an: Okay, so this is a longgg, chapter. Double what they usually are…but hopefully you like it. Thanks for reviewing and such!
Driving home with Jake seemed way longer than it had on the way there…
"How did it go for you?" He asked as soon as the doors were shut.
"Fine," I answered. "It was hard. But I'll be ok."
"Did you find out the one chick's name?"
I nodded my head. "Marie."
His eyes narrowed. "Edward and Marie." Jacob pronounced. "It doesn't sound right," He sighed. "Bells, I don't know about this."
"I'll be fine, Jake. Honestly. He's over me, so I can be over him. Right?"
He didn't answer for a while. "I guess so."
I sighed, "Look Jake. If you don't want to do this, then don't. But you have to let me…I have too."
"I know, Bella." He hesitated. "I'd go to hell and back for you, I'd do anything to save you. And I honestly don't know if I could make it through seeing you like he had left you again…when Sam found you in the woods…it wasn't pretty, Bells. You looked terrified, broken and sick…everything was wrong. I thought I was gonna loose you." He looked down, and he I could tell his throat was tight.
"I promise you Jake. I'll stop before I get there again, I promise you."
He nodded his head but said nothing.
I pulled into the driveway and got out. Jake and I worked silently on different things, trying to pass the time until tomorrow.
And finally, tomorrow became today and we were driving to school again.
Jacob was quiet until we got there, "Bella, I've been thinking. If he were to…ask for forgiveness…what would happen?"
His question surprised me. "I don't know," I answered. "It's impossible to answer without knowing the reason."
"What if they were perfect reasons?" He challenged.
"Jake, where are you going with this?" I asked, too puzzled to answer him.
He shrugged, "Just trying to find my place in all this."
I studied his face, "I'm not leaving you behind," I promised. "Not after all this."
He thought for a minute, "I'm ashamed that the thought crossed my mind."
I frowned, "I guess I would think the same thing if it were flipped."
He smiled, "Love you, Bells."
"Love you too, Jake."
As I walked to my first class I couldn't help but think about what Jake said…what if Edward did have the perfect reasons for leaving?
What if today, everything changed and it was me and him again?
I ran into something cold and hard. I looked up and saw Emmett. He grinned goofily, and wrapped his arms around me.
"I know Ed really messed things up with you," He whispered as he let go, "But I missed you."
I couldn't help but smile back, "I missed you too, Em."
"Al and I tried to come back to see you but Edward found out and stopped us…"
"Emmett," Edward hissed from behind us. I spun around and blushed.
Something went wrong while the venom was changing me, and I was still able too…just not as much.
Edward hadn't noticed though.
He and Emmett shared a quick, silent conversation. I decided to walk away, to avoid having to talk to either of them.
The morning passed easily again, and soon I was walking with Jake to the cafeteria. I stood in line with him as he piled on a bunch of food on his tray then followed him back to the same seat as yesterday.
We talked aimlessly, both of us trying to distract ourselves from the quiet whispers.
A few minutes before the bell rang, Jacob threw away his trash. "You ready?" He asked.
I nodded my head, "I'm fine, I promise."
"Ok," He said. He tensed up a bit, and tightened his grip around my waist.
I turned around and saw that Edward and Alice were walking behind us. I quickly turned back around. Jacob walked me all the way to the door. I hugged him and went into the classroom. It was mostly empty besides one seat…
"Sit." He whispered, pushing the other chair out.
I walked slowly and sat down, but made sure to push my chair away from him.
His eyes showed a look of hurt, but he didn't do anything about it.
"Why are you alive?" He asked.
"Well, my mom and dad loved each other and –"
"No, Bella," He cut me off. "How are you alive?"
"Well," I said again. "I was sleeping one night, and along comes a vampire. Then, she sunk their teeth into my throat and limbs. It burned for several days, Jake says it was about six, then I was a vampire. Yay!" I said sarcastically. "How else, Edward?" All my anger towards him was fresh in my mind. How he left me in the neurotic state…how he moved on so carelessly…without even checking back…
His eyes were dark, "Who bit you?" He asked.
"Victoria," I answered. "Don't worry, she made sure to tell me it was because of you and James." Before, I never would've dreamed of telling Edward this was his fault…but now…it's all that I could think about.
"I never wanted this, Bella!" He told me urgently, "I didn't want you to be this."
"Mhm," I said strongly, "Because your world was not for me. I was just the fragile human – who could be easily replaced, right?"
"That had nothing to do with it, and you know that!" He cut back, his voice dim.
"Oh, do I? Who was it that said, 'Time heals all wounds for your kind?' Oh, right, it was you." I glared at the table. "You were so wrong Edward. Not even this hell of a life dimmed the memories of that day you left me. I can clearly remember every word you said, so don't try to trick me."
He gazed past me. "Bella, I didn't want it to end like that…you meant everything to me. But what happened with Jasper proved it wasn't safe."
"But look how it all ended, Edward. Just the same…but with a few more scars. In case you were wondering, Victoria wasn't careful…she didn't try to make it easy for me. Now let me ask you one thing – you said, 'As long as it was best for you.' Now really, do you honestly believe it was best for me if you left or better for you?"
He looked down and didn't answer for a long minute. "You jumped, Bella."
I rolled my eyes, "Yeah, and I would do almost anything to be able to go back and jump just a little higher so I would've died. Not even venom could've saved me if I would've stayed in a little longer…not even venom."
"What saved you?" He asked, his eyes liquid.
"The damn werewolves." I answered flatly.
"How is the dog still alive?"
"The day they are able to control their anger without phasing is they day they start aging again."
"They dog phases around you?" He asked, his voice strong and…protective?
I nodded my head.
