By day four, Doctor Whooves had known as much about Derpy Hooves as he could; while cold, she was as gentle as she could be to her little sister, as much as a smart mouth she was, she was soft as she was able to be to those she cared about, often telling the Doctor about her friends like Carrot Top, whose real name was Golden Harvest and Berry Punch, who as much as she often got drunk, was as much as a role model to her little sister, Piña Colada as she could be.

"I don't have many friends; you can see why obviously but those that I do, I try to be there for them if they are there for me." Derpy Hooves said softly to the Doctor while drinking from an entire bottle of hard cider, the Apple family, she had informed him, started bottling the alcohol on request of Princess Celestia.

Derpy was drunk, shit-faced as was the term which was why she was 'pouring her heart out', to the Doctor on the evening of the third day after he had his talk with Dinky. The two sat on the couch while she talked, her first intention was to get a cigarette in her drunken state but she had changed direction and sat by the Doctor who was reading from a magazine about decent designs of wallpaper and curtains, once he had gotten the apartment of course and she started to just talk.

The Doctor listened to her words calmly, ignoring her breath as she got close to his own to make her point, hoping he got the point even though she would not remember her words.

She told him of everything from her past, from getting addicted to drugs with a unicorn mare with an electric blue mane and tail with dark purple shades with a two bridged eighth notes as her Cutie Mark every Friday, letting Rarity the unicorn or even Futtershy take care of Dinky while Derpy snorted cocaine and got drunk with the mare, sometimes even having Rainbow Dash come over and try to stop her from continuing down her dark path, often ending in a physical fight that Derpy won in her hazed state, the fourth forcing Vinyl Scratch to kick her out of her house due to destroying much of her home in the brawl.

"After I got kicked out, I understood finally what Rainbow was trying to tell me, that I was hurting my sister emotionally and mentally if not physically, I was hurting the only pony that would always be there for me…I was becoming just like my father." Derpy sniffed, her ego wounded and with a hiccup she turned away from the stallion before he could lay a hoof in comfort to the Pegasus who used her tail to grab a cigarette, putting it in her mouth before grabbing a match and lighting it, lighting the smoke as she inhaled deeply before she exhaled out her nose, her eyes closed as the Doctor saw a single tear slide down her left eye.

Wiping her eye with a hoof, Derpy rolled over, landing on her wooden floor and with a sigh said "So after that, I gave it up, as much as I could…my soul will never be pure like my sister's, I'll always have sin, but at least I'll do the best I can to always be there for my only family. Thanks Doc…I guess you can do more than just be a lazy, dumb ass stallion. I'm going to bed, you can have the rest of the cidar if you want." She whispered and turned away, her tail swishing slowly before she walked up the stairs, not even allowing the Doctor to say one word, but he had been there for her in her time of need, certainly that meant something, right?

The Doctor looked at the little amount of cidar the mare left him and ignored it, his mind wandering with how lucky he was, he had found the Gods, they have saved his soul and he had never wished to get into the drugs that Derpy herself had, being fine with a drink every once in a while, but never having as much as the Pegasus herself.

With a loud sigh, he put the blanket over himself and drifted off to sleep, praying to Princess Luna in her realm above that maybe one day, Derpy could finally get rid of her dark past that followed her with every hoof step she took.

The next morning was one that surprised the stallion, not by the action of what Derpy was doing, but by what she was creating before his eyes. He had woken up later then he expected and saw the gray furred mare making muffins, her tongue out in constriction and her eyes narrowed as she whisked the batter to make oat muffins, a freshly made batch of red velvet with cream cheese swirled, six in all and another of carrot to the side of her, cooling off.

Her eyes, well her right to be exact looking at him in annoyance as her left slid upwards, she scowled before turning back to her batter, the Doctor's mind flashing back to last night and her heart felt confession of guilt, chaining her soul from finding peace with herself or love, for that matter.

"What, you want to say something or just stand there like an idiot?" her harsh voice snapped him out of his mental thoughts making him sigh.

"Well, it's clear she does not remember our conversation, a shame really but she was drunk." He thought before slowly trotting up to her, looking at the desserts she prepared, for what purpose was unclear to him though.

"It's nice to see you cooking again." He spoke wincing and slightly cursing himself for the way he said it as her face looked up in anger, her teeth gritting before she spat.

