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Tomoyo the Glee Card
Since the day the Olympics Festival ended, Eriol hadn't spoken to Tomoyo. He had kept a distance between them and avoided approaching her, but when they did occasionally bump into each other he would greet her warmly like he would any other classmate. It felt like nothing had happened. His azure eyes was well guarded, preventing Tomoyo from reading his emotions as she tried to understand why he had created an invisible gap between them. Her plans to help Eriol become happy was failing miserably, as she herself didn't know how to get close to him anymore since her emotions were all a big mess.
After that painful dream or nightmare, she had been having several more dreams of her departure with Eriol and their pain. Almost every night she would wake up crying as her heart ached inside. It was painful to remember those vivid dreams. She would even wondered if it was reality or not. Tomoyo didn't know what to do any longer. All she needed were answers.
Now Tomoyo found herself looking outside the school bus as they drove by the city landscape towards their destination. The whole bus was filled with cheerfulness that didn't seem to reach her presence, as her classmates chatted with excitement. To everyones pleasant surprise, the teacher had announced earlier that week that their class had won the Olympics Festival event, which meant that everyone won free tickets to the grand opening of a new amusement park. They had all picked today to go together as a whole group to enjoy the rides. Although Tomoyo was excited herself to be going to the amusement park, her worries kept her down.
"Are you ok Tomoyo?" Asked Sakura as she softly nudged her friend's arm in concern. "You look like you need a good rest."
"Why is it?" Tomoyo absently voiced her concern out as she heaved a sigh.
"Tomoyo? Hello. Are you there?" Sakura tried calling her attention again. She giggled when her best friend realized she was calling her name, causing Tomoyo to quickly compose herself. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine." Tomoyo replied back with a smile, trying to reassure her best friend. "Dont worry about me."
"How do you expect me not to worry when you aren't like your usual self." Sakura questioned in concern as she saw how tired and gloomy her friend looked that morning.
"It's lack of sleep. That's all." Tomoyo tried explaining, but it was no use, she was too tired to build up a mask against her best friend's scrutinizing eyes, as Sakura inched closer to observe.
"Tomyo please take care of yourself. You know I am always here for you, right?" Sakura asked.
Tomoyo softly smiled to see Sakura's emerald eyes glow in genuine concern towards her friend. Even though she knew Sakura had her own troubles and concerns with the Clow Cards, Sakura always made time for their friendship no matter the situation. For that reason alone, Tomoyo loved Sakura like she was her own sister and would gladly do anything for her happiness.
"Of course I know that. Thank you." Tomoyo spoke as she held Sakura's hand tightly in gratitude.
Sakura squeezed her hands back with a bright smile.
"Alright everyone, please sit down properly. We are approaching the park. Be patient until the bus fully stops for you to safely leave your seat. As announced before, you are free to wander around the park on your own convenience, but please met at the appointed spot for lunch and departure time!" Spoke the teacher loud and clear.
Once the bus fully stopped and the students were aloud to exit the bus, they immediately lined up to enter the amusement park. Excitedly, Sakura held onto Tomoyo's hand and led her best friend around the park alongside their other friends as they began to enjoy the many rides the park offered. Tomoyo didn't object to be led around, as she made herself enjoy as much as possible, forcing herself to forget about the dreams for one day.
By lunch time Tomoyo had began to feel like herself, but her amethyst eyes unconsciously searched for a familiar figure, as she occasionally looked around the park. Although the amusement park was big, Tomoyo would have thought they would somehow bump into Eriol once or twice, but to her surprise they hadn't met him at all. She wondered where he was and what he was doing. He didn't seem to be among the other classmates. Pushing her thoughts away immediately, Tomoyo joined her friends for lunch as they excitedly planned their route for the next rides.
"The last ride should be that one!" Sakura declared as she pointed towards her right side.
Tomoyo followed her finger and saw the giant ferris-wheels glowing on the horizon.
"Lets go when the sun is setting. Wouldn't that be amazing?" Chirped Chiharu.
