pulled her into a hug, muttering "Hey sis," and kissing her quickly on the cheek.

People had always thought me and Alice would of dated, but we never did. We just had a close bond. Yeah it sounds weird, dating your sister, but she is adopted, like Emmett. I was the only child to have actually been born from our parents. My mum was in a car accident a couple of months after having me, making her loose her eggs forever. My parents didn't want me to be lonely, so they got Emmett, and Alice shortly after; mum always wanted a girl.

"Look guys, I gotta go. So can we all make our way to the exit?" I asked.

Alice cocked her head to the side, "Why the hurry?"

Before I could say anything, Emmett butted in, "He's going to rescue his boyfriend!" I rolled my eyes and blushed.

Alice grinned and jumped up and down, "Boyfriend? Really? What does he look like? Does he like shopping? I wonder if-"

I smiled and cut her off, "Calm it, pixie. And thanks Emmett, already breaking your promise!" He looks down, a guilty look on his face. "And Alice... can we talk about it later? Please? Jasper doesn't know this area and I'm worried..."

She glares (one just like Emmett's, it's funny seeing how much they have grown on each other) but sighs at my desperate look. "Fine. And Jasper's his name, eh? Just please tell me what he looks like!" She begs. I think it over, I can at least tell them that, right? And Emmett's already seen him.

"Well, he's got blonde curly hair... blue eyes... um, really cute face?" I blush and Emmett chuckles. But Alice has a strange look on her face, she remembers something. Emmett notices to as he says, "Alice? What is it?" She then snaps up to meet my eyes.

"Edward... I think I've seen him... When I was walking here, because I seriously couldn't be assed driving, I was listening to my iPod and I didn't hear him or see him, and he ran straight into me. He fell so I quickly asked if he was okay, but he looked so terrified he nodded and muttered 'sorry' before running again. He was really skinny? Is that him?" I begin nodding and notice Emmett doing the same.

"Shit Alice, which direction did he go?" I ask in a panic.

"Uh, I think near the woods. Do you want help finding him?"

"Um... no, I'll find him myself. And you two promise not to tell mum or dad about Jasper, okay?" After a huff and a grunt, they nod and pile out of my apartment. I quickly lock up and begin running, yelling 'bye!' to my siblings. I stop at my car, thinking would it be quicker to take it or not. Then I think, which car is quicker? I have two cars, a Volvo that I hardly drive and my Mercedes. Then I think, fuck it, I'll run.

I hear Emmett offering Alice a lift in his Jeep as I begin to run in the direction Alice said. And I won't stop running until I have Jasper safe in my arms again.

JASPER POV

Ouch, that really hurt. I was shocked, that woman was so small I didn't think she could knock me to the ground! But I couldn't stop, slowing down would give Edward and 'Emmett' time to catch up with me and punish me. I running into some dark woods, with no clue of where I'm going. My feet are sore, cut and bleeding badly, I'm surprised I'm still using them. My lefty hand is gripping the knife so tightly my knuckles are sore, but I do not loosen the grip. And the cut on my leg is still bleeding. Ah well, I'm free... so far. I keep thinking I can hear them behind me, making me go faster, and I don't stop.

And I run for minutes.

Maybe hours.

It feels like days.

Months too.

And I collapse on a huge oak tree, completely out of breath, and shaking with the cold. I don't think it's that late, maybe just late afternoon or something, but I can't tell because the trees are all grouped together, making any light impossible to get in.

I'm alone, scared, and now wanting Edward, the person I was running away from.

I know it's an act, but I'm really getting fed up saying that now. I just want to be with him, in his arms. Feel his lips again.

But no, I'm stuck out here, and I'm terrified.

But I have my trusty knife, I can make this quick.

I look at my wrist and then the knife, and then again.

Should I...? But then I shake my head, of course I should! That's what I've been craving for all day! And no one is here to stop me! Don't waste this chance to see mum again!

So I take the knife, and drag it along my wrist, moaning when I see the drops of blood, making my heart flutter.

Yes.

More.

I follow the voice in my head, repeating the actions until my whole right arm is covered in small cuts, blooding poring from each of them like my own personal red rain drops. And I love it.