"Why, you think all mares should only be in the kitchen making food for you to have or in the bedroom for you to impregnate and take care of your babies? Buck you!" she shouted as he stepped back in shock, used to her rage but he had not meant to insult her, only to tell her she was doing a good job, though she had taken it the wrong way.

"I'm sorry, I did not mean to insult you and no, I do not think the same as many stallions. I know that all mares can do just the same as stallions, I only mean-"

"Doc, if you're here to just watch me bake like some sort of damn stalker then get out of my kitchen, otherwise, shut the buck up and go get the Blueberry mix and help me, I'm not going to have you stand there while I cook, you'll just get on my nerves." She growled before he went to do as ordered and help her prepare the next batch for the oven.

Fifth teen minutes of silence was all that was in the house before the stallion took a chance and decided to speak, choosing his words carefully to not offend Derpy.

"So…what is with all the muffins?" he asked softly, the mare ignoring him for a few seconds before she poured her mix into six separate muffins slots and put the gray tray in the oven before walking over and getting the dry banana mix, two eggs, milk and washing the bowl she had used before mixing the ingredients and making the new batch of muffins.

"For a party Rainbow Dash is having to celebrate her relationship to Applejack, you'll meet them later after the damn storm is over which should be in a few hours, apparently they have confessed their love to each other for a while but Rainbow wanted to wait until after the storm to have the party, I get paid by the Cake family for bringing this and more muffins to their shop, so you know…a few more bits are always a good thing, right?" she replied causing the Doctor to nod with a smile as the two worked in silence for a half an hour.

After making three more trays of the same type, they washed their hooves then sat down, trying one, Derpy, red velvet and the Doctor, blueberry while drinking milk before Derpy lit a cigarette and blew the gray smoke away from the stallion which surprised him.

"Thanks for the help, Doc; it would have taken me an hour to make them by myself." Derpy said shyly, for once her cold nature gone to be replaced by a gentle, soft voice, almost causing the Doctor to choke on his muffin but swallowed as he looked at the mare who glanced at him with an eyebrow raised as she inhaled and exhaled her cigarette from her nose.

"Your…your welcome, um, Derpy." He answered, a bit uncomfortable with the almost caring way Derpy Hooves was speaking to him, silently wondering if the mare was drunk again.

"You're welcome…just don't get used to it, Doc." Derpy spat before putting out her cigarette in the ashtray on the table and getting off her chair, finishing her muffin and milk before using her tail to grab the glass and deposing it in the sink, walking out of the kitchen as the Doctor sighed, and with a smile, ate the rest of his muffin.

The Doctor was able to put his own glass in the sink before a small gray furred filly entered his vision and caused him to grin.

"OH, muffins!" Dinky spoke before taking one of the red velvet and taking a bite, with a large smile she licked the cream cheese that had appeared on her snout and looked at the stallion in front of her.

"Hi, Doctor Whooves." The filly said with joy before she ate the rest of her snack and walked back to her room, the Doctor following her out the kitchen before looking to see Derpy on his 'bed' taking a nap as he chuckled.

A knock at the door made him jump before he walked to it and upon opening it saw a cyan furred mare with a rainbow colored mane and tail, magna colored eyes and a cloud with a lighting rainbow colored Cutie Mark on her flank, she much have been Rainbow Dash, the mare Derpy and Dinky talked about a few times.

"Oh, hey, you must be new in town. Names Rainbow Dash, who are you?" she asked in a blunt manner causing the Doctor to frown before speaking his name in which he mare only nodded, looking as if she did not really care.

"Hey, is Derpy Hooves here?" Rainbow Dash asked with a hint of impatience causing the Doctor to not like the mare's tone but he supposed he was not one to judge seeing as how Derpy acted towards him all the time.

"Yes, one second," he replied before walking towards the mare in question who was snoring lightly before he gently poked her with a hoof "Derpy, Derpy wake up…there is somepony here to see you." He said softly causing the mare to open her eyes and glare at him before getting up and with a yawn walked towards the open door in which Rainbow Dash was waiting.

"Oh hey Derpy, what's going on-?"

"What do you want, Rainbow?" Derpy growled annoyed that her sleep had been put on pause by the mare who, though as helpful as she had been to provide her with a job and help her settle in her house, even going as far as to stop her from her drug abuse, annoyed her the most.