"I would like to go with someone special if possible." Whispered Rika as she blushed softly.
The girls started to chat among themselves as they talked about the last ride. It was indeed a special moment with the right person sitting beside you on a ferris-wheels. Every girl knew that the ferris-wheels was a magical ride that brought couples together. Tomoyo found herself staring at the giant ride and somehow she had a feeling that there was a special memory that involved the ferris-wheels, but she couldn't remember it clearly. She clutched her hands as she frowned at herself for not knowing why her heart started to pound strongly so suddenly. Her heart told her something, but her head couldn't respond and wouldn't resolve why everything seemed blank and lost. The pain that she had successfully suppressed the whole morning had suddenly burst through.
There was only one person who could give her some answers and who knew everything, but could she breach the gap?
"I need to find him." Tomoyo spoke determined as she couldn't take the pain any longer.
"Where are you going Tomoyo?" Sakura asked as she saw her friend stand up suddenly and run.
"You girls go ahead without me, I'll catch up with you later!" Tomoyo replied back as she continued running towards no certain destination.
She made her way through the crowd as she scanned the area through-fully. Tomoyo needed to know some answers. She wasn't thinking about the later consequences that this might cause, or the trouble she might get into. All she wanted was to keep her heart from aching any further. It was selfish of her, but Tomoyo knew there was something important missing and she needed to know what it was.
Exhausted, Tomoyo still persisted on looking, as she ran through the same places twice to make sure she hadn't overlooked. Time passed by quickly and there was no sign of Eriol. She had asked some of her friends nearby, but they hadn't seen him since the time he stepped out of the school bus that morning. Wherever he was hiding, Eriol was clearly making it obvious that he was avoiding any interaction.
Tomoyo feeling her feet sore, took a seat for the first time since she started her search. She sighed in frustration as she didn't know where else to look for him. Why was he avoiding her so much? Tomoyo didn't know what she did wrong. Leaning back on the bench she noticed a young couple fighting, as they argued about something that had just occurred. Everyone around them seemed so cheerful that they felt out of place. Tomoyo somehow identified with their pain, as she saw how hurt both looked while arguing.
"It's not worth it." Tomoyo whispered as she instinctively brought her hands together and clapped.
A glow surrounded the couple before it slowly disappeared. She watched as they slowly stopped arguing before staring at each other with a sheepish smile. They both started to chuckle as the boy slowly brought his girlfriend into his arms.
"Why don't you trust me? I am always here. I am not going anywhere." He spoke to his girl as she suddenly began to cry and dug her head into his chest.
Tomoyo softly smiled before feeling weak. She felt her body ache in tiredness more than the last time she used her powers. It didn't help that Tomoyo lacked sleep and was drained out by the search. Now that she was exhausted, she couldn't keep herself from staying awake, as once again she lost consciousness. But it was worth it because somehow knowing that the couple were happy made her day less gloomy.
A celebration. Eriol had taken her to the last ride of the day. She was more than happy. They laughed and held hands, never letting each other go or run too far away.
Tomoyo found herself standing beside Eriol inside the ferris-wheels, as they slowly came to a stop on the very top. She smiled excitedly as they watched the fireworks bursting colorfully outside the clear night sky. Eriol held her hands tightly within his. She could feel his warmth and protectiveness as he moved closer to lean down and whisper something into her ears. She softly smiled to his words. Slowly she faced him and her amethyst eyes swam into the deep azure pools that welcomed her warmly, telling her that he loved her.
Tomoyo opened her eyes as a soft smile graced her face. It was the first time in several days that she had a very pleasant dream with Eriol. It felt very alleviating and comfortable. Tomoyo slowly took her time to register her surroundings, as she realized she had fallen asleep in the amusement park. She found herself still sitting on the same bench, but there was a presence beside her that wasn't there before. Her head was leaning against a supportive shoulder while her body was covered by a jacket. Slowly she lift her head up and found Eriol looking at her.
