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Chapter 4

Bella's whole body was overheated in Jacob's lap. She could feel him awakening things in her she did not know existed. Although his hand clung to her lower back, she swore she could feel him everywhere. She didn't know how long they had been kissing now but she could feel the hesitation in his touch as he repeatedly moved his hands from her lower back to her hips. She knew Jacob was having trouble believing everything was real in this moment, but she didn't know if she had it in her to guide him or suggest what to do next. Bella broke the kiss gasping for air and quickly trailed her lips down Jacob's neck, she pushed slightly against his shoulder and he leaned back into the bed. She kept her arms firmly around his neck but straddled her legs on either side of his hips. Her tongue ran in slow circles adding a little pressure behind it here and there. Jacob's breathing picked up underneath her and it made their bodies rock back and forth. She let her hands move leisurely from his neck and down his chest, her fingertips grazing over the muscles in his stomach and her hands gripped just above his hips leaving her thumbs to caress the V shape that ran down into his sweats. She could feel herself reacting to the rocking now, her own body anticipating things to come. Jacob's hands cupped the seat of her jeans and she could feel him grind against her.

"Ooohhh" Jacob sighed underneath her, licking his lips and beginning again, "I'm going to regret this later, but we should wait for this, I want this to be different."

Bella's body immediately slumped over him and she felt an uneasy and all too familiar emotion wash over her, rejection. She wanted to cry and scream all at the same time.

"God, what in the world is wrong with me" Bella said her head buried in his neck.

Jacob smoothed her hair and brought her face up so he could look her in the eyes.

"There is nothing wrong with you, absolutely nothing. Trust me all of this…" he broke off letting his fingers trace up and down her sides "…is working all too well. I'm actually sweating Bells…do you know how hard it is to make me sweat?"

"Don't you want me Jake?" she said to him, her hands moving to the gray bed sheets underneath him. She grasped two handfuls and twisted them in frustration. Her whole body was tingling and ready in this moment, she refused to think he didn't feel something too. The urge to keep going was so strong and it caused her hips and thighs to ache with the inactivity.

"Bells I do want you and I know you can tell how much. I just think it should be different. I mean nothing cheesy or anything but for one thing I'd rather not risk Billy rolling through the door. That and I'd feel a lot better about this if I were your boyfriend…you know officially. It's not like I'm looking out for the leech's feelings or anything but I know what it's like to lose you and I think he deserves a warning before you start popping out all these babies." Jacob sat up and kissed her forehead hugging her close to him. "I think it's about time you made an honest man out of me, no more hiding your feelings."

Bella felt comforted by his little jokes, and she knew he was right. She had to tell Edward about all of this, she just didn't know how. She hadn't even thought about him since she had left him sitting alone in the courtyard. She didn't even feel guilty now molded so closely to Jacob's body. Bella couldn't feel anything now but relief. Relief that she had come here on her own, not because of Charlie's preference, or because Edward thought it was safer not even because Jacob had thrown himself at her. Bella had fought back so hard against any real intimacy with Jacob trying to stay faithful to Edward, remembering his feelings but forgetting her own. How many nights had she spoken Jacob's name in her dreams, felt the desperate need to be near him, how long ago had she claimed him as "my Jacob"? She hugged him back pressing her cheek to his shoulder and resting her head there her fingers automatically wrapping themselves in his hair.

"I don't want to leave you. I don't think I can go."

"I know exactly how you feel, I can drive back with you if you want, but as much as I hate saying this" and his teeth ground together "I don't think it would help much for me to be around when you talk to him."

"How can you stand it? Not knowing what he'll say or do, waiting for me to come back to you?"

"Bella my love for you has made me a very patient man. I've done a lot of waiting around, a whole lot and I would have waited forever. I know that you're here with me now so I don't care what he says or does. I love you and you love me, if he's really the man he claims to be, that's all he'll need to hear."

"But you never stopped fighting for me Jacob."

"Because I loved you first, and we were always supposed to end up here. Edward wasn't ever a threat to me. I wanted you to know that I was right for you even if that meant you had to be wrong about him first. I had to let you choose on your own, see it for yourself."

He stared back at her and Bella thought how mature he sounded, and how very sure of himself he was. Edward never thought he was deserving of Bella and she had never felt like his equal, but here with Jacob everything fit into place.

"I've wasted so much time being wrong and I've put you through so much, how do we move on from here?" Bella asked as she drew invisible circles over his chest.

"Simple" he said grinning at her "I forgive Bella."

"Just like that?" the question painting her face with distress.

"Oh I anticipate a lot more time with you on top of me begging for more than my forgiveness, but we will work it out…I think I'll manage." He rolled them both over on the bed, propping his weight on his elbows and successfully pinning her to the bed. "It will be a lot of work, but I'm dedicated to this relationship."

Bella's face flushed a bright red and she tried her best to let her hair fall in front of her face to hide her embarrassment. She loved this side of him, but she wasn't sure if he should know just how much she liked it. He leaned in smiling and brushed the hair out of her face.

"Well that is so understanding of you Jake" she said resting her hands on his broad shoulders, "I've got an awful lot of making up to do here." She tried to make herself sound sexy but couldn't help feeling it sounded off, Jacob was much better at this. She brought her lips back up to his neck kissing him again slowly. She gave a quick yank at his shoulders and he responded bringing her mouth to his and kissing her rough at first but then slowing his pace, stoking the fire that began to build in her stomach once again. She could feel it race through her veins and leave goose bumps in its wake. Bella was losing herself in it again, her eyes falling open begging to bare witness and keep this moment forever. Through her lustful haze, she stole small glimpses of Jacob's body over hers; his arms tensing around her, her fingernails digging into the silky smooth skin of his back, and strands of his ebony hair tangling around her own brunette locks before her eyes would roll back in her head. She closed them tight and the redness behind her eyelids matched the desire flowing through her. Her body was begging for a release. The friction created between them had left clear evidence of her arousal and her own scent hung in the air. Jacob breathed heavily in and out through his nose, his kissing growing stronger deeper and more urgent as he became aware of his effect on her. His hand grazed the top of her jeans gently tugging them lower at her hip bone. Bella gave a little sigh as Jacob's fingertips brushed against her milky white skin and the elastic waist of her boy shorts underneath. She felt her lower body rise slightly into his hand forcing it down and disappearing into her jeans.

A loud buzzing filled the room and a soft rattling sound followed. Both of their eyes fell to the night stand and the phone that vibrated across its length. The display flashed the name again and again, EDWARD CALLING.

"If he can hear my thoughts right now, you might not want to answer that." Jacob almost snorted holding his free hand over his mouth to muffle his laughter.

"We should probably get going Jake. I wanna get this over with." Bella pressed both palms against his chest and gave one hard shove. He didn't budge at all. Jacob laughed out loud and rolled off the bed and to his feet offering his hand to Bella.

"Shall we?" His smiling growing so large it touched his eyes as he watched Bella struggle with her unsteady legs, fighting to recover her composure.

"Just you wait Jake!" she said taking a few wobbly steps forward. "Next time you're going to get it!"

"Do you promise Bells?" and he smiled, her smile, but with something different behind his beautiful eyes.