Every night this week. Every. Single. Night. The same dream. I can't stop thinking about it. Sure the first two days after I was fine but now… it's like it's all caught up with me. Cat and I kissed a week ago. Made-out. Just thinking about that makes my ovaries clench.
Ok, I know I'm a teenager and all and being horny is a natural part of my life. But I honestly have never had a problem with that until now. I have great self control… normally. Right now, I feel like an animal. Like this fire has been lit inside my body and I can't extinguish it. Thinking about Cat just fuels it.
I took a cold shower this morning and it worked for the most part… until I got to school and Cat said hi to me. Masturbation is out of the question. It's something that I've never done and never will do. I wonder if Cat does…
Shit! Why did I just think that? Now I'm gonna be hot all day. Just thinking about the possibility… Cat laying on her bed naked… door locked, curtains closed… her hands wandering all over her creamy skin…
"Hi Tory!" Like a bomb exploding. Hey look, there goes my math book. Man that thing is sailing.
"Hi Cat" I say turning to face her. Well that was stupid. Now all I want to do is… bad things with her. Jesus Tori calm down.
"What's up" She says with a huge grin.
"Just… standing here." I say.
"Fun! Why aren't you in class?" She asks. Class? I arch an eyebrow. "Class started ten minutes ago" She says with a worried expression. It did? Wow I must be really out of it…
"Oh…" I trail off focusing on her lips.
"Tori… are you ok?" she asks shifting uncomfortably.
"Wha- yeah. Why?" I ask my eyes trailing lower.
"Because you've been staring at every body part except my eyes since I started talking." She says. My eyes snap to hers.
"Oh…" I say again.
"Tori… are you sure you're ok? I could take you to the nurse. You know she gives out popsicles! This one time I got a paper cut from this random piece of paper I found on-"
"Cat" I cut her off. "I need to talk to you about something." I say. She nods. "Well, not here. I mean like after school" I say.
"Oh, ok. We can go to your house. Sounds great. Well I better go. I'm supposed to be peeing right now." She says then skips off.
My house? As in the place where we'll both be alone? Unsupervised? I wonder if I told her that I needed a nude model for art if she'd do it… TORI… no.
Something… is seriously wrong with me.
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She knocked on the door exactly 43 seconds ago. Yes, I counted. Honestly I don't know how I'm gonna control myself.
Another knock. What am I gonna do? "Tori answer the door" I hear sharply behind me. I jump and turn around.
"Jesus Trina! Don't scare me like that. Wait… I thought I was alone today." I say.
"Yeah well my audition was cancelled. Why? Is that a boy at the door?" She says with a grin.
"No. It's Cat." I say ignoring whatever thoughts I know are flying through her head.
"Oh." She says dropping her smile.
I turn around and twist the doorknob. I slowly open the door and there stands Cat. Looking as innocent as ever, oblivious to all those not so innocent thoughts that have been running through my heat- HEAD all day. Ugh…
"Hi Tori. Hi Trina." She says with a smile.
"Hey Cat" I say stepping aside to let her in. She walks into the living room then runs and jumps onto the couch. What a strange girl. I close the door and go sit down next to her. Then Trina sits right between us with the remote.
"Trina… can you go somewhere… like other then here?" I ask.
"No" She says flatly.
"Cat and I were gonna talk and-"
"I wanna watch TV. Just go up to your room." Trina cuts me off.
She does know that she has a TV in her room right?
"Yeah come on Tori." Cat says standing up. My room? As in where I sleep? My personal space? Where there's a bed…
"Tori!" Trina yells snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Jeez fine, we're going." I say taking Cat up to my… room.
"Aww it's so pretty in here!" She says delighted. Then, wait for it… she runs and jumps on my bed. Great the exact place I was trying to keep us from. "So what did you want to talk about?" She asks patting the spot next to her. I swallow hard and sit down next to her.
"Well… remember that day you came over to rehearse lines?" I ask. She nods vigorously. "Well… remember when we… kissed." I say suddenly feeling very, very, uncomfortable.
"Oh, yeah. Well, actually I believe it's classified as a make-out. What about it?" She asks nonchalantly. She's trying to kill me.
"It's been bothering me lately." I say.
She furrows her eyebrows. "Why? Was I not good" She says panicking.
"No! You were great." I say. Way to freaking go… it just kind of flew out.
"Yay! You were good too." She says grinning.
"Really?" I ask. Good. I was so scared I sucked.
"Yeah. It felt like you actually wanted to kiss me." She says. Right… because it was a stage kiss.
"So why was it bothering you?" She asks bright eyed.
"Uh…" I stutter. Honestly what am I gonna say? I can't just go "Well I've been extremely horny since then and can't stop thinking about it". Seriously, how would she react?
Cat's face is somewhere between worried and horrified.
… sh…shit. For the love of god… tell me I didn't just think that… OUT LOUD.
