The truth of it all.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything to do with merlin. Not merlin himself, not even his neckerchief.

SPOILERS: this is sort of an episodic fic, but with a twist. In other words I will be using certain episodes as a background but adding what I need to, to make it coincide with the story.

SUMMARY: the reasons behind morganas hatred. Both Morgause and Uther I am sorry to say are still alive. Mind you I am also allowing Lancelot to breathe again too. The castle has been taken over for the fourth time; Arthur, merlin and the knights that are left are planning to free the prisoners which include Uther. Gwen who is recently married is traveling to some place safe. The Gwen and morgana fight took place but the injury wasn't that bad and she healed herself. So no dragon was involved. This story will be mergana.

EALDOR.

As soon as they had stepped a reasonable distance away from Hunith's home Gwen turn to Morgana.

"Right morgana, I want answer. How does…..?"

"Because he is merlin's son." Morgana told Gwen before she could even finish her sentence.

Gwen was speechless, even if she could find her voice she didn't know what to say. Morgana could see the thoughts rolling around in Gwen's mind.

"He doesn't know Gwen. He might be suspicious now but I haven't told him, and I would appreciate it if you didn't either."

"Morgana you have to tell him. Merlin needs to know he has a child. It isn't fair to him, or to your son."

Gwen was adamant about telling merlin but deep down she was also angry at the thought that morgana hadn't confided in her when she was pregnant. She had believed they had been more than just lady and maid, she had once thought they had been friends.

"Gwen I can't tell him, at least not till Uther is dead. Please understand. I hadn't been feeling well and that was how Gaius found out. It was his duty to tell Uther that I was with child. Oh Gwen Uther was not pleased he demanded the name of the man who had disgraced me so he would swing. Uther wanted to hang him. If I had told merlin, well we both know merlin he would have wanted to be a part of his child's life and as a result Uther would have taken his life."

"You loved him." Gwen didn't put it as a question it was a statement.

"No Gwen, I still love him, and before I left I know he loved me. I can see in his eyes that he no longer does, but I can't stop. I fear that I will always love him and only him. I guess I am not like either of my parents in that way, since they both betrayed their love." Morgana spoke but became very upset very fast.

Gwen knew morgana was hiding something and from how she was allowing her emotions to take over her, she knew it was big.

"Came here Gwen to have Will, and I swear to you I have never set foot back in Camelot since." Morgana spoke through her tears. Gwen did the one thing she had wished she could have for a few years now. She embraced her best friend. They stayed like that for a while until they remembered that although Hunith knew they would talk, she would also be waiting for the water.

Gwen and morgana walked back to the house laughing, and all the men and Hunith could hear as the two women walked in was Gwen's words of "I want all the details." And morganas heartier laugh that followed it.

CITADEL

The knights all sat in their cell watching Cenred's guards dragging both Uther and Gaius from the cell. The guards all wondered if they were about to lose their old king or if this was just another torture tactic formed by Morgana to break and punish Uther and Gaius.

Cenred's knights dumped Uther and Gaius on the floor in the throne room.

"Please morgana everything I have done I did it with your best interests at heart." Uther tried pleading with his daughter.

"Best interest. I HAVE MAGIC. You killed so many of my kind. Both of you are responsible for all the suffering inflicted upon those whom have magic. But why Uther, you were warned about the magic that would be used to ensure your son lived. But you chose to go ahead. You chose to risks a life to ensure you had an heir when you were sleeping with my mother."

"Morgana, the sorceress who did the spell was evil; she has tried to kill…." Uther tried to explain but morgana cut his explanation short.

"She wanted you to suffer for all the things you had done. But don't worry Uther today it is Gaius I am using there is however a reason for your accompanying him."

"Hello Uther." A voice spoke.

"What are you doing here…?"

"I am here to witness the death of a man responsible for killing someone I loved." The voice spoke calmly, almost too calmly.

"I lo….." Uther started to speak

"Don't you dare. But rest assured Uther, I have the queen's word that you will live to see the death of your son. You took her from me I will take great pleasure in watching you lose your heir."

"But he is your…."

With these final words Uthers world went black, because of a well-aimed punch.

EALDOR.

After lunch morgana excused herself and her son Will so she could lay him down, to sleep for a while. She had just got him settle in to a gentle slumber when she felt someone behind her. She knew who it was without looking so she bent down placed a kiss on her sons head before she turned towards the person. As she started to turn she spoke.

"Hello merlin."

Merlin was shocked that she had been able to guess it was him behind her. It had been a long time since they had been closely linked.

"Your son." Was all he could say. Morgana could see the pain in merlin's eyes as he looked towards will. She realized that merlin was feeling betrayed. He thought that will wasn't his.

"What about him merlin."

"You couldn't have waited long after to get pregnant. That's even if you waited at all." Merlin's temper was flaring up. Morganas cool and calm composure was annoying him. They had been friends, lovers he would have married her should she have wish to defy Uther. But here she was with a child and worse thing was she was at his mother's.