"I…I was sent here to tell you that the storm is over and if you got the muffins the Cakes needed for the party, you know the one celebrating mine and Applejack's rel-"

"Yeah, I know about it, and the muffins are ready. Storms over you say, finally. Now I can kick that bastard stallion out of my house." Derpy cheered with a dark smile making the rainbow mare a bit uncomfortable as she rubbed her left arm with her right hoof.

"Um, yeah, I guess that's great news, anyway-"

"Party's at four, like you and Pinkie Pie both told me…three times to be exact, I know. So I'll see you then." Derpy harshly interrupted the mare making her narrow her eyes in annoyance.

"Well yeah, the party to but I been meaning to ask-"

"The stallion is none of your business, Dash, so Dinky and I will see you at four, alright, bye." She spat before closing the door but not before hearing Rainbow Dash ask if she can borrow a cigarette to which the gray Pegasus ignored with a roll of her eyes and slammed the door in her face.

"Asshole." Rainbow Dash whispered with a snort before she opened her wings, flapped them then flew into the now open and clear sky from the horrible storm that both Mayor Mare and Princess Celestia ordered to be brought to her and many other towns across Equestria.

As Rainbow Dash flew throughout the clear blue sky which shore with the Goddess of the Sun's bright, orange star she thought of the dark past that she had had with Derpy herself, understanding a bit of why she had felt so much resentment and malice from the Pegasus that she had known for the past ten years, her mind flashing back to an important day that changed her view on her 'friend'.

*Flash Back*

It was the twenty first birthday of Thunderlane; a black furred male Pegasus with a dark gray coat, amber eyes, and a blue/sliver mane and tail with the Cutie Mark of a gray cloud flashing a single yellow lightning bolt and the current coltfriend of Derpy Hooves who was seventeen during the time and, with no surprise she was smoking a cigarette as he drunk a plastic cup of apple vodka holding it in his right wing.

Derpy laughed as Thunderlane whispered something into her left ear making him roll his eyes with a smile before Rainbow Dash with her current creature friend, Gilda the female griffon having the lower body of a lion complete with the lion's tail and the upper half of an eagle with her two razor sharp yellow talons with golden eyes as she barked in anger at a male Pegasus who came to close to her with her sharp, curved yellow beak.

"What up, Derp? Hey Thunder…happy birthday, little boy." Rainbow Dash laughed, obviously tipsy causing the stallion to laugh before replying.

"Hey, Dash, been hitting the liquor a bit too hard, don't you think?" he asked with a laugh making the mare scoff before looking over to her creature friend who stole a plastic cup of grape vodka from a mare Pegasus before chugging all of it and tossing it behind her, hitting a drunk stallion in the head.

"Nah, Dashie is still good to go a few more rounds before she falls asleep on a lighting cloud like last time." She sneered as the mare turned to her, giving her an evil glare before turning to Derpy who had put out her cigarette on the floor, knowing that nopony or creature would care.

Derpy laughed as Gilda starting to mock Rainbow Dash behind her back, the poor Pegasus having no clue as Derpy was not hearing a word the mare was saying to her before a mare rudely slammed into her right shoulder, causing her to stumble into Rainbow Dash before she turned, seeing the spiked blue/sliver mane and tail of Cloudchaser, with her pale Persian blue coat and rose colored eyes, the mare hating Derpy since she had gotten into a relationship with Thunderlane a month ago but never physically confronting her until now it seemed.

Derpy eyes narrowed, her left glaring at the mare in question while her right slid to the left of her, observing Cloudchaser who was hanging around with her sister, Flitter, who had a dark shade of blue with the same blue/silver mane and tail and a pink bow in her mane though Derpy what not sure which Cutie Mark Flitter had on her flank, nor did she care while she knew that Cloudchaser had the sun with a single cloud in front of it, Derpy knowing of such because she always flashed her flank in front of Derpy's face as if to say.

"Your boy doesn't know what he's missing out on." Which made her either ignore her to grit in teeth in rage or to make her want to slap the grin off her cocky face, as if what the blue furred whore was really even a challenge compared to Derpy's own body, but now, now she had enough of all the shit the bitch was putting her through.

She took three steps forward towards the mare when she felt a yellow talon on her left shoulder as she turned to see the usually drunk and encouraging of fights griffon shake her head.

