Chapter 4

"Emma don't you think you've done enough damage? Haven't you hurt her enough? What else can you possibly want from her?" Kathryn was angry, deep down she was mad at the blonde that was standing right in front of her, she had seen firsthand Regina's suffering and she couldn't help but be angry at Emma for being the source of so much pain in her friend's life.

Emma shook her head and sighed "Kathryn you don't understand…" the older blonde didn't let her finish.

"That's where you are wrong. I've been here, by her side every single day since you shattered what was left of her heart, you ripped away her happiness, you abandoned her when she needed you the most, you took her son away, what makes you think that you have any right to come back into her life after you destroyed her?" Kathryn sighed and came closer to Emma "I never thought I would ever see Regina so broken, so disconnected from life. You know, in the beginning she wouldn't eat, she couldn't sleep and when she did sleep she would awake up screaming your name. With time I was able to make her eat properly, I made her take care of herself, she lost her fire, her will to live. So you Emma Swan, tell me what the hell do you want?" she finished pushing her forefinger against Emma's shoulder.

Emma was out of words, she knew Kathryn was right, she had abandoned Regina, she had ripped away everything from her, including Henry. A tear slide down her face, if only she could turn back time and have a second chance.

"What gives me the right to walk back into her life is the love I feel for her." She was finally able to say "I know I screwed up, I know that she probably won't ever forgive me but Kathryn I promise you I do love her. I would do anything to turn back time and stand by her."

"You know, for someone who claims to love her you're doing a terrible job at showing it." Kathryn stated, not making Emma's life easy. "You accuse her of betraying you, you dare say that the baby isn't yours and as if that wasn't enough you give yourself the luxury of making foolish jealousy scenes, which by the way makes no sense." Kathryn sighed "You know even before the curse broke Regina gave me my happy ending back, she reunited me with my true love, she didn't have to do that but she changed, she changed for you, for Henry and she finally allowed herself to love someone, she finally opened up her heart but you with your actions proved to her that she wasn't worthy of love, you made her believe that she didn't deserve to be happy.

Tears kept running down Emma's face "Do you think I don't know that? It kills me to know that I was the one who finally broke her down, it kills me to know that I destroyed the woman I love. Every single day since I walked away through that front door I've been fighting against my heart, trying to please and do what everyone else thought that was right 'evil must be punished' they told me when all I wanted to do was come running to her arms, you have no idea how much I suffered alone, in silence dueling against what I wanted to do and what people expected me to do. Kathryn I just want her back, I need her back in my life, she's my sunlight, her simple presence makes me happy. I just don't know how to get her back, I don't know if she will ever be able to forgive me."

"Emma…"

"No, now you will hear me." She said firmly. "I was such an asshole, I was an idiot, I let my pain and my anger cloud my mind, I let everyone else's opinions get to me, I finally found my parents, I finally discover that I was wanted by them, I was so afraid to disappoint them that I ended up breaking my own heart just to not fail them, just so they wouldn't abandon me like every foster family I ever had did." She took a deep breath.

"I am probably the most skeptical person you know and suddenly I'm supposed to believe that magic is real, I'm supposed to accept that I'm the savior born to destroy the Evil Queen. But who the hell is she? I never met her, that woman doesn't exist anymore, the woman I met was the big, strong, independent, cold hearted Mayor Regina Mills but when I got to know her, really know her she wasn't what she looked like, Regina Mills the woman I fell in love with is sweet, gentle, caring, loving, her smile is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life, you have no idea what woman does to me, my heart beats faster and my brain melts when she is near." She was crying even more now and she wasn't ashamed of doing it in front of Kathryn.

Kathryn was a little stunned and her brain was processing every word Emma had said. She had been right in the hospital when she told Regina that Emma was fighting against what she really wanted to do and what everyone expected her to do. The younger woman was confused and in pain but that wasn't an excuse for what she had done to Regina the day before. She could understand her rage and frustration from two months ago but she couldn't quite forgive Emma for what she had done the day before.

"Emma I understand you were confused and hurt and that you were angry too two months ago, but that isn't an excuse for what you did yesterday. You made her fall and almost lose the baby when you could clearly see that she wasn't feeling good at the time. At the hospital you didn't even give her a chance to explain, you accused her of betraying you, of sleeping with someone else when her heart had been broken into little pieces by you. You dared deny that the baby she's expecting is yours too. Now please help me understand what changed in the matter of an hour for you to decide and move in to help her after all you did and said to her."

Emma looked at her, cleaning her tears from her face before speaking "I heard her conversation with Henry when you left. She explained to him everything about the baby, she told him all that I denied her to tell me and when I got home I spoke with my mom and she confirmed it was possible, so now on top of everything I have to accept that I have magic inside me too." She laughed at the irony.

"So you told Snow about Regina's pregnancy?" Kathryn asked surprised.

"Yeah." She sighed "Well she freaked a little but she supported me Kathryn, she said that all she wanted was for me to be happy and if for me to achieve that means being with Regina she basically told me to go for it."

"She accepted just like that, simple and easy?" Kathryn asked disbelieving.

