"Jake?",I stood stunned.
I saw his eyes focus on mine as he came rushing forwards. His arms encircled me in his warmth, "Nessie..."
I buried my face in his scratchy brown shirt. I didn't say anything. I didn't need to say anything. He kissed the top of my head. He knew exactly what was wrong.
I felt more tears squeeze out as he tried to calm me. When the tears ceased, I spoke. "I soul have listened to you Jake." I pulled away slightly to look him in the eye. "I shouldn't have yelled at you. You've always been there for me. Looking out for me. I, I-"
"Nessie, it's okay. Come on.",he looked towards the beach, and looked back at me. He let his arms fall to his sides, but he wouldn't take his eyes off of me. It looked like he was restraining himself. He looked away and started to head back to the hotel. I followed
We didn't talk until we reached my door. He told me goodnight, and I circled my arms around his neck, not wanting him to leave my side. He pulled away and smiled slightly. He walked down the hall, and I entered my room. I put my back against the door, and slid to the flood. I finished my sentence that Jake had interrupted on the beach. "I love you."
I stirred in my bed as I heard a knock at my door. I snatched a pillow from beside me and slammed it over my face. Trying to drowned out their infernal knocking.
"Ness! Come on! It's Manny and Becca!",they knocked at the door even louder now.
I rolled onto my side and looked over the pillows to see that it was seven in the morning. I groaned and rolled over again.
"Ness! You have to tell us what happened last night! After we headed off with the guys we met!",Becca paused. I heard Manny's voice now. "We saw Kaleb with this blonde girl and..." She trailed off.
The events from last night came rushing back to me. I felt my heart wretch. What Kaleb had said. What I had said. How I'd felt. Came right back and punched me in the face. I let out a sob as I cried.
"Nessie?",I heard them both at the door
"I'm coming...",I said as I wiped the tears from my face. As I opened the door, they came rushing in and hugged me.
Manny pulled back, "What really happened last night between you and Kaleb?"
I filled them in on what happened last night, and also what happened earlier that day and what Jake said about Kaleb. They both got really quiet during that part.
Becca looked up at me. She looked really sincere and sweet. "Jake's a really great guy isn't he?"
"Yeh, of course.",I paused, and swallowed hard. "You two would make a great couple." I smiled.
Manny touched my shoulder, and then looked at Becca. They exchanged a glance and then looked at me. Becca smiled,"We think you would make a better couple." I tried to protest but they wouldn't let me."You've known him longer. You liked him before I did.",my eyes grew wide."Yeh Ness, I knew you liked him long before you even realized you did. The way you looked at him. You were always just as protective of him as he is with you. You and Kaleb were never meant to be."she paused,"But you and Jake are."
I looked down and bit my lip. I couldn't believe what she was saying. I sighed and looked back up at them. "I should go get dressed, so I'll talk to you guys later." They nodded and left the room. I ran into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My face was beat red. I stripped and turned on the shower to calm my nerves. The hot water soothed my tightened muscles. I can't believe what Becca had just said.
I took extra time getting ready. Straightening my hair, putting on make up, just procrastinating leaving the safety of my hotel room. Why does the thought of Jake and me as a couple scare me so much? I've hunted mountain lions! I had to face the Volturie when I was only a few months old. I've survived high school and am graduating in a few months! So why does the thought of me and Jake as a couple scare me?
I glared at my reflection. I looked down after several minutes. I've always loved Jake, and I know he loves me. But I'm terrified that he doesn't love me the way I love him now. More than just his little sister. I sighed and headed for my closet. I grabbed a pair a jean shorts and a tank top. I have to do this sooner or later. I headed out of my hotel room with the biggest butterflies in my stomach of all time.