"That… that was supposed to stay inside my head." I say. She nods slowly. I drop my face into my hands and sigh. How on earth am I gonna recover from that?
"Tori… are you… are you gay" She whispers the last part. My head shoots up and she jumps a bit.
"What? No." I say like she's crazy… which isn't hard…
"Then why did you say that…? Don't get me wrong, I'm stoked for getting someone horny and all, but I just never thought it would be you…" she says with faces to match each part of her statement.
"Uh… I don't know" I say not really knowing how to reply.
"You know… there are ways to… fix it." She says with a deep blush.
"Tell me you aren't suggesting what I think you're suggesting." I say astonished.
"It's a completely normal part of a teenagers life." She says confidently.
"Not mine" I say just as confidently.
"Really?" She asks surprised.
"Yeah… is it a part of yours?" I ask curious.
Her face literally is stone walled. I can tell she's trying really hard to give an answer that dances around my question. "Ugh, we shouldn't even be talking about this. We're talking about you here" She says irritated.
"Touchy subject I see. You brought it up." I say. Seriously, I've never seen her get all bothered like this before.
"Touchy subject?" She says giving me a look. Oh.
"Heh heh… no pun intended?" I say with a sheepish smile. She giggles and rolls her eyes.
"You look very pretty today Tori" She says randomly. Jeans and a hoodie? I think not.
"Uh thanks, you look cute too." I say being polite. I'm not lying, she does look cute today. A bright yellow skirt and black top with yellow writing on it, along with bright red sneakers. Her bold fashion statements match her personality perfectly.
"So… what exactly do you want me to do?" She asks.
"About what? Oh. Uh… nothing. I guess just telling you, whether I wanted to or not, was all I needed." I say rubbing the back of my neck. I mean, I do feel quite a bit better.
"Are you sure? Do you want me to kiss you again?" She asks. YES. GOD YES.
"What? No…" I say.
"Well… sorry if I freaked you out. I freak people out sometimes." She says looking down.
"You didn't. And it's ok. You don't freak me out Cat." I say with a slight smile. Her eyes come back to mine and she smiles. A real smile. Not the obnoxious one she normally has plastered to her face.
"Do you think I'm weird?" She says turning to sit facing me.
"No. you're… well, you're you. One of a kind." I say honestly.
"So I'm different." She says frowning.
"Yes. But in a good way. The kind of different where… I wouldn't change a thing." I say. Another real smile.
"You're the only one who thinks so. I don't like being different." She says after her smile fades.
"Why? Being like everyone else is stupid Cat. The things you see in life, the different colors, the stories you tell, no one can do that but you. You have a gift, if you will, that no one else has. You see a completely different world that no one else can see. We can only dream of a place like that. A beautiful, colorful world. What on earth is bad about that?" I say looking deep into her eyes.
She looks at me hard. "Sometimes I think you're the only one that gets it." She whispers. I'm in. I'm there. If I'm not than I am so close. I just need her to trust me and know that I will understand. The crazy part… I do understand.
Getting weird looks from people who don't understand. Yeah I'm different, when did that become bad?
Why is different bad? You can't get mad or pick on someone because they're more creative than you are. We stare because she's different, she stares because we're all the same. I get it… I can understand that.
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She feels close to me now I guess. She asked if she could stay. As in stay the night. I don't mind at all, I'm glad she wants to be near to me. Not sure what the sleeping arrangements are gonna be… but none the less, I'm happy she's staying.
Right now we're in the living room on the couch watching some movie Cat picked out. I'm not really paying attention to it though. I'm more focused on the shy tickle that Cat's breath is making on my neck. Her head is on my shoulder but she's slowly inching towards my chest.
Right there. Another inch.
"Cat, we have school tomorrow" I say. She lifts her head and looks at me.
"We should go to bed" I say. A blinding smile makes its way to her face and she nods. Does she really enjoy everything? I'm about to ask where she wants to sleep when her small figure springs over the back of the couch and she's up the stairs. How does she move that fast? Must be the little-to-no wind resistance she has.
I walk up the stairs and to my bedroom door. It's opened just a hair and I hear Cat fumbling around inside. What on earth is she doing…
I open the door a little bit more and am met with her bare back. I… guess she wanted to change into some of my PJ's…
This is wrong on so many levels. Sure, I've changed in front of friends before, and they've changed in front of me. But when you watch… that's a smidge on the creeper side… maybe more than a smidge…. Smidge is an odd word…
She's beautiful. I know I'm only looking at her back, but she's flawless. Ok Tori, stop being a perv.
She starts to turn around and I quickly back up from my door… unfortunately I didn't pay attention to how far and… well, I found the stairs. After rolling down them every which of ways, I finally hit the floor with an "Oof".
"Tori?" I hear Cat say worried. I groan in response. She appears on the top stair looking down at me. She gasps then quickly runs down them and kneels at my side. "Are you ok?" She asks.