"Well she said it was going to take some time for her to accept and be cool with it but she will get there."

"What are you planning to do now?"

"Well as I told my mom I have a beautiful woman to conquer back, I just don't know how to do that just yet but I'll come up with something." She said with a small smile gracing her lips.

"Emma just promise me you won't hurt her again, she can't handle another blow from you." Kathryn said, her pleading.

"I know. Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt her, I want to protect her, love her for the rest of my life if she forgives me. I want to give and be her happily ever after."

"Ok I believe you but be careful, you have a lot to apologize for."

"Yeah, I know." She sighed. "Kathryn I need to ask you something."

"What is it?"

"Can you teach me how to cook?" she asked sheepishly.

Kathryn started laughing "Are you serious?"

Emma scratched the top of her head and shrugged "Quite serious I'm afraid. I want to learn to cook for her and Henry, I don't want them to eat every meal from Granny's take out."

"It's ok Emma, don't worry I'll teach you but you have to promise me something first."

"Sure, what is it?"

"Promise me you'll take really good care of her when I'm gone and please promise me you'll stop with your ridiculous jealous scenes every time you see me with her, you have nothing to be jealous about, we are just friends, best friends."

"I promise Kathryn and I'm sorry for my jealousy, it's just that she trusts you and lets you comfort her. You get to be with her and do everything that I'm not allowed anymore…"

"Emma you have to understand that you broke her heart, you made her lose her faith that a happy ending was possible for her. She needs time to heal and forgive you. You need to start apologizing and maybe you should begin with what happened yesterday."

"You're right Kathryn. I need her to know that I believe in her, she needs to know that I believe that the baby is mine too. I need her to know that I'm not leaving her alone and that I will be by her side until our baby is born and that I'll still be here after it too."

"What, you resigned from your Sheriff job?" she asked.

"No just taking a well deserved long vacation, she is my priority Kathryn, she is my world and I'm not letting her go." She said firmly. Kathryn simply nodded and gave her a quick smile.

Regina was lost in her own little world, gently caressing her belly and smiling. "Hey my little baby, please just hang on in there." She said out loud. She was so afraid of losing this new light that life had offered her. "I promise you I'll be strong for you and I will take good care of both of us. I just discovered you exist and I already love you so much, please don't leave me baby, I need you so much, you are my hope and my light in all this darkness." She sighed.

She was pulled out of her reverie by the sound of a knock on her bedroom door. "Come in."

Henry slowly opened the door and stuck his head in the room "Can I come in?"

She smiled at him "Of course you can, you don't need to ask for permission Henry." She told him. The boy smiled and entered the room, closing the door behind him. "Come, lay here with me." She said and patted the bed.

He quickly lied besides her and hugged her gently. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm good, just a little tired honey." He looked at her just to make sure she was telling him the truth. Usually when she was sick she always claimed to be fine when he could clearly see that she wasn't. "Don't look at me in that way. I swear I'm telling you the truth I promised not to lie to you anymore." He smiled at her and rested his head on top of her shoulder.

"Mom?"

"Yes Henry?"

"Have you talked to Emma yet?"

"No honey, I haven't and I don't wish to talk to her for now." she said, her voice filled with sadness.

"Oh, ok. She told Snow you were pregnant." He said a little afraid of her reaction.

"She what?" she asked raising her tone. Henry trembled a little and when she felt his reaction, she immediately took a deep breath and spoke to him again in a softer tone "I'm sorry honey." She sighed "What exactly did she tell her?"

"Well she told her you were pregnant and that the baby was hers too." He hoped that this information would make his mother a little happier, she needed to know that Emma was accepting all that was happening. "Maybe you should talk to her."

"Henry, I can't. I'm sorry but I can't." tears were beginning to flow down her face, long gone was the strong woman she was, in her place was now a weak and broken Regina Mills that feared being hurt again.

"Mom?" after a few seconds she still hadn't spoke so he raised his head and looked at her. His heart clenched, he had never seen her like this and it was painful to watch. "Don't cry mom, everything will be ok, I promise you." He said trying to comfort her, he cleaned her tears and softly kissed her cheek.

"I love you so much Henry." She said in a whisper.

"I love you too mom." And he hugged her. She quickly hugged him back. "I'm sorry I let Emma take me away mom, I'm so sorry, I missed you so much." He said now crying too.

"It's ok honey. What matters is that I've got you back now." She told him. He nestled his head in the crook of her neck with his tears still falling "Shh…honey everything is fine now, I've got you back in my arms and it makes me so happy." She said kissing the top of his head.

Controlling his tears he was finally able to speak again "I love you mom and I promise I'll never leave you again, I promise." She kissed him again and smiled, she finally had her little prince back and she was so happy, she thought that she would never have him back, close to her. Mother and son comforted one another and didn't let go of each other, they were so emotionally tired that they ended up falling asleep.

"Lunch is ready. Do you want to go and get Henry while I prepare Regina a plate?" Kathryn asked Emma.

"I…I uh…I think that Regina doesn't wanna see me right now, maybe you should go." Emma ended up saying, she didn't want to impose her presence in Regina's room and deep down she was afraid to face her too.

