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A/N: This chapter is unbeta'd so all mistakes all my own.

Chapter 4

I walked back to my rooms with heavy heart, I didn't know what I should feel or do. Part of me somehow knew that what I had read was real but my mind still tried to deny all the information I had found out while reading, maybe I had just read this story before somewhere. Though when thinking harder, it seemed impossible; the book was written by hand and I was sure it had taken long time to write just this one.

Low humming from the book brought me back from my thoughts, it made my skin crawl to feel and hear it and I decided to put it away, to hid it form the sight. I went to my luggage and started to think were would be the best to hide it from cleaners and my dad if they came to the room while I was away. I considered just putting it to my suitcase but I was sure it wouldn't do any good to hide it there, I wasn't sure if dad would respect her privacy and not to look through it if he heard weird humming come from it.

I turned to look around me to search some kind of safe; I had heard that usually in rooms like this were some kind of safe hidden somewhere.

I gave small thought of calling to Emmett and ask him about it, but decided against it, he would probably get suspicious and start asking questions for why would I need one. Telling him that I had something valuable would make him say that I should give it to safe-deposit in their lobby or something.

Shaking my head I started to look behind the paintings in the room and when I came to last one; one with last light of day before night took over the sky, I found it. Smiling proudly finding it myself without help I took a hold of the small key I turned it and opened it slowly. I took better look at it seeing that It was empty I put the book down, but before I released my hold from it, the humming turned to earpearcing screech. I slammed the safe closed leaving the book inside it and twisted the key; locking the book inside it.

Soon as I had turned the key locking it the voice stopped. Could it be that the safe was soundproofed? I moved away from the safe, my whole body trembling and my breathing was coming out in in small pants. I eyed it before I moved closer again to move the painting back to its original place. I took the key out from its hole and put it inside my wallet so it would be with me if I went out from the room.

I turned away from it and moved to bathroom to take a shower to calm my nerves and to get ready to the night and for what I was planning to do for the first time in my life; to release my mind from everything and hopefully get drunk.

I felt my chest start hurting some and had to rub my hand over it to ease it a little.

I moved the shower curtain some to get to my travel bag and took one pill to help to remove the pain completely. I had been eating these pills since I could remember. Renee had told me that when I was born my heart had been really weak and that's why I need to eat those regularly. Later on when I had grown older my heart had grown a bit stronger but I could always feel the pain and occasionally get panic attacks to add more to it. Every doctor I had seen during my life were confused my symptoms and even though they made me go through with all kind of examinations; they never found the reason for it.

When the pain had gone away again, I took the towel and dried myself.

I decided to let loose some and try to be something entirely different than I usually was, so I wore a bit more revealing black top which my mom had bought me when she had tried to get me to go some kind of party event with her latest boy-toy of the month some time ago, she had bought me skirt to fit it too, but it was so short that it would show my underwear, so I went to search under my other clothes the only skirt I had ever bought myself; it was black and came just above my knees tightly pressed against my thighs. I looked myself from the mirror and laughed at myself; I looked like secretary like this and my hair up in bun so I let them loose. They were just towel dry and because I hadn't used hairdryer came out in small curls. 'Much better.'

I searched my mobile and saw that Charlie had tried to call me while I had been in shower. I called him back searching my simple ballet flats the same time.

''You alright?'' Charlie answered to his phone instantly. I had to chuckle at him.

''Hi to you too dad. Yeah I think I just ate too much and my stomach was hurting a bit I was just taking shower when you had called to me.'' Charlie laughed a little at me.

''Good, I think I will go and hit the bar with Emmett and Alistair, they had some free time and asked me to have couple beers with them.'' I started to worry, would my plan going to that club go waste? I came out from my thoughts when I heard him still talking to me.

''So we are going to that Passport bar and I probably will go to sleep after that so try to get better and I see you tomorrow morning.'' I felt relieved to hear that he wasn't going to go to same place as I was planning.

''G'night dad. Love you.'' I could hear smile in Charlie's voice when he answered back to me and ended the call. I didn't usually say enough that I love my dad but I felt like I should do that more, that I could never know when I couldn't say those words to him anymore.

I didn't like that he was going out with Emmett but the thought that Alistair would be there with them reassured me some, not much but little.

I turned my phone to vibrate so it wouldn't bother me if Renee decided to call me drunk again not remembering the time difference. 'Should I have told her I was going to this cruise with dad?' I shook my head and thought the times she had just left me to care of her friends when she had left away for many weeks without telling me where she was going. 'Call me a bitter bitch, but I resent her for always choosing someone else before me.' I took my wallet and walked out from the room.

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I had to be careful while walking through corridor after one so I wouldn't bump into Charlie, or neither Alistair or Emmett; I was sure if they saw me out of room this time of night they would rat me out to Charlie, and that wouldn't go well with him. He would probably get me some kind of ankle tracker or something.

I then remembered the pager Emmett had given me; it would show him where I was if he was looking for me or if Charlie asked him to check where I was.

I turned back towards my rooms, to go and leave it on the bed so it would seem that I was still there and not sneaking off to somewhere.

I laughed at my situation; this was quite fun when I started to think about it. I had never gone against anyones orders or done anything forbidden. Sure I had to copy Renee's signature to bills and such, but that was only because it was needed so we wouldn't lose our electricity or water, because if I hadn't done so it would have happened.

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I was nervous when I walked closer to the nightclub; I could hear loud music even before I could see the neon lights from the sign where read the club's name Quasar.

I saw line towards the club was really long and I almost started to turn around, there wouldn't be a change that they would actually let me in.

My shoulders sagged and I was just turning away when two bouncers turned their heads towards me locking their eyes with me. I felt my skin flush under there gaze. The taller one with sandy blond hair turned to whisper something to the brawny one with dark brown almost black hair while both of them kept looking to my eyes. I saw smirk forming to their face and I couldn't look away even when I actually wanted to turn from their gaze and run away.

Taller one walked towards me and I was terrified what he was going to say or do to me. 'Did he know I was underage?' Other people in the line saw him walking towards me and everyone turned to look at me; I felt like I was small fly stuck in a web room full of spiders just waiting to struck their jaws at me and eat me.

''I am Demetri and my friend over there is Felix, we have a permission from the owner of this club to let only WE think will be suited here in, and we both think you fill the criteria perfectly.'' My eyes widened hearing this 'Shouldn't they ask how old I am at least?' I turned my eyes to man I now knew was called Felix and saw him gesture me to him.

My feet felt almost compelled to move towards him. Felix moved his hand to take mine and leaned to touch almost touching it with his lips like men did in old days but he didn't do so. I could sworn he was sniffing me. I could hear his low voice whispering 'exquisite' What did he mean by that?

I held my posture intact even when I wanted to pull my hand away from him, slap him and walk away.

When he finally let go of my hand he moved away and gestured me to walk inside.

I was pulled two ways; should I take advantage this change to actually get inside this club and do as I had planned or turn and walk away and always think 'What If?

Finally making my decision; I smiled at them and took steps past them and walked inside.

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