Chapter four~ A nightmarish night~

When Jacob left I felt a sudden emptiness start to take over my emotions. I just felt blah... I honestly just felt like being alone. Sam on the other hand refused to realize that. His presence just seemed to irritate me. He was the reason for things not going the way I wanted them. He evoked so much fear in me. As much as I wanted to tell him that I couldn't being myself to doing that. I guess deep down I knew it was truly my fault. I would've just came out and said how I feeling. I just back down because of my fear of rejection. A fear I wish I could just overcome. What if I never get the courage to tell him how I feel. Why would it mater anyway.

I spent the night pondering the ideal of whether to tell Jacob or not. Finally exhaustion settled in my body and I got a few hours of sleep. It felt as if as soon as I fell asleep the alarm clock went off. As usual as soon as the alarm went off Sam was at my door knocking. I really just didn't want to hear him this morning. It was my surprise when Emily was standing at the door instead of Sam. I was happy but at the same time not in the mood for her. I let her in my room and motioned for her to sit on the bed.

"Good-morning Alyssa"-Emily

"Good-morning Emily"

"Sam told me about last night, what's going on?"

"What do you mean nothing's going on"

"Then why do you have a hostile attitude towards your brother. He's just trying to protect you from some things."

"What could he possibly have to protect me from. I was just helping Jacob study. It's not a big deal or thing to worry about."

"You really need to talk to your brother about this. He really needs to explain what's going on to you."

"Emily I have to get ready for school. Thank you though for talking to me. I guess I'll talk to him this afternoon."

"Have a great day at school Alyssa. Oh,there's muffins and stuff to eat on the counter in the kitchen."

As soon as she walked out of the door, my mind started wondering what Sam could be protecting me from. Is Jacob really that bad of a person. I know I heard he ran away from home. I just figured it was normal, what really happened. I guess I'll just Chloë and Kate when I get to school. Shoot! I almost forgot about school I had only 10 minutes to get to the school. I rushed and got ready, ran straight to my car and hurried to school. Thankfully I got there right before the bell rang. As I was walking to first period I saw Jake. The last thing I wanted to think about now. I want to run up to him and ask what Sam was protecting me from. Instead, I walked into the class room I walked right by him and he said nothing. I guess I was right he didn't see me as a significant object. I was so caught up in my own thoughts when I accidentally bumped in Chloë.

See, Chloë lived on the reservation to except her dad was very well-known. Their whole entire family was well-known in la-push. Also she's Emily's niece, she has to know something about what's going on with Sam. She was very knowledgeable when it came to stuff about la push. She was always gossiping and keeping me up to date with everything happening around.

"I'm so sorry Chloë!"

"Your good, anyway... Good morning!"

We sat in our seats, thank God we had seats right next to each other! I honestly don't think I would enjoy this school without Chloë and Kate here. I wonder where Kate is this morning. After looking at my phone to see if she had texted me, I was rudely interrupted by Chloë slapping my arm.

"You said you needed something, so come on what is it?

"I need to ask you something. Since you always know what's happening around here."

"Okay, go ahead."

"Emily told me this morning Sam's acting funny because he's protecting me. How could he possibly need to protect me from Jacob."

"Jacob?"

"Jacob and I worked on our homework together yesterday. The whole entire time Sam was hovering over us. Help?"

"I didn't know you rand Jacob were a thing. I think what Sam is protecting you from is your background your heritage.

"Chloë, were not a thing! Heritage!?"

"Just ask Sam later on. It's not my place to explain this to you."

"Chloë come on tell me!"

"Not today I'm done gossiping with you!"

That really made me wrong and made me upset. The rest of the period I sat there thinking and wondering what my heritage could be. The rest of the day I just spent it thinking and wondering. Next thing I knew it was time for Algebra 2. Yuppie! ... Not! I so don't want to see Jacob today. On the other hand he may know what's going with Sam. He'll probably just ignore me like he did this morning... (Invisibly cloak... successful!)