"Emma running away from this won't help you at all." Kathryn stated "Go get Henry, now." she said firmly.

"Jesus, since when are you so bossy?"

"Since I remembered that I am a princess and that I can do as I please, now go." She said looking at the kitchen door and tilting her head in that direction.

Emma looked at her one more time before giving up "Fine, I'm going." And she left the kitchen.

When Emma reached Regina's room she knocked but received no answer, so she slowly opened the door and silently entered the room. She stopped and observed the two people laying in the bed, they were sleeping, hugging each other. They looked so cute that she couldn't resist, she took her phone from her pocket and quickly snapped a picture.

Looking at them for a little longer, she realized that she had deprived her son of his mother's love and care, she had been so selfish. Her stomach turned upside down as she realized the length of the damage she had done to Regina and her own son. Silencing her thoughts she decided to let them rest, lunch could wait a little.

Once she returned to the kitchen Kathryn had already set the table.

"Hey, what took you so long?" the older blonde asked.

"Oh, they were sleeping and I just didn't have the heart to wake them up, they looked so peaceful."

"Ok, but we will have to wake them soon, Regina really needs to recover her strength and she has to take her vitamins too."

"Yeah I know. Let's just give them an half an hour rest and then we'll bring lunch to them." Emma said.

"Fine. Let's eat then before it gets cold." She said pointing to the food that she had already placed in their plates.

After they finished their meal, Kathryn prepared a tray with two plates of pasta and two cups of orange juice and staring at the young blonde she basically ordered "Go wake them up and serve the lunch."

"Really?" Emma said, not really wanting to wake Regina up.

Kathryn simply looked at her with a murderer gaze and she got her answer there. She grabbed the tray and once again made her way to the brunette's room. This time she didn't knock, she entered the room and approaching the bed she said loudly "Time to wake up sunshine's."

Regina was the one to open her eyes first, immediately followed by Henry. He was the first one to speak though "It smells good."

"Yeah, sit up. It's time for the two of you to lunch." She said placing the tray on top of the bed.

Once they were properly seated and with their plates in hand Regina coldly said "You may leave us now Miss Swan."

"Regina…" the brunette cut her off.

"Last time I checked this was still my room and you are not welcomed here. I wish to share this meal with my son and no one else, so you can go take yourself for a walk." Her words were harsh and her voice was arctic.

Emma shook her head and sighed "As you wish." And she quickly left the room. Her heart shattered. She was able to reach the stairs before letting her tears fall. She sat on the first step with her back against the wall. She hugged her legs and let her pain get out of her through her tears.

A couple of minutes later Kathryn came to her, sitting beside her "What happened?"

"She basically kicked me out of her room, she was so cold, so distant, it hurts so badly." She said cleaning her tears.

"What were you expecting? Smiles, kisses and hugs? You broke her heart, you shattered everything you both had, now you're going to have to build it up from scratch. She's trying to protect herself from you, that is only natural." Kathryn stated.

"I know but her walls are so hard to break…but I broke them once I'll do it again, I need her, she belongs with me. I know my life is a mess and I have a lot to process but she's my sun, my moon and my stars, I can't live without her anymore."

"Mom, are you ok?" Henry asked worried.

"Of course sweetie, all is good."

"You promised not to lie to me." He said.

"You're right. I'm sorry, it's just that seeing Emma makes me nervous, I never know what to expect from her." She said honestly.

"It's ok mom." He decided to change the subject "Now eat, your lunch is getting cold." He said pointing at her plate.

She gave him an half a smile and began eating.

After a few bites Henry spoke again "This is good."

"Indeed it is, Kathryn is a good cook."

"Not better than you mom." He said smiling at her.

"Thank you sweetheart." She said caressing his face. "As soon as I can I'll make you anything you want."

His smile grew wider "Thanks mom, I've really missed your cooking."

"So, tell me, how are you doing in school?" she asked, she wanted to know everything about him and what he had been up to on the last couple of months.

He immediately began telling her everything, he was happy for finally being able to speak and spend time with her again, they had a lot to catch up.

A couple of hours later and seeing that his mother was peacefully sleeping he decided to go check on his other mom. He searched for her in her room but she wasn't there so he made his way down the stairs. He heard noises coming from the kitchen so he went there first. When he got there he saw Kathryn explaining and demonstrating cooking stuff to Emma. His mouth fell open. Was Emma trying to learn how to cook? He couldn't believe it.

Suddenly feeling a presence Emma looked at the kitchen door and she saw Henry standing there "Hey kid."

"Hey." He answered back "What are you guys doing?"

"Oh, I'm teaching Emma here the basics of cooking." Kathryn said smiling at him.

"Oh, ok." Was his response and seeing that his blonde mother wasn't in any trouble he decided to go back to his mother's room.

He had already turned his back on them when he stopped at hearing Emma call for him.

"Henry, we need to talk." He turned to her and nodded.

Kathryn quickly cleaned her hands and said "I'll leave you alone so you can be more comfortable."

Emma and Henry once alone took a few minutes to take deep breaths and gain courage to begin this conversation.

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