That night I had trouble sleeping, well can you blame me? I just told my, to me, disturbing past to my now not so secret crush and he kissed me, of course I couldn't sleep. I had more emotions and thoughts swimming in my head than sharks in a feeding frenzy. Finally after a couple hours I gave up and got out of bed. Putting a robe on, I snuck quietly up front, trying not to wake the now sleeping ninjas scattered all over my living room and went to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of water and snuck my way back to my room. I thought I did pretty good not waking them up. Hey, you try sneaking around the sneak kings, not as easy as you think.

I walked to my bedroom window and, taking a sip of water, I looked out over the moon drenched fields. I put the glass down on my bookshelf then threw the robe onto my dresser.. My life had just gotten a bit complicated but surprisingly I wasn't upset about that. What bothered me was the fact that this wouldn't be able to last, they would find a way home and I'd have to let him go. Were we even doing the right thing between us right now? And what about our families? What would they think? I sighed as I watched the night. What was I going to do...

"Didn't I tell you to get some rest?" Seriously? How the hell did he get past my squeaky door!? At least I didn't jump this time. His arms wrapped around me from behind and he snuggled up close to me. I could feel his smooth plastron on my back, he didn't have any of his gear on. It actually felt nice having him near like that.

"I couldn't sleep."

"And why not?" Right to the point again. I think that's what I like about him so much, always to the point. Cuts away the annoying chatter. Well two can play that game.

"Leo, what are we getting into? I mean, what will happen between us when you go back?" I couldn't help the tears in my eyes, but I felt it needed to be said before this went any further. I kept my gaze firmly outside though, I didn't want him to see me cry...again.

"Honestly, I don't know. But that doesn't change the fact that I care for you." He grew quiet himself and together we looked out the window for awhile, his arms around me and me leaning on his chest. I was painfully aware that I was wearing a short, silk, nightdress. Blue of course, it was one of my favorite colors...for obvious reasons. He didn't seen to mind that I was standing there in the skimpy thing though. Any other man would be all over that, not him. It was as if he knew I wasn't ready and just kept his hands locked in that hug around my waist. And that's all he did, he just held me. My respect for him grew once more.

I found I was having that inner struggle with myself. I was trying so hard to take a sledge hammer to that god damn wall I had built. I wanted so bad to let him in, the one person I knew would not intentionally hurt me and I couldn't let him in. At least we both knew he wouldn't be able to stay. That was a given from the get go. To put it bluntly he didn't belong in my world and I fully understood that. But did I really want him to leave before I could show him exactly how much I cared for him? How much time did we have? Days, weeks, months? Could I risk waiting? But I just couldn't let him in, not by myself. I turned in his arms and looked into his blue eyes, I was right he had no gear on, not even his mask. The only thing he had on were his shorts. I reached up my hand and stroked his cheek. "Leo...I want to let you in, but I can't. I need help, please..."

He looked down at me for a moment, his eyes locked on mine. I could feel the tension brewing between us and for a moment I thought he would back away. He then brought his head down and kissed me for the second time that night. This time I didn't turn away but instead leaned into him. I was fighting myself and he knew it, he just took his time and let me over come my fears. We kissed for awhile until I was ready to move further. I let my hands glide over his well muscled arms that still held me close. I was actually trembling, I was so nervous. He felt it and pulled his head back, breaking the kiss. "Are you sure you want to do this? We can wait. As much as I want to do this, I don't want to rush you either."

My reply was kissing him on his chest, right where his plastron met his skin. He felt so warm under my lips. I could feel him pulling me closer, if that was even possible, and heard a real light moan form in his throat. That sound, as light as it was, sent chills down my spine and made a warm feeling spread in my lower stomache. I felt his hands tighten around my waist, then he slowly moved them down to my hips. He was so soft, so gentle as his hands found the bottom hem of my nightdress and slipped under it. It was my turn to moan softly now as I felt his finger tips on my skin as they moved up and around to my back, softly caressing me. I raised my lips from his chest and looked him in the eyes, god I loved those eyes I could get lost in them without a map and I would be deliriously happy in them...

He leaned in and kissed my cheek, then began to slowly work his way down my neck, nibbling and kissing as he went. His hands still working their magic on my back, his finger tips moving with such soft movements. Between the gentle hands and soft nibbles I let out another moan. I let my hands wander his chest, his plastron was surprisingly smooth. I then brought my hands over his arms again. I couldn't get over how strong but gentle they were. Still nibbling my neck I felt his hands wander to my lower back, then reach my underwear. I couldn't help but tense up as he started to remove them. He immediately stopped and pulled his head back again, his eyes searching mine but he didn't move his hands. I was scared, god I was scared, but I was going to overcome this fear damn it. I put my hands over his and pushed them down, along with the garment and they fell to the floor.