"I never betrayed you merlin, don't forget it was you who poisoned me. It was you who tried to kill someone you supposedly loved. So don't EVEN START." Morgana hadn't realized her voice had risen until Will started to stir. So in a calmer voice she continued. "If you want to finish this conversation I suggest we do it elsewhere because I don't want him to wake up to you and I having a disagreement."

Merlin just nodded and motioned for her to precede him. With a final look at the sleeping child he left. Morgana had stopped beside Gwen and looked to be having a hushed discussion. One that it seemed no one could hear.

"He thinks I betrayed him Gwen. He has to be blind not to see It." morgana whispered to Gwen.

Before Gwen could answer morgana felt a hand on her arm and an angrily spoken "excuse us." before merlin dragged her out of the house. Merlin took them towards the woods before he released morganas arm.

"What do you think you're doing merlin? You could have just told me you were ready. How dare you drag me out like that." Morganas temper now was also flaring.

"We needed to talk, I mean how could you morgana, you have a child, and yet you come to MY MOTHERS. You betrayed me, I love you and….." merlin paused because morgana had looked at him with raised eye brow. It took him a few moments to realize why she had raised it.

"I meant I loved you and you obviously didn't care, for you laid with another….. Another… with someone who wasn't Me." merlin's temper was now gone and all that was left was a broken man. Morgana reached out for him, to comfort him and to tell him the truth.

"No don't. You can't fix this morgana; you can't offer me comfort when you are the reason why I need comforting. Just….just tell me why. Why did you come here, to my home of all places morgana why raise your child here."

Morgana knew telling merlin that will was his while he was in this state wouldn't help. He wouldn't believe her anyway. She would have to get Hunith to tell him. But she could ease his mind somewhat.

"I don't live here merlin. I am only here because Gwen seemed to be afraid of me, and keeping her at my home wouldn't have been good. Yes I gave birth to Will here. I have no mother merlin I was alone and I remembered how kind your mother was…is and I…. I didn't want to be alone; I was scared of what would happen. We stayed here for a few months just until I found a permanent home where I could raise Will, and it worked well for your mother taught me how to be a mother. She raised you merlin and if I can raise my son even half as well as she did you then he will be a great man. Your mother and Will became close. She adored him and when I left it was at her request that I keep in touch. I think she missed having a child around, since it had been a long time since you had been there. She helped me merlin and I wasn't about to deny her the right to watch her gran…. To watch a child she seemed to love as if he was her flesh and blood. I am sorry if it upsets you, but I couldn't deny her then and to stop it now would devastate them both." Morgana was hoping he would understand because she didn't want him to hate her. She hadn't betrayed him; she couldn't betray him for she still loved him and not just because they shared a child.

With a small smile merlin spoke to morgana. "She does seem happy to have him in her life, but why were you alone, what happened to his father?"

Oh no morgana thought how she could get out of this. She took a few seconds to think. And what she came up with was the truth, or at least very close to the truth. "Something happened between us and I had to leave, if I hadn't had left then both will and his father could have been harmed. Wills father never knew I was expecting. He doesn't know that we have a child." Morgana was getting very emotional as she spoke.

"We should head back it will be dinner soon, we have been out for a few hours the son has even started to set." Merlin spoke as he turned round. He held his hand out to morgana, but all he could think of when she placed her hand in his was that morgana had loved wills father very much. She seemed so hurt about the fact that he didn't know about Will.

Back at the house will had woken up and was running around asking everyone where his mother was. He would settle down with Hunith or Gwen but when they both decided to start dinner he wouldn't settle because they were both busy. After a few moments Arthur decided to pick the child up and try to settle him down himself. It worked which not only shocked Arthur but all the knights too. Will sat on Arthur's knee and just smiled at him the smile lighting up his blue eyes. Arthur smiled back; will had a lot of morgana in him but there was something else to. Something that was familiar about it. Arthur couldn't put his finger on it though.

Morgana was the first one through the door; she smiled as she saw Will on Arthur's knee. He must have climbed to stand up when he heard the door for he was standing up leaning over Arthur's shoulder.

"Hello handsome did you have a good sleep." Morgana spoke as she came further in the house with merlin closing the door.

"Listen Will I am the king and I am telling you give me a second so I can stand and pass you to your mother." Arthur was almost pleading with Will. Merlin smiled at the sight. His king being defeated by a child. At merlin's snicker Arthur turned to glare at him. The laughter was lighting up merlin's eyes. Merlin's blue eyes and that was when Arthur thrust Will at morgana and took out his sword.

"YOU." Was all Arthur said as the tip of his blade was pointed directly at merlin's heart.

AUTHORS NOTE

sorry its been so long. i havent been feeling to well. will try and get the next chapter in a day or two, as long as this whatever i have doesnt get worse.