"Yeah… my spine will never be the same… but I'm ok." I say cracking a smile. I deserved every bit of that.
Cat helps me up and when I go to thank her, yet again, I'm amazed by her boldness. Heaven help me. Well, at least I know she really likes pink.
"Cat…" I trail off.
"Yeah" She answers.
"You uh… don't have any pants on." I say. She looks down then back up and her cheeks burn crimson.
"I… wanted to make sure you were ok… " She says cracking an embarrassed smile.
"Hey Tori have you seen my-" Trina starts but freezes at the top of the stairs. Why do these things happen to me?
If Cat's face gets any redder, it might get stuck that way. "What exactly were you two… doing again?" She asks.
"Talking" Cat says quietly.
"Right. Have either one of you seen my camera?" She asks. We both shake our head no. Trina nods slowly looking us both up and down. "Well have fun" She says walking back to her room. Just as Trina's door closes we both have a short lived sigh of relief because my front door opens.
Why? Why does the universe hate me so? My parentals walk in the door and immediately stop and stare Cat and I. Cat is stiff as a bored with a petrified look on her face. I don't really know what my face is doing, but my Mom and Dad's faces know exactly what to do.
"Hey… girls" My dad says with the most awkward smile in the world.
"Hey dad" I say back. Really, how do you get out of a situation like this, much less explain it. I look back to Cat and it looks like she's counting.
She hits seven, I believe, and then sprints up the stairs. Cutie? That's what it says, right across the butt of her bright pink panties. Seems fitting. And why she ran at seven beats me.
I turn back to my parents and they both fix their eyes on me. Maybe I should count to seven. "Is there a reason…" They start.
"Cat's staying the night and I told her she could borrow my clothes but when she couldn't find any she came down here to find the laundry room not knowing that I was down here but the laundry room isn't even down here but she hasn't been here much so she doesn't know where it is and I was just telling her where it is when you two walked in" I say all in one breath. Wow. I never knew I could do that. Lying on the spot is easy, doing it all so fast and in one breath, now that is just amazing. Cat just got a ton more cool points.
They both nod reluctantly then I smile, count to seven, and sprint up the stairs.
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Falling asleep wasn't too hard last night. I was a little nervous when she climbed into my bed next to me, but I got over it when she started talking about frogs. She actually fell asleep halfway through her explanation of why they're green. I didn't mind though.
She loves to cuddle in her sleep. If I was on my back, hear head was on my chest, arm around my waist. If I was on my side, she'd be spooning me, so on and so forth. I enjoyed it thoroughly. She's such a peaceful sleeper. It's like watching a kitten sleep. You just wanna go curl up next to her and relax.
I'm also a lot better that I was. Dirty images of her and I aren't flying through my head anymore. Well… at least not as often.
"… because apparently they don't have any eyes. But I like your eyes Tori." Cat finishes.
"Thanks Cat, I like your eyes too." I say catching the end of her story.
"Yay! We could be like, eye buddies!" She says smiling. Uhh… sure we can…
"Well, we should get to lunch." I say. She nods. "I'll be there in a minute. See you there cutie" I say with a grin. Her face instantly goes red and she forces a smile. "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone" I say still grinning. She nods shyly then walks away. She is so adorable.
"Hey" I hear behind me.
"Oh, hey Beck" I say putting things into my locker.
"You wanna do lunch?" He asks.
"Yeah sure… wait, is Jade gonna kill me?" I ask.
"Nah, she'll be there to supervise" He says as she walks up behind him.
"But I can still kill you if you'd like" She says.
"Great..." I say putting on a fake smile. Jade returns one as equally as fake and we start off to lunch.
Right as we reach the outside door we spot Cat and Robbie talking. "…Yeah I was thinking the same so, we should go out…" We hear Robbie say. Huh? Go out? Like to the store… please be to the store.
"Uh… sure. I would love to go on a date with you" Cat says smiling. A date? Like a date date? Like they're dating….
"They're both equally annoying in their own ways. Match made in heaven if you ask me" Jade says.
Jealousy surges through every part of my body. Not just like, oh hey I want those shoes, but the kind of jealousy that Jade feels when someone hits on Beck. Like I will shave Robbie's head in his sleep and make him eat his glasses whole, without chewing.
"Well, congratulations to the new couple" Beck says. A couple. Cat and Robbie are a couple. Cat and Robbie are dating. Ok, I'll admit it Robbie, Cat is now more yours then mine. You win.
This round, that is.
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There you are, another chapter up for you. Not much went on in this chapter, but without it we can't move forward. Oh well, I guess every story has a few right?
Anyway, I promise there will be better chapters on the way. I'm still getting the ground work, foundation if you will, of this story down. So bear with me.
Well, until the next much better chapter, review. Tell me what you're thinking so far. I don't even think I know what I'm thinking yet… but I prefer your thoughts over mine anyway. Reviews = Love.
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