"You promised me Isabella." He voice broke for a second, then came back strong. "You promised you wouldn't do anything reckless or stupid!"
So for Charlie, I promised."
"But you jumped when Charlie was alive, didn't you?" He demanded. "You let the pup near you when he was alive."
I glared at him. "Honestly Edward," I said, my voice low. "How could you accuse me of something you have no idea about? You never checked to see how I was…how do you know how long Charlie was alive, or when I let Jacob near me?"
"I stayed away to keep you safe!" He yelled back, his voice marred.
"That obviously didn't turn out the way you planned then, did it? Anyway, it's not like I mattered to you after. You seemed to have settled down just fine."
"Look who's talking! You're the one that married a mammal."
"Jacob." I said angrily. "His name is Jacob. And who said I was married to him?"
"I'm not stupid Bella," Edward cut in. The class was filling in with people now, so our voices lowered. People's voices buzzed around us, but no one came close to us. "Jacob," He said his name with disgust, "Has always liked you – of course you're married."
"And I'm sure you're married to Marie, right?" I asked.
"No." He answered, his voice was hesitant, "No, we're not married."
"Then I know now not to make assumptions. You should too."
"You and the…Jacob aren't married?"
I shook my head.
"But it's been ninety two years…you've been with him that long, haven't you?"
"He's been with me, yes. But we've never been anything more."
"There's someone else." He said simply.
I rolled my eyes but didn't answer.
"Who then?" He demanded.
"Look, Edward, I don't really want to sit here and explain the past ninety-two years to you. I'm not trying to impress you, or shield you from the truth – which is what our entire relationship seemed like – lying." His eyes became hard again. "I don't owe anything to you, Edward. I don't need to spill my guts so you understand why I'm here, how I'm here, or who I'm with. You broke me so you could go on living with Marie. I bet she was there the entire time," He opened his mouth but I kept talking. "Please, Edward, don't talk to me anymore." I stood up and left the classroom.
It was raining hard, and puddles were forming outside. It almost seemed like it was flooding…
The bell rang, then three beeps followed. People became very quiet.
And just like I expected - "Hello, everyone, Principle Conner has decided that it is unsafe to drive in this weather, and until it clears up, he asks that you stay in the building you are in now. Classes will be cancelled. Please, do not leave the building you are in now." Three more beeps followed and people cheered. I wanted to scream, but for different reasons. Luckily, Jacob was in this building right now, and so was his locker. I went to meet him there, and found a girl standing there too.
"Um, hi," She said nervously.
"Hi," I said back.
"Are you Jacob's girlfriend?"
I nodded my head. "And you are?"
"My lockers next to his," She motioned. "He has to open it for me…I can never get it right."
"Oh," I smiled to show her I didn't care. "He should be out soon."
She nodded her head, "Oh, I'm Elizabeth, by the way. Sorry, that was rude."
I smiled again, "Bella," Jake came out and half smiled. he opened his locker quickly and put his books inside then opened Elizabeth's for her, she thanked him then put her books away.
"You guys met?" He asked.
We nodded our heads.
"Cool," He answered. "Well, everyone's headed to the main hall, lets go hang out there." He started to walk and I followed.
"Coming, Elizabeth?" I asked.
"Um, sure." She said quickly, catching up. "I just didn't want to bother you."
"You wont," Jake and I said together.
The only open area was by the Cullens. Jasper, Alice, Edward and Marie were the only ones there, but that was enough.
"Umm," Jacob said, looking around. "Or we could just go to the hall."
I sighed, "No, lets just sit next to them."
He studied my face then nodded.
"You know them?" Elizabeth asked.
We nodded, "Old friends." Jacob said bitterly. "We don't exactly get along anymore."
She nodded her head as we walked towards them. We sat down, our backs facing them and I zeroed in on their conversation.
"Ugh," Marie whispered. "Why does that girl always come near us?"
I could hear a low growl escape Edward's lips.
"Edward," Jasper hissed. "Leave it alone."
I turned slightly, and could see them. I watched Edward's glance travel from Jacob and I's intertwined hands up to my eyes. He leaned over, keeping my glance and kissed Marie on the cheek.
I narrowed my eyes at him and did the one thing I could think of. I pushed my bueatiful, amazing power out to cover the entire room. His eyes grew big and he looked around him. Voices were still buzzing, but I was sure he couldn't hear a single thought. Jacob looked at me curiously, but I smiled.
"What's going on?" Jasper asked, seemingly just as worried.
"What the hell?" Edward hissed. "Something's wrong."
Alice half smirked at me.
"Alice, what the hell. What is this?" Edward hissed at her.
"What is what, Edward?" Alice asked.
Marie was hanging onto his arm.
Elizabeth started talking to Jacob and I; I nodded and laughed when it was appropriate, but my main concern was keeping my block on everyone.
"I cant hear," He hissed at them.
"At all?" Jasper asked.
"Thoughts," He snapped. "It's blank."
Alice looked like she was trying not to laugh.
"Alice," Edward yelled. "You know what this is, so tell me now!"
Alice glared at him, "What makes you think I know?"
Soon, Edwards eyes shot to me. "You." He whispered.
"What?" I asked. Jacob stopped and looked at Edward.
"This is you."
"I don't know what your talking about." I said simply.
He glared at me and a low hiss escaped his lips. Jacob stood up, and Edward did too.
"Jacob," I hissed. A ripple went through his body. He was about to phase. I stood up and let go of the block. Edward stepped forward and growled. Jacob stepped closer too…
An: Sorry, it was getting a bit long… :D Thanks sooo much ButterflyxD for the amazing idea of the mind block. I love it! If anybody had ideas they'd like to see happen, review or PM me, I love to hear them! I cant promise I'll use everything, but I certainly love to hear suggestions. Thanks!