MC: I'm baaaaaack, from an extremely long writing hiatus, and I decided to start off with my drabble story instead of jumping into my chapter stories! So please enjoy! And the prompt for this one is, "I was out in public and had an anxiety attack and you left your friends to give me some chocolate and talk me through it, so tysm" so TW for a description of an anxiety attack
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Everything was spinning.
Her skin felt like it was aflame but her hands were clammy and sweating. Her ears buzzed and it hurt to keep her eyes open for too long.
Suddenly everything was too much.
The sun was too bright, the people walking around were too loud, and the smell of confectionary sweets from the shop she just left too sweet making her stomach roll in nausea and fear.
Calm down, you're okay, stop overreacting, it wasn't him, you're safe, you're okay, calm down Ellie, you can't just fall apart like this, there are people watching
Oh god there are people watching, what are they thinking, they're probably angry, I'm probably in their way fuck I can just her them now, look at this stupid kid freaking out over nothing, she must be crazy something is wrong with her
Calm down breathe, there's nothing wrong just calm down
Ellie crumpled down into the fetal position and covered her ears trying to drown out the jumbled voices of the crowd around her that were no doubt cursing her entire existence. Her eyes rapidly moved left and right watching the crowd close in on her and everyone's face turn into a sneer as laughter trips past their lips.
Tears sting the corner of Ellie's eyes.
And then her breath hitched, air clogged in her throat trapped with a scream that wanted to escape. She closed her eyes so tightly the tears at the corner of eyes fell down her cheeks leaving hot tracks in their wake.
Shut up, shut up, shutupshutupshutupshutup!
Leave me alone! I'm sorry just leave me alone!
"Breathe"
Ellie's eyes shoot open wild and scared when she realizes the voice she just heard was not her own. Trying to swallow past her heart that was currently residing in her throat she settles her bouncing pupils on the person who was now sitting next to her. They had a smile on their lips and their eyes were peering at her with sympathy. Ellie's quickly zoomed in on their arm which had began to reach out for her but Ellie flinched away from the touch and curled in on herself even more whining pathetically.
Ellie hiccupped trying to breathe in again but she was still having a hard time. Her seatmate reached a tentative hand out again but Ellie was too focused on trying to get air into her lungs to shy away again.
Ellie's head felt light and started to spin as she continued to try to steady her breathing. Closing her eyes again she bit her lip trying to calm her still racing thoughts.
Ellie felt something brush against her arm which with her heightened senses made her shiver and goosebumps prickles her skin. A soft palm gently pried her clenched fist open and placed Ellie's still clammy hand against something warm and solid. Feeling the steady pulse of a heartbeat beneath her fingertips Ellie slowly opens her eyes again and observes the way her hand was splayed against the chest of the girl who had sat next to her.
"Just try to match my breathing, ok? We're going to breathe in count down from three then breathe out slowly okay?" Ellie clumsily nodded her head, heart still thudding quickly and painfully against her ribcage.
She felt the girls' chest rise as she inhaled and Ellie began to follow her lead.
In
3...2...1
Out
In
3...2…1
Out
In
3…2...1
Out
Slowly but surely her lungs remembered how to work properly and her heart fell from her throat back to her chest where it belonged, her thoughts were clear as she focused on both the mysterious girl and her own rhythmic breathing and the low words of reassurance the other girl was mumbling.
"There ya go, you did great!" Ellie looked at the smiling girl and couldn't help the way her own lips quirked upward, albeit in a more shy and embarrassed manner. Clearing her throat and averting her gaze down to the concrete Ellie took her time to find her voice.
"Thanks…For, ya know…" Ellie feels embarrassment begin to suffocate her for breaking down in the middle of the street just because she thought she saw him.
More like I thought I saw a ghost Ellie think bitterly to herself. Either way her cheeks heat up in shame. She takes back her hand that was still resting on the other girls' chest and tried to scramble to her feet. Unfortunately as she planted her feet on the ground her head spun and her legs buckled under her.
"Whoa there, slow down girly, you gotta take it easy." The girl caught Ellie by the waist and gently brought her back down to her sitting potion on the ground.
"Here I got something that should perk you right up"
The girl rummages through the pocket of her red sweater and produced two Hershey bars. Ellie looks at the offered candy suspiciously before she looks up into the other girls' brown eyes.
"I saw you," the girl begins as she unwraps one of the bars and hands it to Ellie who carefully takes it still unsure about the whole situation, "I was across the street with my friends, and I saw you out here pacing back and forth, you looked like you had a lot on your mind, I was going to head over to talk to you anyway but then I saw you huddle up on the ground. So I ran back into the store and bought you some chocolate, ya know with it being comfort food and all. Plus I figured you'd need a little dose of sugar to deal with the light headedness you're no doubt experiencing." The girl turns her gaze to the sky and nods to herself as if she was satisfied with her own explanation.
Ellie felt tears well up in her eyes from gratitude but blinked them away and instead nibbled on the chocolate in her hand.
"Do you have to be somewhere right now?"
Ellie looked at the girl next to her and shook her head no slowly.
"Do you want to go to the arcade with me? They have a new fighting game out that's supposed to be totally kick ass and has some of the best finishing moves since mortal combat. And one of the main characters is a total badass with knives attached to her hands and has does a sick aria finisher, her name is-"
"Angel" Ellie finishes her eyes lighting up in excitement, "I heard about the game, it's called The Turning, I've been wanting to play it ever since it came out!" Both girls smile toothily at each other.
The brown haired girl stand up and offers Ellie her hand, the redhead accepts the help as she stands up slowly, still a little dizzy but feeling infinitely better.
With their hands still connected the other girl speaks again, "The names Riley"
"I'm Ellie"
Stuffing her hands in her red pockets Riley smirked at the shorter girl, "Well Ellie let's go don't wanna run into a long line."
The tanned girl turned on her heel and was about to start walking when Ellie gathered up her courage and called out to her.
"Riley wait!" said girl stopped in her tracks and turned back around, "Thank you for- for the uh chocolate… yeah thanks for the chocolate it really helped me out" Ellie says too embarrassed to actually thank her for talking her through her attack. But Riley seemed to understand anyway and gave her a knowing look.
"Anytime. Now come on last one there has to pay for the first round!" And with that the dark skinned girl took off down the block. With a smile Ellie stuffed the rest of her uneaten chocolate in her pocket and took off after her.
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MC: Honestly whoever said drabbles were a thousand words or less can fight me. But anyways, thoughts? Have I lost my touch after my writing hiatus? I hope not. Also I've always wondered why you continuously tell yourself to calm down during a panic attack even though you know that you're trying but it's so hard and sometimes you just can't, and just telling yours self that just makes it worse. I think telling yourself to calm down is actually worse than when someone else says it to you.
I think next time I'm going to to one of those established relationship AU's cause I feel like writing the girls being cute together with the bonus of them being able to kiss and stuff. But as always if you see a prompt that you'd want me to write don't be afraid to ask!