"She's not worth it, Derp. Just ignore her, seriously." She growled before her talon was slapped aside by the cold mare. "Stay out of this, Gilda, this is personal, I'm so sick and tired of her shit, she wants to start something, then I'll oblige to her sense of jealously." Derpy snarled ignoring Thunderlane's protest to leave it alone, and moving through the crowd of drunken teenagers as she thought of her friendship with Gilda, the griffon was good to go to for drugs, booze or even a laugh or two but she got irritated by her attitude of pride and arrogance swiftly which made her often ignore Rainbow Dash's creature friend until she bluntly made her presence known to her.

With a snort of warm, exhaled air Derpy's rage only increased as she stood behind the mare of her frustration and tapped her shoulder with a hoof as Cloudchaser turned around, annoyed to be pulled away from her friends because of some pony she may not know.

"What do you want you-?"

Were the mare's only words before a sharp hooked right hoof slammed hard into her jaw forcing her to stumble back from the blow, her jaw aching with pain she did not think was possible, moving her mouth to make she it was not broken she opened her eyes and stared at the pony who dared to physically assault her as she looked at the enraged face of Derpy Hooves, the face serious making Cloudchaser wince in pain from her bruised jaw as she narrowed her eyes in anger and shock.

"Derpy?!" she shouted, the noise from the party drowning out her words but those near the two heard her words and quickly forming a crowd over the 'drunken' fighting mares, making bets on who of the two would win.

"You have a problem with me now that I got your attention, bitch?!" Derpy shouted before flapping her wings, quickly lifting into the air before diving fast towards her opponent who has no time to open her wings and lift into the air let alone dodge before Derpy's forehooves slammed into her chest, throwing her into a priceless mirror that hung on Thunderlane's parents wall for his mother while the injured mare slammed back first into the wall, her back and sides covered with long, sharp shards of glass as she dropped to the floor, her spine and flank bleeding which Cloudchaser ignored before standing on her four hooves, wobbling a bit from the pieces of embedded glass in her coat.

With a growl Cloudchaser ran towards Derpy and threw a fast speed swing towards the mare hitting her hard in the cheek, she grunted as pain registered in her face and with a second's hesitation uppercutted Cloudchaser in the chin before quickly turning and slamming her two rear hooves into her chest, throwing her hard into the living room table which broke upon the sudden weight, the shards in her back slicing open her wounds even more but she barely noticed.

Cloudchaser could not even lift her head before Derpy flew over her and pounding her face hard with her hooves, showing no mercy nor restraint towards her actions, Cloudchaser's nose, lips and her left eye bleeding before she finally found the strength to pound her left back hoof into Derpy's stomach then slammed her in the face with both front hooves, the gray furred mare getting a black right eye and her bottom lip splitting open dripping into Cloudchaser's chest fur as she did not notice her wounds and continued to beat the living shit out of her enemy.

"Get off her, leave her alone you crazy, jealous bitch!" Fritter shouted trying to help her sister but Derpy was having none of it.

"Get the buck away from ME!" she screamed and back hoofed the mare in the face with her right front hoof forcing her to stumble back to dodge the blow and trip on a discarded bottle of grape vodka as her head slammed into a nearby small table stand, blood slowly dripping from the heavily inflected wound, her friends trying to help her and her sister but the enraged mare paid nopony any attention before she flapped her wings, lifting herself and Cloudchaser into the air, the mare near unconsciousness as Derpy threw her harshly into a mobile speaker playing from the DJ Pegasus as she showed no guilt, the mare getting fried by the thousands of volts of electricity.

Cloudchaser was barely breathing after the fight was finished; Derpy breathing hard and glaring anypony to dare lay a hoof on her as she landed onto the clouded floor, Cloudchaser friends helped the near death pony from the large speaker who should not have been alive.

Derpy's body finally realized the pain she had as she held a hoof to her head then turned to go to her friends, ignoring the DJ, a stallion whose name she did not know, demanding she pay for repairs to his beautiful system.

She took three, painful steps to her friends before Thunderlane's body blocked her own as she smiled, blood dripping from her mouth, his eyes were narrowed and her mouth set in an angered frown making her frown but in confusion.

"You know what your problem is, Derpy Hooves? You think you can take on everything in all Equestria by yourself, you don't give a shit what comes your way just as long as you can settle it by violence." He growled, his eyes shifting to Cloudchaser's body with her friends flying to get her to the hospital before they went to her sister whose friends was trying to do the same.

