As I died I thought back to my days at school. When everything was so much more simpler.

I am always afraid, because I am a werewolf. I knew everyone around me would be terrified of me if they knew. If they knew they would hate me. Then that fateful day came when I had forgotten to take my potion. James and Peter found me stumbling about the hallways. I was trying to find the exit. I needed to get away from my friends. I didn't want to hurt them. I didn't want to be the monster I knew I was.

"Peter, go get Sirius," James half yelled.

Not Sirius, anybody but Sirius. I finally found the door and went outside James following.

"Remus, We should get you to Madame Pomfrey ," James said.

"N-no," I said, my voice almost failing, "Mo-moon."

It was all I could say before I began to change. Sirius and Peter coming into my view. I knew they would hate me, but I hoped that they would get away. I hoped that they would not be harmed by me. I wasn't going to let the beast win. So for the first time I actually tried to control the beast.

James's POV

I couldn't believe Remus was a werewolf. I couldn't believe he didn't tell me. Sirius stood beside me as we protected Peter. Sirius throws a rock and the werewolf, Remus, goes to check the noise. We slip back inside and wait for the sun to come up. Then we head outside to find Remus.

We find him and place him in his bed, and we head to class.

Remus's POV

*several days later of avoiding*

"Remus!" James yelled after me.

I just kept running. Until a pair of hands caught me and began to hug me. I look up and there is Sirius.

"Let's head back to the dorm, ey?" Sirius says.

We head back and immediately I go to the corner of the room away from the room.

"Remus stop trying to hide," James says.

"Aren't you afraid of me?" I ask

"We could never be afraid of you," Peter says.

"Your being dramatic. You fold your socks, Remus. Forgive me if I'm not trembling at the sight of you," James says

I consider myself grateful for his words. For almost a split second, I thought I was lucky.

"You don't hate me? But,,,I'm a werewolf," I say.

"Remus. See this arm? It's actually shorter than my other arm but you can't really tell. Especially when I twirl like this," James says.

"I'm lactose intolerant," Peter says.

"I'm OBNOXIOUS," Sirius says. I chuckle instantly. They make me feel so normal.

"Werewolves aren't exactly popular. And for all you know, I could be dangerous," I say.

And suddenly I remember every time I've hurt a living soul without meaning to cause harm. I feel self loathing. I look at them again. The feeling subsides.

"Really, Lupin, what part of 'you fold your socks' isn't getting through?" Sirius asks.

*A few years later*

I was alone in an deserted classroom. That was until Lilly Evans walked in. It was turning to night, the night of the full moon. I needed to get away from her, but I knew she wouldn't leave me with the way I was stumbling around.

"Remus, are you ok?" Lilly asks, "Where's James, or Sirius, or Peter?"

"Lilly go," I say.

"Let me take you to Madam Pomfrey," She says.

"Lilly…," I try, "Run!"

Lilly's POV

Remus Lupin began to grow in size. I had read about werewolves. I never thought I'd run into one. Let alone one of my friends being one. I knew I had to get him outside, away from people but how?

Suddenly there was a stag in between Remus and I. Then there was a black dog pulling on my robes. So I followed the dog, a little unwillingly. The next morning Remus avoided me like the plague. I knew I had to talk to him.

Remus's POV

*a few days of avoiding Lilly*

"Remus Lupin," Lilly says, cornering me.

"Yes?" I ask.

"Are you avoiding me?"

I hung my head. There was no way this girl could accept me. I knew it was only a matter of time until I was kicked out. But why would she want to talk to me. Maybe she wanted to warn me to stay away?

"You know what I am Lilly."

"I know, and I don't care."

The look of defiance she gave me almost rivaled the one James gave me when he found out.

"Werewolves are the most dangerous and unpopular species known to wizards."

"Oh I know. I've read all about them. Why don't you come with me? We'll drink tea and talk some more."

So I followed Lilly back to the common area. No one else was there. Did she skip class for me.

"Now I want to know if Sirius, Peter, and James know," Lilly says, "Also is this why they call you moony?"

"They know, and yes," I say.

She sets the tea tray down and we begin to drink.

"You're not afraid?" I ask.

"I'm not going to lie. The day I found I out I was terrified. Not of you, but the werewolf. I had never seen one before. So of course it scared me. But one that dog got me out of there I didn't care that it scared me, because you're my friend," She said.

"But-"

"No buts. Since then I've read more. Does it hurt when you change?"

"Yes."

"I thought so. Here."

She handed me a bar of chocolate. Where she had been hiding it, I don't know.

"I overheard Sirius telling Peter to grab chocolate one night. He said it always cheered you up after a full moon. Now I know why."

"Thank you."

We stood up and she walked closer to me. She hugged me. For the first time since that night I felt safe. She began to cry which made me cry.

"Don't you ever ignore me again Remus Lupin, or I swear I'll hex you," Lilly says.

She let go and went and sat on the couch. Then people began to fill the room she spared a glance when the other Marauders started questioning me.

The happy memories fade and now I picture Tonks and Teddy, how she had been a family for me when I was all alone. I remember reaching out for her hand..

...And a little bit of light was gone.