Hello there unicorns! I am so sorry that I have taken a while to upload this. I've been trying to upload every week on the same day but you see, some girl at the soccer game I was playing, kicked in my knee. It was already injured, so it isn't fun. Ouchie.
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Previously...
"We'll be right up."
Anakin's POV
"How was the mission?" I asked once we were all back in the Council's chambers.
"It was a success. Thank you for all of your help Ahsoka. You have definitely proven yourself," Obi Wan stated.
"What is to happen with me now?" Ahsoka asked.
"We have considered this greatly and we feel that it would be best for you to return to your duties as Master Skywalker's padawan for the time being. Once we are happy with you, you shall become a Master and take your oath," Master Windu said.
"His apprentice? Again?" She stared at the council in horror.
"Oh come on Snips, I'm not that terrible," I said with mock hurt.
"Is there a problem Ahsoka?" Obi Wan asked.
"No masters. Thank you for this opportunity. I will not let you down," she bowed and left the room with me close behind.
The council called me back.
"Anakin. We do not have the room for her. Our youngling dorms are already filled to the maximum. She will have to stay where she currently is in your quarters," Master Windu said.
Damn, I thought this was only while she was to have a 'baby sitter'.
"Of course masters."
I bowed and walked out the room to see Ahsoka waiting."
"Alright my young padawan, come with me," I smirked.
"You are enjoying this too much," she said, annoyed.
"'You are enjoying this too much, master'. Come on, say it," I teased.
"No."
"Come on Snips. Say it."
There was a long pause. She stared at me with a pleading look, saying 'please don't make me do this', but I did not give in. Finally she gave a defeated sigh.
"Master."
"That's the padawan we all know and love," I said cheerfully while she glared at me.
"I can't believe I am a padawan again."
"Most Jedi your age would still be a padawan. You were just the youngest to become a padawan," I said matter-of-factly.
"I know. I just worked so hard when I was here before and it is like my life has gone around in a circle," she frowned.
"That is not true. You have been able to experience both the light and the dark. Then you had the chance to decide which side you wanted to defend. Not many people get that opportunity."
"I guess you're right Skyguy," she smirked.
We walked back to the apartment and settled inside. I walked to my bed and she walked to hers. I laid back and stared at the ceiling while Ahsoka sat with her head in her hands. I could sense that she was restless.
"Snips, you are just starting to get your life back together. It is ok to feel like you are back to where you started, however that is not true. Rex and all the others in our battalion know you and trust you with their lives. It will be like you never left and you can take the new experience with you into your battles and life in general. Don't feel like you haven't accomplished anything, because you have. You will work your way up the ranks quickly, as you did before, and you will find that life is enjoyable again," I said to her across the room.
She looked up at me and stood up. She walked to my bed and sat beside me.
"You don't know that. I could be putting you in more danger."
"How so?" I asked.
"Once Dooku finds out that I have betrayed them, they will destroy everything I hold dear."
"Only the objects you treasure," I said.
"Although you aren't an object, I do treasure you," she said, looking down at her hands.
"I never stopped thinking of you too."
"What?" She asked.
"In your letter, you said that you never stopped thinking about me and that I probably never spared a thought for you. Well, I did. Your face would pop into my head every few minutes. I never stopped thinking about you and wondering where you were. Sometimes I looked to the sky and wondered if you were up there," I whispered.
"You did?" She whispered back.
"I did."
I sat up slowly and moved closer to her. She sat up on her knees and stared into my eyes. I inched closer to her and she followed my lead. I gently snaked my hand to the back of her neck and pulled her to me. Our lips met, her hands ran up my chest and into my hair. She crawled onto my lap and arched into me. It would have been about five minutes until I came to my senses. I pushed her away and stood from the bed, leaving her confused.
"Ahsoka, I am sorry. I let my emotions get the better of me. If you wish to go see the Jedi Council about another Master, you are free to go," I said, gesturing to the door.
She stood up and walked over to me. She cupped my face in her hands and looked into my eyes.
"Anakin, I did not pull away, you did. What does that tell you?" She asked.
"That you are stupid."
"Ouch. No, it means that I feel the same way and don't give me crap about how the Jedi aren't supposed to let emotions in. I know you feel emotion more than anybody in this place. Let it in willingly. Learning the ways of the dark side has had its advantages. I have learnt that feeling and passion can fuel strength, just as it can form weakness. You just have to control it. We could both be much happier," she finished.
