a/n-i totally understand if you all hate me right now. I hate to admit this, but I sorta forgot this story even existed. So, I wrote this like two days ago, but then my mom was always on the computer. But now you have it: Ch. 4. I've already started the fifth and final chapter, so hopefully it will be out a lot sooner than this one took. Enjoy!

Disclaimer-I don't think I've mentioned this before, and I bet you never would have guessed this, but I really don't own Harry Potter or any of the related characters. Yes, I know. You're shocked.

Chapter Four

Throughout my first five years at Hogwarts, I was constantly having to come up with ways to amuse myself. No, that's not right…It's more like I was trying to find my place in the world. Although, technically, I already knew where my place was: right next to Lily. Unfortunately, she hadn't quite reached that level of knowledge by fifth year.

So, with Lily alternating between ignoring and refusing me constantly, while still finding time to hate me, I was forced to look for other things to occupy my time. Which is how Sirius and I came to be known as Hogwarts' biggest troublemakers.

Speaking strictly off the records, Sirius and I were the ones responsible for most of the pranks pulled in our time at Hogwarts. But you aren't going to tell anyone about that, are you?

Of course, I can't exactly say I'm proud of that title, or the things Sirius and I did to earn it.

Which leads us to after the DADA O.W.L. in fifth year…

We were sitting by the lake, underneath a tree, just hanging out, you know? We were teenagers, what do you expect? Anyway, Sirius said he was bored. It all went downhill from there. Because I, being who I am, just had to go and find someone to prank, so that Sirius wouldn't be bored anymore. Do I really need to tell you who are lucky victim was on that beautiful summer afternoon?

I didn't think so.

Sirius and I really weren't going to take off Snivellus' pants, I swear…We were just having fun. Fun that nearly cost me any chance with Lily. You see, Snivellus and Lily were best friends, I have no idea why, but they were. So when the two of us starting…being mean…to Snivellus, she stepped in. Lily always was the model student and prefect.

Of course, instead of using my head and doing the right thing for once, I asked Lily out instead of putting Snivellus down. And then he called Lily that word, you know the one I'm talking about. (Like I said before, why were they friends in the first place?) Anyway, Lily got mad, I didn't get a date, Lily lost a friend, I was a huge idiot…must I continue with this list?

I'll tell you one good thing that was caused by that day, though. Sirius and I were talking about all of the pranks we'd pulled together over the years, and he was talking about how one day he was going to tell mine and Lily's future children all of these embarrassing stories about the two of us at school together. That was when I had the most brilliant idea of my life. I told Sirius that when Lily and I had our first kid, he could be its godfather. Brilliant, didn't I tell you so? Now, to break the news to Lily…

Moving on, that day at the lake is an excellent example of my idiocy that lasted six years.

It took me six years to figure out that if I really wanted to talk to Lily, it had to be 'civilly' in Remus' terms.

It was six years before I figured out that Lily was serious when she spent six minutes explaining why, exactly, she refused to go out with me.

After those six years in the dark, I spent another six months just trying to be Lily's friend, thinking I'd lost any chance I ever could have had with her.

Of course, after those six months were up, we spent another six months together, before I used less than six words to get Lily to be here today.