His eyes were still locked onto mine as he brought his hand between my legs and rubbed me very softly. That simple touch was like fire, I gasped loudly and arched back. He quickly steadied me with his other arm and pulled me close to him. He softly rubbed me as I moaned into his chest, god he was so gentle. Then I felt his fingers slip into my folds and my legs started to tremble, if it hadn't been for his other arm holding me up I would have collapsed. My breathing grew heavier as his finger worked it's magic inside me, then he brought his head down and caught me in yet another kiss. I moaned into his mouth hungrily, returning his kiss, my arms wrapped around his neck. God I was on fire and he was the fuel, I couldn't get enough of him.

He pulled his finger out and then picked me up, his lips still locked onto mine, and moved me to the bed. The bed that my ex and I had shared, I had been meaning to get rid of it but never got around to it. It always filled me with bad memories of him. Now there were going to be new memories made this night. Leo softly sat me down on the edge of the bed and then gently laid me back. I watched him as he made his way down to my legs, spreading them apart with his gentle hands. The he knelt down and brought his head towards me and fire exploded in me as he put is tounge to work. I moaned and my fingers were trying to dig holes in my bed covers as he worked his magic. It felt so good, he felt so good. I couldn't help but move my hips and he brought his hands on them to hold me steady. I lost myself in his movements, in the pleasures he was giving me. I could feel myself getting close and I quickly grabbed a pillow and bit into it, hard. Just as I did an enormous feeling rushed through my body and I moaned loudly into my pillow as wave after wave of pleasure filled me. Holy fucking shit, never have I had one that intense, and that was just with his mouth! Oh this was going to be a fun night...

I laid on the bed breathing heavily, trying to catch my breath. He leaned over me and brought his head down to nuzzled my neck again. Then he stopped and brought his mouth close to my ear. "Are you alright?" He whispered softly in my ear. I melted, he just gave me the orgasm of a lifetime and he was worried for me. How can your heart not melt? The last few rubble pieces of that wall I had spent years forming vanished. I was completely open to him. I knew he wouldn't touch me unless I answered him though so I nodded, wasn't quite ready for words just yet, and kissed his neck.

After a few moments I was able to breath again. I pushed him up until he was standing in front of me. My hands found their way to the top of his shorts and undid the ties that held them up. As my hands slid them down, I brought my mouth toward his inner thigh and softly brushed my lips and tounge against his skin. I heard a very peculiar sound come from him. Well whadaya know...the Turtles do actually churr when you arouse them... Take note of that folks, they do churr and it is a wonderful sound to hear. Finding the slit I was looking for wasn't hard either and I was impressed that he had that much self control to keep it penned up while he worked his magic on me. Now it was time to return the favor, softly I brushed my fingers over it, this time I was rewarded with a moan/churr combo. I could listen to that sound all night...

I continued to work my lips and tounge on him as my hand worked on his slit, slowly coaxing him out, listing to Leo's churrs of pleasure above me. I felt his hands in my hair, gently running his fingers through it. Finally I felt him drop into my hand with a moan and I removed my mouth from this thigh. Oh my, he was well built down there also. I took him into my mouth and I heard him gasp and his fingers tighten in my hair but he quickly let go and pulled them out. Dear, sweet Leo, he didn't want to hurt me in any way, not even by accidently pulling my hair. I softly let my mouth work on him and used my hand for what I couldn't reach. The dual motion of both my mouth and hand set of a series of moans and churrs from him, his hands stroking my head but being careful not to entangle those fingers in my hair. He didn't try to push my head to further get himself inside me more, he just let me go at my own pace. A pace he was obviously enjoying.

Finally he pulled himself away from me and, grabbing my hand, he gently pulled me to my feet. His hands then went to the hem of my night dress and this time I didn't hesitate a moment as he pulled it off. He looked at me with again with those glorious eyes of his, his hand caressing my cheek. "Are you sure?" He asked very quiet.

"Yes." Was my simple reply. He sat on my bed and took my hand and pulled me toward him, then he guided me to where I was straddling him on my knees. I felt his warm arms wrap around me to support me as I lowered myself onto him. The feeling of him inside me made a low moan escape my lips. I started to move, I brought my arms around him and pulled him as close as I could while I moved against him. There was nothing else that mattered at that moment, just me and him moving as one while the full moon shone through the window, the only sounds were our sounds of pleasure. At that moment everything was ignored but our need for each other. I was his and he was mine. I pulled him into a kiss as I grew close, he could feel me start to tighten up around him but I wasn't quite there yet. He removed an arm from behind me to my front and then lowered his hand, brushing me with a finger. That sent me over the edge and I held him firmly, pulling him as close as I could while my lips were pressed to his. I used his mouth to muffle my cries of pleasure as once again waves of release washed over me. His hold tightened on me as he too let himself go, his churr a long and low one this time. I collapsed against him, fully spent, the only thing holding me up were his strong arms. He shifted me around to where I was sitting on his lap, then he softly kissed my hair.