"Ahsoka, this is not right. You are my padawan. This goes against everything I stand for as a Jedi."
"So what? I feel the same. There is nothing wrong with this. Learn to use your emotion to your advantage."
She brought her lips to mine once more and I couldn't help but lock my arms around her waist and pull her closer. She was like nothing else in this universe. She felt the same as me. This cannot happen. But I can't tell her how much I wish it could. I pushed her away once more and held her arms to her sides so she couldn't hug me again.
"Ahsoka, this can't happen. You are my student and regardless of my feelings, this is forbidden. Please understand," I said firmly.
"No. I will never understand. I won't give up. I know of your feelings and I know what they can do for a Jedi. They don't hold you back. They work to your advantage in the right situations. I will let you go for now, but mark my words, I will convince you that this is right."
And with that she stormed out of the room, leaving me with my mouth hanging open. How can someone so small have so much ego? I stepped out of the room and headed to the training facility. Grabbing my lightsaber, I activated it and got to work. Slicing and stabbing never felt so good, even if they were mannequins. I sliced limb after limb off the mannequins. Ahsoka was right. My emotion did fuel my frustration. It gave me the strength to fight harder. That is not the way of the Jedi though. Maybe I should just calm down and think things through rationally, I thought. I sat down and focused in on the force and what it could do for me. I could see images. Ahsoka was in a white dress. She was standing on a podium and she was waving to me. Wait, no she wasn't. She looked scared. Suddenly, I saw a red lightsaber run its way through her stomach. I ran to her, but it was no use. She was dead.
"Anakin!"
I snapped out of my daze and focused in on Obi Wan standing in front of me.
"Obi? What are you doing here?" I asked.
"What were you seeing there Ani?" He asked in return.
"It's nothing. Don't concern yourself with my problems."
"I do concern myself with your problems Anakin. What did you see?"
I sighed. Who better to interpret this vision than my old master? I know I can trust him. I knew a little secret that he has kept from most. He is married. When he told me I couldn't stop tormenting him.
"All those talks when I was a padawan about attachments and look at you now!" I said.
I have to admit, Satine did make a beautiful bride for Obi Wan. With that information, I knew that he fell for attachment's temptations. He knows I am happy for him, so I know I can trust him with this.
"It was Ahsoka. She was in a white dress, like at a wedding. I was with her, however she was on a podium and I was not. Then she was stabbed by somebody with a red lightsaber. What could this mean Obi Wan?" I desperately asked.
"I don't know Anakin. A white dress. Interesting. Was it a wedding?" He asked, stoking his beard.
"It seemed like it. There were flowers and all that stuff girls like."
He chuckled.
"The best way to interpret this dream would be to find the man she is marrying in the vision. Do that and we may be able to crack it," he smiled.
"Thanks Obi."
I stood up and walked out of the halls. Marriage? Why would she be getting married? She just declared her love for me not 20 minutes ago. Oh no. Am I the groom? Am I the one that will cause her death? I cannot lose another person. I only just brought her back to the light, this can't happen. I can't tell Obi Wan about me being the groom. That would stir up some awkward conversations at the least. Sure he is married, but not to his padawan. Oh for force sake, bad images. Maybe I should just forget it. It was a figure of my imagination. No harm would come to Ahsoka with her as a Jedi again.
I stepped back into my room to find Ahsoka sitting at the desk.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I am applying for a new master. Apparently you don't want me."
"I do want you Snips. I just don't think it is smart for us to be more than Master and Padawan."
"No. If I am with another master, I can be with you," she said confidently.
"No."
"Why not?!"
"Because Jedi do not feel emotion," I said simply.
"Yes they do. I know you do. You struggle with it, so let it in. Let it power your strength."
"Snips, can we discuss this another time?"
"Why?"
"I'm too tired for this. Just throw that application in the bin and do something else, that's an order," I said in a stern voice.
"Yes sir," she said, mocking me with a salute and leaving the room with a huff.
Well, that was interesting. I know many of you may think that I have brought the relationship into play a little too soon, however, there is another factor that hasn't arisen in the story yet. I think you may like it. Don't worry, Ahsoka will always remain loyal to Anakin, however, something might sway her a little. Anakin may get a little jealous.
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