"Eriol." She whispered as she tried to read his eyes, but his barriers were put up once again.
"We should get going. We have twenty more minutes before the rides closes." Eriol spoke as he stood up and stretched.
Tomoyo wished they could stay seated close together a bit longer, but she smiled anyways for his kindness, for she could tell he hade stayed beside her for a long time. Tomoyo stood up and looked towards the blue sky that now was slowly turning orange. The sun was about to set and she saw the big ferris-wheels turning around making her recall her dream. They were inside of a ferris-wheels together and smiling happily. Her heart began to pound.
"Thank you Eriol." Tomoyo spoke her gratitude as she reached out and grabbed his hand. "Would you please come with me?"
Surprised, Eriol turned to face her as he saw her amethyst eyes look up at him. She showed him her worries and pain. Tomoyo let him know what she was feeling inside at that moment.
They stood there in silence. Eriol gazed into her eyes. She could tell he was suffering too and that right at that moment he was being tested. The only obstacle was himself, and she needed to know if he was willing to give her some answers.
"We don't have much time." Eriol replied back as he suddenly averted his eyes away and started to walk.
"Please." Tomoyo found herself pulling him back before his hands could slip away from hers. "Come with me." She pleaded.
Eriol stood still as his mind was in deep thoughts. He felt her squeeze his hand in hopefulness and that was when he looked back at her and spoke. "Where to?"
A smile graced her face as her features brightened up. She didn't let go of his hand, as she quickly led him through the amusement park. Tomoyo made her way through the crowd while Eriol followed behind, his azure eyes always on her figure. Soon enough, Eriol found himself seated opposite side from Tomoyo inside the ferris-wheels, as the door was locked safely and the ride began.
Tomoyo smiled back at him, but he showed no emotion. His cheerfulness and his smile wasn't present like it usually was. For the first time she clearly saw his stoic and guarded face. She wondered why he was acting this way towards her and not any other person. It seemed unfair that he was treating her so different. What made it frustrating was that she didn't know what she had done to make him act like that in the first place.
"I had a dream about us." Tomoyo broke the silence around them. "We were together inside a ferris-wheels, just like we are now."
She stood up and walked towards the window, as she looked at the beautiful landscape surrounding them. "Did you know that in my dreams we are a couple?" Tomoyo asked. "Strange right? We barely know each other in real life."
Eriol watched her but he didn't reply. His expression remained the same.
"We stood side by side looking at fireworks outside the window." She continued talking as the ferris-wheels slowly reached the top.
"It was beautiful. You were smiling at me. We smiled at each other." Tomoyo spoke as she turned to look at him. "You whispered something inside my ear to make me happy."
She now turned her whole body to face him. "I might sound crazy right now, but tell me if these dreams have any sort of meaning. Every day I am hurting and trying to figure why it pains me so much to have these dreams."
Tears were threatening to come out of her amethyst eyes as Tomoyo found herself breaking down. It was not her intention to cry, but just thinking about the dreams made Tomoyo recall all that raw emotion whenever she woke up in the middle of the night. Knowing that crying would make everything much more uncomfortable than it was, Tomoyo was about to turn around when Eriol had silently stood up and brought her into his arms. He held her tight as she could feel his warmth envelope her.
"Tell me if you are hurting as much as I am now." Tomoyo whispered as she glanced up to met his eyes.
Her breath was caught as she saw his barrier crash down and his azure eyes showed a mix of emotions she hadn't seen before. It was those same azure eyes that adoringly looked at her in her dreams. Tomoyo couldn't hold her tears from overflowing as she saw how much pain his eyes carried and how much love it contained.
"Forgive me." Eriol whispered with such sorrow in his deep voice, before he leaned forward and kissed her.
Tomoyo felt the intensity and urge coming from his lips. She didn't push him away, but instead she found herself kissing him back. It felt right. It felt like they had kissed a thousand times before, and every time they kissed, she would feel the same shiver running throughout her whole body. For an instant she knew who he was.
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TBC
