If Tomorrow Never Comes
(Roan Keating)
Owens's heart wrenched hearing the broken words of his lover through his earpiece, but all Owen could do was let his body go limp and give into her words. He had never shown his love for Tosh and now it was too late, meaningless words slipped from his tongue, what did she want in him, he had given her nothing but she still held on even now. Tosh had never received Owens's love, he had never let those words escape from his mouth, "I love you" he whispered and in the silence on the other end he could hear her heart breaking. Often Owen lay awake at night dreaming of the day when it would be too late and Tosh would lose him without knowing he loved her deeply. Everyday Owen looked at her beside him at her computer and in his mind he spoke the words "I love you" clearly, slowly pronouncing each syllable with compassion, words torn from his heart out into the open. But in reality those words never escaped except for now, when it is too late as there was no tomorrow.
Hoping that glances and smiles, touching of hands and working close together, dying and saving together as a team, friends and lost lovers would be enough for her to hold on to as he drifted away now. She had to face it all on her own now and it was difficult enough, Owen knew that. Tosh and Owen had once agreed that the best person to be with would be somebody who experiences a similar life to you. Owen had been beaming inside at the time knowing that Tosh had been hinting that they were perfect for each other but struggling to acknowledge this by telling her he loved her.
Owen had lost many others in his life, Diane and Katie left his soul without feeling its true extent and Tosh would be the same, another left without love. Owen had always imagined that the better version of himself would let those that he loved know that he really loved them, Tosh would no longer be crying over heartbreak and they could be happily together. He would tell her everyday that he loved her so much that when his final moments approached him she would be happy knowing that he loved her. But there was a barrier he had to cross to let her know she was his only one, but the barrier was too high and too strong for him to knock down. There was more to see than the sly, witty doctor he appeared to be, behind that cockiness he was sensitive and caring even emotional. But now radiation absorbed him as his life spilt through his fingers along with Tosh's sobs, little did he know that she was dying on the other end not only from heartbreak.