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Awaken My Soul || Chapter Four
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'Cos I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me...
Rihanna - Cry
| Emmetts POV |
I cant believe it. It's all surreal, Bella is really here! Alive! Its weird though I feel like its different between us this time. I cant explain it. It's weird, like, I still love her, of course but, when she called me 'bro' back then, I swear I felt my dead heart twinge in pain. I just don't understand why it would feel that way I mean its not like I have feelings for her.. Right? Oh. Fuck. I think I'm in love with my sister.. Shit. Bugger. Motherfuck.
Whats wrong with that? She's not really your blood sister... So whats the problem?
The problem is she thinks of me as a brother!
Has she said that?
And I quote: 'Lets go hunting, BRO!'
How do you know she's not just hiding her feelings like you're trying to?
Its possible, I guess, I'm not convinced though
"Are you okay, Em?" Ha! 'She's concerned for me, thats gotta count for something!' Thats what the optimistic inside me is saying I quickly beat it down and replied with a simple 'fine'.
"Bullshit, Em and you know it! Whats going on in that big head of yours, hun?" My ears perked and my frozen heart melted from the warmth that I felt at her endearment.
"It's nothing, Bells.. Honestly.." And I know your listening in here, too. Nice try but, I lived with Edward for two centuries, I'm not that stupid!
She huffed, and sat down on a tree stump covered in moss which would have sent her running for the hills as a human.
| Bella's POV |
Okay. In the last thirty seconds I have just discovered something truly horrifying.. I am in love with my 'brother' Emmett. I've said it before and I'll say it again.. Fuck. My. Existance. I mean what kind of person... Vampire am I? I am in love with my ex-boyfriends current girlfriend's ex-husband who also happens to be said ex-boyfriends brother! I'm a horrible being why couldn't they stay away? Why the hell did they come back and completely fuck me up, I was perfectly content in being Demitri's fuck buddy and Aro's little pet, life wasn't good but it wasn't bad and now they're back its just too confusing!
You don't mean that Bella, you love them and are glad they saved you, your just annoyed with yourself but, you cant help who your mate is.
Smartass. What the hell should I do?
Tell him?
Are you off your face?!
Well are you? Becasue I am you, so if you are 'off your face' then so am I.
Oh Joy (!) Not only do I love Emmett, but now I'm hearing voices inside my head. Maybe I should ask Carlisle if vampires can go clinically insane..
Why?
Becasue thats how I feel.
You do know that I'm just your sub-consious telling you what to do.. Right?
Well I do now.
"Bella?" Oh god his voice is amazing, it has that husky, rough, masculinity to it, I love it.
"Yeah sugar?" I couldn't call him 'bro' like usual, it would hurt too much. "You okay?"
He's walking towards my stump now, almost hestitantly and he's feeling nervous, I sent him some confidence and a bit of love, that should help whatever problems he has. I dont want him to hurt. He sits down next to me the whole left side of my body is alive with electricity, it's like my enhanced senses have been upgraded. It feels like every cell of skin that's touching his is on fire, but in a good way, I doubt that makes sense. I just want to kiss him so badly, but I have to restrain myself.
" I have a problem" His ocher eyes are burning holes into my own golden ones.
"Tell me about it, honey, its probably not that bad" Oh. God. There we go again with the temptation, I really gotta stop looking at his lips. They're going to be my undoing.
"Okay, well there's a girl.." I think that the reamins of my dead heart just shattered.
"Continue" I whisper, barely audiable over the rustling of the leaves in the wind.
"I've known her for a while, she's a good friend of the family, actually she's practically one of us, and I think she's the reason Rosie and I broke up, you see, she had her heart set on Edward and his with her a while back, but she was so beautiful, so kind and completely selfless with a very unhealthy disregard for her own safety." He chuckled. I dont know why, but I swear this girl sounds familiar, probably nothing. Although, if things work out between her and Emmett and she hurts him, she'll be quickly familiarised to my fists.
"Go on.." I say, I dont want to admit it but she sounds amazing. "Yeah, well anyway, I used to think about her all of the time and well one day, we had to go somewhere and leave her.." Holy. Shit. I'm talking to any God's listening, please, please let him mean me!
"..And well while we were gone, I couldn't get my mind off of her and Edward found out about my feelings towards her, that even I didn't realise I possessed until a couple of minutes ago, and well he kind of.. stole Rosie from me as revenge.."
"Oh my God! What an asshole, well Emmy.. What are you going to do about this girl? Is she vampire? What does she look like? Tell me!" I feign curiousity for his sake.
"Yeah I know he is" He chuckled darkly. "And about the girl I have no idea because I have no idea how she feels about me. Ermm.. She has dark brown hair, which goes a vibrant red in the sun, yes she is a vampire and a vegetarian one, so her eyes are like mine, and she has this stunning smile that lightens up her whole face, and if you get her to smile wide enough, she gets these cute dimples on either side of it. I just dont know what to do I dont want to get hurt and what if she rejects me?! I cant handle rejection again, Bella, not from you.." His eyes widen in shock as he realises what he's let slip, as do mine. Oh my God I cant believe it, he loves me! Me, plain old Bells!
"Emmett, baby.." I move closer to him sit on his lap, straddling him, he gasps, I can feel blood rushing to one area in particular, we can have fun with that later.. I lean into his ear and breathe 'I love you too, Emmett and I would never, could never hurt or reject you, your my everything." Soppy, much? God what this man does to me! He puts his hands around my face and brings my head up to meet his gaze, the love there is so beautiful, so true and pure it almost hurts to look at.
"Bella, you have made me the happiest vampire in existance." He put his hand over his dead heart and whispered 'Yours'. I repeated the gesture to my own heart and whispered 'Yours, forever'.
I leaned forward slowly. Just as our lips were about to touch I whispered "I love you, Emmett" and closed the remaining distance between us. His lips were so soft and warm beneath mine. His arms reached up to my neck and pulled me closer to him. After a moment I pulled back I pulled him close and he wrapped his arms around me. I placed my head on his shoulder and he embraced me tightly. If I could cry I would have in this moment.
I said " I love you so much, Emmy-Bear". He pressed a kiss to my hair.
" I love you too, Belly-Boo. More than you'll ever know."
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