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Title: up against the wall

Chapter: Denial

Disclaimer: Own no one

A/N: Offloading! lol

BROOKE'S POV APX 2 MONTHS LATER:

I sat at my laptop staring at a blank page. I needed to write up a speech for Sig. Every year before King season started, there would be a Captains Dinner at the Grand Aleutian Hotel in Dutch Harbor. This year Sig was asked to give a small speech. I rubbed the back on my neck with my hands. I didn't know where to even begin. My left leg was pulled up to my chest and my toes hung off of the edge of the chair. I looked out the window and I could see the harbor. Seagulls flying though the air. A few weeping willow trees blowing though the wind. The house was a little cold and eerie by myself. I started to tap down on the key board writing, I was so in tuned to what I was doing I never heard the kitchen door open and close behind me. The wind started to whip around quickly outside, I looked over and saw rain starting to fall.

"Oh joy." I said to myself.

"Don't like the rain buttercup?" Sig's voice boomed from behind me?

I jumped and turned my head around. "When did you come in?"

He smiled. "A few minutes. Whatcha working on?"

"That speech for you. I think I've almost got it done though." I answer as I continued to write.

Sig stood behind me. I knew he was watching me. I felt his eyes on me. "You look beautiful."

I smiled and looked over my shoulder. "Thank you. What do you want?"

He laughed and brought from behind his back a bundle of white roses and red roses. "These…." He said walking up to me. He let a few of the roses slide down my nose. "….are for you."

I took them from him and pushed them to my nose. I took in a few deep breaths. "They smell so good."

"I thought you could use something good today." Sig said kneeling down to my left.

"Why? What's wrong?" I ask, feeling like he wasn't telling me something.

"I have some good news and some bad news." He said pulling my leg down and manipulated my body so I was staring at him. .

"What?" I said with my heart pounding slightly.

"Good news is, the divorce will be final in October on the 31st." He said waiting for my reaction.

I started to laugh. "How ironic is that? But Im glad it will be over for you."

"Us. Will be over for us, then we wont have to sneak around."

"True. So what's the bad news?" I ask.

"We are leaving for Dutch in two days." Sig said holding my hands tightly.

"I figured as much. You have a lot of work to do." I say sadly looking away to the harbor outside.

Sig touched the side of my face gently. I felt a warm feeling surge though my body. I turned to look at him and he had some tears welling up in his eyes. "I'm going to miss having you around."

"I am too. I have a few surprises for you. But I'm still trying to get them together for you." I say with a small smile. My heart slowly breaking. I was trying to keep strong. I didn't want Sig to know that I was upset with him going.

"Surprises huh?" Sig asked inching closer to my face. I smiled and bit my lip. "What kind of surprises?"

I giggled and threw my head back. "If I told you they wouldn't be surprises."

"Oh fine." He said before his lips connected to my neck. His left hand wrapped around my neck. Sig's lips leaving a tingling sensation running though my spine.

I was leaning my head into his hand. "Ohhh Sig…" I moan out with my eyes closed tightly.

His right hand slowly sneaking up my leg and his thumb rubbing my clit. "Sig….please…" I beg.

I felt him smile. "Please what?" He said as he moved to the front of my neck and kissing me hard on the throat. I felt like I was going insane.

I reach out and gently grab a hold of his hard penis. Even though he was wearing his jeans, I could still stroke him a little. He threw his head back, the color of his eyes changed to a deep dark blue. I could tell he needed the release. "God, Brooke…." He hardly whispered.

I felt a little cocky, so I scooted myself closer to him, still stroking him though his jeans. I leaned in close to his ear. "Do you like that?" I purred.

He groaned and turned his face and captured my lips with his own. His hands cupping my face, our tongues fighting for dominance. Sig roughly lifted me off of the chair and laid me down on the table. I was looking up at him begging for him to take me right there. My skinny jeans hung tightly on my hips. While my white blouse with the NW logo just above the left breast showing off a lot of my stomach. His right hand roughly going over my throat between my breasts and stopping right at my jeans. Sig's breathing in creasing. My mind was racing. I so badly wanted him.

"Buttercup?" Sig whispered.

"Yeah…" I said softly.

"You know I want to do this…but I just cant." He said. Guilt written all over his face.

I nodded my head. "I know. Maybe I'll go for a walk?" I suggest.

"Maybe we both need a cold shower." Sig smiled.

"Maybe." I say as he helps me up off of the table. "I think I'll go home. Its been along day."

Sig nodded his head. "Alright. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Tomorrow." I say as we kiss lips slightly.

I left the house that day actually feeling dejected. I climbed into my car and wished for once, we weren't together. After the drive back to my apartment I sat on the couch looking around, part of me was upset but the other part of me understood. I laid my head down on the couch and cried.

SIG'S POV:

I slowly walked to the fridge and pulled out a beer, I popped the top open and took a long swig from it. I felt badly for what I had denied Brooke. But I was honestly scared to death to have sex with her. June was the only person I had sex with for quite some time. But the last two years, we weren't very active. I walked out of the kitchen and made my way up the stairs to my bedroom I looked at the picture of Brooke next to my bedside. I picked it up and sat on the edge of the bed. I sighed and placed the picture back where it was and went to the bathroom to shower. I turned the shower on and stripped my clothes off. I was tired. I had been running around doing interviews with the Hillstrand brothers.

I stepped into the steaming hot shower and let the hot water loosen my muscles. I washed my hair, and got the old spice and poured it into the wash rag. I slowly started to wash my body thinking of Brooke's smooth skin under my slightly ruff hands. I kept dreaming of her lips on my skin. I felt my cock getting harder. "Fuck." I said out loud as I grabbed a hold of myself and quickly started to run my hand up and down my shaft. I needed that release and I needed it now. I heard my cell phone ringing, but I wanted my frustration out more.

I pictured Brooke's lips wrapped about me. "Damnit…" I yell out as I start to shake slightly. I turned to the tiled wall and leaned my head against it. My arm working overtime just to get my release. I finally yelled out in my orgasm. My breathing was hard and deep. I quickly washed off and stepped out of the shower. I dried my body off and wrapped the towel around my waist and picked my phone up from the counter. I saw Brooke called a few times. I hit the redial button and waited for her to answer.

"Hello?" Brooke said into the phone.

"Hey buttercup, how are you?" I ask sitting on my bed.

"I'm okay. Are you out of breath? What did you do?" She asked.

She sounded tired and like she had possibly been crying. "I um…well. I took a shower. And I started to think of you."

The phone was silent for a while. "Did you? I mean, did you jack off?"

I smiled. "I did. Thinking of you the whole time."

I heard her smile into the phone. "Really Sig? That makes me happy."

I thought it would. "I know you aren't happy with not having an intimate relationship with me right now, but just know I think of you all the time honey. You are the one I want."

"Honestly Sig, I was so upset when you denied me earlier. But hearing about what you did, just now. Really makes me believe that we will have a sexual relationship soon."

"We will. I promise. As soon as I get back from fishing buttercup."

"Want to go for lunch tomorrow?" She asked me.

"How about dinner? Somewhere special."

"Sounds good. I love you and get some sleep. Lord knows you wont sleep much on the boat."

I laughed. "Yes ma'am. I love you too." I said hanging up the phone and crawling under the covers and fell asleep having wonderful dreams of Brooke.

There ya have it. What ya thinkin?