"Thunderlane, I-"

"No, you know what, we're through. You don't give a shit about anypony but yourself and with the road you're going now you never will. It's over Derpy, have a nice bucking life." Thunderlane spoke cruelly before flapping his wings to chase after Cloudchaser, no doubt to comfort her which make Derpy sniff then wince as she felt a headache creep into her head.

Derpy frowned, she did not mean for any of this to happen, she was just tired of Cloudchaser's mocking and jealous nature, she did not want things to go this far. She lifted her head as Rainbow Dash and Gilda walked towards her, Rainbow's eyes narrowed her rage, she slapped Derpy in the face hard with her left front hoof, the mare herself not even feeling the blow through her depressed thought.

"You happy now, bitch! Huh, are you BUCKING HAPPY NOW!" Rainbow Dash screamed into her face about to hit her again but was stopped by Gilda who shook her head.

Derpy sighed loudly, wincing again as a long line of blood ran down her nose.

"You got a cigarette?" she asked quietly, Gilda threw her, her nicotine before shaking her head, her eyes filled with pity and shame for the mare before tossing her a long match.

"Come on, Rainbow, let's go smoke some Hay Weed, try to get this party going a bit more. I suggest you leave Derp. Before you cause any more damage to anypony else." Gilda growled lightly making Derpy only nod as she took the cigarette and match in her tail and walked away towards the front door where a butter furred mare with a pink mane and tail with cyan blue eyes and the Cutie Mark of three butterflies on her flank was just now entering, her eyes widening around the house as she saw the destruction caused by one mare.

"Hey, Flutter's, come for the party?" Derpy whispered watching Fluttershy look up and see Derpy's injuries, her eyes holding shock and pity for whatever happened to the mare.

"O…oh, Derpy, yes I…I got here a bit late, I'm sorry-"

"It's alright, Shy, party seems to be over anyway…and yes, Dash is here. She's over by the Hay Weed smokers in the back, have fun trying to sweet talk her and don't worry, you'll get her one day just do what I said and be yourself." Derpy interrupted softly, not wanting to get into her wounds with the mare.

Derpy Hooves was the only one who knew that Fluttershy had a crush on her best friend, Rainbow Dash but swore to never tell and even tried to help the mare but to no avail with Fluttershy's very shy nature, and with Gilda it made it five times harder for Derpy to help, still…she did what she could.

Excusing herself from her friend and ignoring the mare's quite protest to allow her to help heal her wounds, Derpy stepped into the cold, clear sky, the party doing what it could to get back into swing as she took her cigarette in her mouth from her tail then lit the match, igniting the nicotine before inhaling deeply then exhaling out the right side of her mouth, lost in thoughts of her wounds, her break up with Thunderlane, her abandonment from her friends and even feeling a tad guilty on almost killing Cloudchaser and her sister.

With an angered snort, Derpy swore that she would never let anypony but family get so close to her again, maybe Fluttershy but she was an exception. She did not need anypony else, she did not want anypony else, call it pride and a very bad case of it but Derpy had had enough of allowing ponies to walk over her because of her eyes or messing up on a test or such, she was done.

"Buck everypony else, if I want something done, I'm doing it myself…nopony else will mock me again." she growled to herself before flapping her wings and lifting into the air, she flew towards her house, where her life would forever change because of her cruel actions.

*End of flash back*

Rainbow Dash sighed loudly as her mind was reeled from the past to reality, where she was helping clear clouds with the other Pegasus around her, hoping to be with her marefiend, Applejack and to be with her best friends at the party, knowing that while Fluttershy had a long time crush on her, she had found love in Rarity, the two dating now for two years now longer then Rainbow Dash and Applejack herself who only been together for a month.

"Seems like nothing can keep Derpy from her past, her sins, not her friends, her drugs or even her family…is her soul really doomed to Tartarus because of her actions?" She whispered to herself, shook her head to clear her thoughts, and hoping to have a cigarette before she met up with Applejack turned and used her rear hooves to dissolve the cloud in front of her, her mind still on her lost, cruel friend's soul.

Author's note: So...yeah, Derpy Hooves verses Cloudchaser, thoughts on that? LOL, I'll admit, this chapter was really dark, why? Because I really enjoy bringing a more real style to MLP rather then just flowers and sunshine like it's meant for the little kids, you don't like it, oh well.

As for the romance, that will be on the next chapter, promise...you all think I should make one more chapter after five, or leave it like it is? It's up to you, but I may need ideas if the new chapter comes to past...enjoy.