Sorry for the lack of updating , but I was really busy...I turned 16 and had to organize a party and had to take 3 graduation exams in the last two weeks and other school stuff.

And I should be working on my art project right now, because it's due tomorrow but I don't want to...good for you ;)

What happened last time:

When I had to pull back in need of air I let my eyes stay closed for a moment.

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"I...you were...I …wow" I stuttered.

"Yeah..." she breathed.

"Look Mitchie, I really like you, I know that I've only known you for a day, but I... I wanna try, I want to bee with you...in a more than just friends way" I said hopefully.

I saw her smile.

" I want to be with you too-"

but then her face fell, and so did my hope.

"- but I can't" she finished looking to the ground.

"Why? Is it because I'm a girl? Or do you think I'm not the right person for you, I'll.... I'll do anything to prove you wrong, I-"

"No Alex, you are the right person and the right girl for me! I could feel it the first time I saw you. But I just can't be with you, I want to... but I can't" she said her eyes still locked to the ground.

"Is it because of you parent or friends? Because we can keep it a secret until you're ready to tell." I said tears starting to well up in my eyes. I put my index finger under her chin and lifted her head.

She looked straight into my eyes, tears streamed down her cheeks.

"It's not about my parents...or my friends..." she trailed off.

"But why can't we try then? I asked helplessly.

"You don't get it! I can't Alex, it's better for you if we don't ok?!" she said, her sobbs getting heavier.

"How can it be better for me if it doesn't feel right?" I said tears streaming down my face.

She put a hand on my cheek.

"I think we shouldn't see each other again... I'm sorry" she leaned in brushing her lips against mine.

She pulled away, turned around and walked into the darkness.

As I watched her leave a few raindrops hit my face.

As her silhouette fully disappeared it started to pour.

I just stood there in the poring rain. The scene that just happened kept playing in my head over and over again.

The rain mingled with my tears.

I was cold and wet, but I didn't want to go home.

I went to the swing and sat there for god knows how long, thinking about Mitchie and what could have been if she said yes to me.

I didn't look at my watch only when I arrived at home I got to know how late in was.

"Alexandra Margarita Russo where have you been? It's 12: 53, you were supposed to be home at 11! " I was greeted by my yelling mother.

I didn't answer, I just walked by her.

She grabbed my arm.

" I want to know right now where you've been and look at you you're drenched!"

"I was out with Mitchie, like I told you" I snapped.

"Why are you soaked? Where have you really been?" she yelled.

"I was out with Mitchie" I yelled back.

"Don't you lie to me" she yelled her face turning red.

Tears welled up in my eyes.

"I really was out with her, but whatever you won't believe me anyways so go on and ground me, I don't care I'm not going to see Mitchie again, so you can punish me, do whatever you like, it's not like I care anymore she doesn't want to see me anymore, so please punish me, make it go away, please make the pain go away" I started out yelling but ended up sobbing.

I had to sit down, because my legs were getting weak.

I saw my moms eyes widen when she heard me yell and saw how tears streamed down my cheeks.

"Oh Alex" she said softly and put her arms around me.

"She told me.. that she couldn't … couldn't see me again... and that it was … it was better for me" I said in between sobs.

"Alex, sweety, if she doesn't want to be your friend, then she isn't worth it" she said holding me tightly.

"That's just it, she said she wanted to but couldn't" I told her the tears slowly stopped rolling down my cheeks.

"I'll take a shower now and then go to bed" I said my voice sounded hoarse from all the crying.

When I got out of the shower, my tears finally stopped.

My phone vibrated.

I looked at the caller ID: Harper

"Hey" I said into the phone.

"What's up Alex? You sound sad" she said sounding concerned.

"..." I said nothing.

"Alex! What happened? Did Mitchie do something?"

Her name... I couldn't stop the tears from falling again.

I just sobbed into the phone, unable to say anything.

"OH Alex. I'll be over in a few." she said, and I could hear how she got out from under her covers.

"Ha...Harper, no .. yo... you don't... need to.." I said in between sobs.

"Don't be silly, that's what friends are for" she said.

I heard noises in the background.

"Har-"

"Hanging up now" was all I heard before the click that showed me that she hung up.

Minutes later the door bell rung.

I didn't go to open the door, I didn't even get up as Harper entered my room.

I lay on my bad, crying.

Harper placed herself besides me, putting my head in her lap and stroking my hair.

"What happened ?" she asked while running her fingers through my hair.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm my tears.

"Everything went well... it was amazing to be honest. We went to the movies and she snuggled with me throughout the movie. We went to the park and... and we kissed.. but then she said that she couldn't be with me and that it would be better for me and that we shouldn't see each other again." I said, the tears starting to make their way down my face again.

"Why would she say that? " Harper asked.

"I.... I don't.... know, she … she sai- ... said that she couldn't.... that she … she wanted to... but she couldn't. " I said trying to breath between all my tears.

"And then she left" I continued.

"And you're just gonna let walk her walk out of your life? You obviously like her...you know her since yesterday and here you are, crying" she said.

"I do like her, but what can I do? If she doesn't want to see me..."

"Who are you and what did you do to Alex?" she said knocking on my head.

I couldn't suppress the smile that tugged on my lips.

"But..."

"No buts! You call her right now!" she said standing up and pushing her fist into the air.

"Erm... Harper? It's 1:46 am "

"Well, then you'll call her tomorrow...by the way, can I crash her tonight?"

"Yeah sure" I said, the smile coming back to my face.

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So yeah, there you go, that's it for today...

All my graduation exams are over and yeah so pretty much no real classes no more :)

Yeah.... and REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please please please? :)