I switch arms then, making my cuts on my left arm more deep, more lovely droplets. Making me dizzy. I grin, I love this. I could do this all the time; I would do it all the time. I pick up the knife, ready to make a really bad cut, when I hear a voice.

"Please Jasper, don't, no more, I can't take it..." I gasp and look up, shit Edward's here! I look around, searching for him when I see the ghost-like Edward, standing watching me with tears running down his face.

"Jasper, no more, you promised..." He sobs. I want to hug him, but I feel so heavy.

"Jasper, drop the knife. No more. I'm not acting this, I need you. Please. Stop. Hear me out." My hand drops the knife as I begin to cry, I'm confused and the pain is being to kick in over the pleasure. What have I done?

"Relax Jasper, I will find you..." The ghost-like Edward mutters before disappearing as I close my eyes and try to breath through the pain.

EDWARD POV

It's been an hour and I can't find him. I have searched everywhere and he's just... gone. Tears are in my eyes as I slowly make my way back to the bottom of the woods, my chest feeling heavy. He's gone, left me, and I can't take it.

I thought he liked you.

No, not now. Shut up. Leave me alone.

I thought he cared.

Please stop!

I thought he wanted you.

No no no enough!

Why does he not want you? Need you? Was it an act?

NO!

I begin cry as I run, trying to ignore the pain in my heart. It's all a lie, and I just noticed. He was only acting to please me, because I was his Master. His fucking Master. And he... I... God. I sob harder.

He had taken the chance to run, a good timing, just when my attention was on another. And I felt alone. All alone.

Someone kill me.

I'm not acting this, I need you...

I think as I pass a dark part in the woods, thinking about how much I am going to miss him, and what he is going to do on his own, and how we both will cope, when I hear a faint "Edward..." I stop, looking around. I sigh and shake my head, I'm hearing his voice now, how long will that go on for? I sigh and wipe at my face, trying to remove my tears. Why should I cry for him when he's probably laughing at me, being such a fool. I wonder if he's back with Aro, laughing with him. I wonder if the whole bet was set up too. I cry harder, shaking like a leaf. I am still in my sleep pants and old top with some old trainers.

I am a fool.

"Edward..." I hear it again, a little louder. I can't stop myself from looking up, hoping. I yet again see nothing.

I take a couple of steps, I hear a sob. A couple more, my name again, and my feet are suddenly dragging me towards a small opening in the high trees. I didn't bother stopping them, I couldn't care any more. It was 2 o'clock and I already wanted to go back to bed, to relax.

"Edward... please..." A tree muttered. Okay, what the fuck? Now a fucking tree is talking to me. Fucking great. My mind is acting like a fucking drug. Or am I that alone? When I'm about to turn back onto the path, my eyes catch sight of something lying on the ground.

Then I realise what it is.

"Holy shit! Jasper! Oh fuck!" I sob as I see his arms and feet, cut ad bloody. Then I see my... my fucking kitchen knife lying beside him. His eyes are closed but tears are falling as he continues to muttered "Edward..."

I sit on the ground and pull him into my arms.

"Jasper? Jasper? Can you hear me? Please, please say you can! Open your eyes, speak! Please!" I sob into his messy hair, breathing in as much of his smell as I can.

Then he says something that makes me smile through my tears. "Edward, you found me." He says before throwing up.

Okay Okay! I see you are all desperate to kill me and you have ever right to! I didn't update when I thought I would because this chapter was in deathly need of repair! I tweaked it here and there, and I apologise for not letting you hear more of Jasper's past, thats next time :D Which makes another problem... I'm going to see Muse this weekend (I know I'm fucking excited!) but it's in London... and since I live in Scotland, it will take forever to travel there and back! I will try to update either next Thursday because there's another problem... I'm going to Spain for a week! So no update then! And I won't be ignoring your lovely reviews! I just won't have the time! Sorry guys for the whole delays :/ So pretty much... next Thursday, and two weeks after that you'll see this story again :D This chapter is weird I know but deal with it :D Okay thanks for reading! Reviews are wanted!

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