"Leo..." I sighed as I snuggled against him feeling his warm arms around me, holding me close to him. I leaned my head on his shoulder just happy to be so close to him. At that moment I felt complete, whatever happens in the future Leo would always know that I cared deeply for him. The thought of him leaving still brought a tear to my eye but at least I had this one moment with him. Refusing to cry and spoil this wonderful memory I let myself drift off to sleep in his arms secure in the knowledge that he would watch over me.

I woke up the next morning to the sound of the kids fighting over who got to use the bathroom first and the smell of breakfast drifting in. I could hear the TV on, Saturday morning cartoon apparently. I was lying in bed with the covers wrapped snugly around me. Confused at first I wondered why the hell was I butt friggin naked, then I remembered what happened last night. Still groggy with sleep, I thought at first I had dreamt the whole thing until I woke up enough to take in my surroundings. On the pillow next to me was a single white flower. I couldn't help the small smile that found it's way to my face.

I figured I had better get up and deal with the bathroom fight before someone got smacked upside the head with a shampoo bottle. I slowly got up and threw some clothes on. I opened the door to my room just in time to see a toothbrush come flying out of the bathroom. I sighed, it was going to be one of those days. I went in to see them playing tug of war with the toothpaste. Well that wasn't going to end well...

"Give me that." And I took it from them. I got a dual set of 'Oh shit, Mommy is up.' looks. "Amy brush your teeth. Dennis you go up front and wait your turn."

"But I wanna brush my teeth first!" Came the predictable whine.

"Up front. Now." Stomping every step of the way, he finally complied. I sighed and turned to help my daughter. If I let her do it own her own I'm going to scrape up toothpaste off of everything. Once she finished I called to Dennis that he could brush his teeth now and took Amy to her room to get her dressed. She picked out her clothes and got herself dressed with no problems, a lucky break for me, and I shooed her to go get some breakfast while I dealt with the stomp king. Finally I got them both at the table eating their breakfast that Mikey had made. I sighed as I plopped myself in a chair.

Mikey chuckled as he brought me a plate. "Rough morning?"

"It's always like this on the weekends." I told him. He just chuckled again. I looked around noticing the empty living room. "Where is everyone?"

"Out training. I thought I would stay here and get you guys something to eat started. We already ate."

"You didn't have to do that."

"I know I didn't have to, I wanted to."

I laughed. "Alright, you win. Thank you." He just winked and turned back to the stove to start cleaning up. After the kids finished eating I sent them outside. They had way to much energy this morning. I stayed inside and helped with the dishes, ignoring Mikey's protests. I just stuck my tounge out at him and did them anyway.

Finally with my kitchen back in order I went outside with Mikey. The kiddos were awfully quiet, usually not a good sign. I found them at the training area watching they guys train. Raph was pumping iron and Donnie and Leo were, what seemed to me, trying to beat the crap out of each other. I had to stop and stare for a moment. This was the first time I really watched them fight. Usually when they train I'm inside working, so I never really got to see this. They were beautiful to watch, their speed and grace taking my breath away. The kids were standing nearby watching in awe. Mikey went over to Raph and asked him if he was ready for a round, to which Raph nodded. Then they too unleashed their skill on each other. I walked over to the kids. "You guys stay away from them while they train. You can watch but don't get to close ok?" I got two nodding heads in reply, I knew I could trust them, they do listen believe it or not, so I went back into the house to take a quick shower before they guys came in to take theirs.

After I got done, I wrapped myself and my hair in towels and went to my room. Apparently just in time because I heard the front door open. I looked at the flower on my bed and I sat down on the bed and picked it up. I just sat there holding it my hand, my thoughts far away at that moment. It was just a simple wild flower, they grow all over the place here, but very pretty. I smiled again, this was something you never get to see on TV about Leo. Again he manged to surprise me.

"I take it you like the flower?" Yup, this time I jumped.

"Do you have to do that?"

He gave me that half grin of his. "Actually, yes I do." He came over to the bed and sat next to me.

I couldn't help but smile. "Yes, I love the flower." I looked at him. "Thank you, and I don't mean just for the flower either."

He reached out and pulled me close to him, wrapping an arm around me. Then he kissed my cheek. "Your very welcome. I'm going to go get cleaned up." I nodded and got up myself to start getting dressed. Leo had just left my room and closed the door, how the hell does he do that without it squeaking?, when I heard someone barge into the house. "Leo!" Came Donnie's voice "I think I figured out what happened. And I might know a way to get us back home." With those words I felt my heart drop in my chest and I sank back to the bed. Those words I really didn't want to hear just yet...and they stung as I replayed them in my mind. I didn't hear Leo's reply because I was to busy listening to my heart break. No I should be happy for him, he was going home where he belonged. I pulled myself together and refused to wallow in self pity. I knew this was going to happen, we both did. I was going to be stronger than that, I was going to let him go. It was the right thing to do. But why did it have to hurt so much...