My hands were shaking as Carlisle and I walked through the forest. Neither of us had spoken, he had just repeatedly asked me what's wrong in his thoughts. I had just ignored him and kept walking.

Oh, he had no idea what was wrong.

Edward, where are we going? he asked after we passed the tree that Jasper and I always met at. Nobody can hear us.

"I know," I whispered, my voice unable to get stronger. Why was I so nervous? I didn't even think it was possible for vampires to get nervous, let alone hand shaking nervous.

"Edward," Carlisle said, and he put his hand on my shoulder. "Son, what's wrong?"

Son. He thinks of me as his son.

I didn't say anything. I couldn't. What was I even doing? I couldn't be about to tell my father I had a crush on him. That for the past two weeks I'd been able to think of nothing but him. That if I could dream, I'd be dreaming of him, and not Bella, my fiancée.

But I had to tell him! I couldn't just think these things without him ever knowing! Jasper was right; I needed to get rejected! I needed it!

So why couldn't I just say it?

I opened my mouth, getting ready to say it, to tell him, and his phone rang.

His fucking phone rang.

I closed my mouth, and Carlisle looked at me apologetically before answering it.

"Hello? Jasper, what's wrong?"

Today will be the day Jasper dies.

"What? No, I would've heard, but Edward said he wanted to talk with me in private."

Yeah, that's right, Jazz, I was doing what you told me to do. Now HANG THE FUCK UP.

When he didn't hang up that very second, I started planning ways to torture him for this. Obviously he was just fucking with me by calling Carlisle the second I was about to tell him about my feelings. Maybe he was out in the forest listening to us. I scanned the forest for thoughts other than Carlisle's, and all I got were several animals.

Could something actually be wrong?

I shoved my feelings of anger away and started listening to Carlisle and Jasper's conversation.

"She and Emmett were playing Wii, and then she went to go get somethin' to drink, and we all heard this thump," Jasper explained. "When we went in there, she was lying on the ground, passed out."

Bella's hurt?

"Where is she now?" Carlisle asked, transitioning into Doctor Mode. "You guys got her off the floor, right?"

"Yes, of course!" I head Alice cry from somewhere else in the room Jasper was in. "She's only gonna be okay if you and Edward come home right now!"

"Okay, okay, we're on our way," Carlisle said, then he hung up and looked at me. "Edward, son,-" Flinch. "-we must get home to Bella. We can talk another time, yes?"

I nodded. "Yes, of course, Carlisle."

As we ran back to the house, I tried not to be angry with Bella.

The anger was completely irrational. It's not like Bella somehow planned to fall and hit her head just so I wouldn't be able to tell Carlisle my feelings. Or…did she? It would make sense; if Carlisle reciprocated my feelings, I would be forced to leave her for him. By making sure I didn't ever tell him, she was making sure that I would stay with her.

When we arrived at the house, I had come to the conclusion that I was going insane.

Why would my fiancée purposely fall and hurt herself just so I wouldn't leave her? How did she even know about my feelings about Carlisle, anyway? Did Alice…? No. She wouldn't. She better not have. The little pixie would definitely –

"Edward?"

I looked up to see Carlisle staring at me. We were in the kitchen, and I had been looking at the floor while immersed in my thoughts.

"Yes, Carlisle?"

"Bella is in your room." Are you alright, son?

Son. That was really starting to get to me. "Yes, I'm fine. I'll go up and see her."

I went upstairs and into my room, and Bella opened her eyes. She looked paler than usual, and she has an ice pack sitting on top of her head. Good job, Jasper. An ice pack.

"Hi." She smiled sheepishly. "I fell in the kitchen."

The girl in front of me was so completely innocent that it made my dead heart ache. How could I ever have thought of her doing something so malicious? She had just…fallen.

"I swear, Bella," I said, smiling and shaking my head, "you have two left feet. What happened?"

Her smile grew less sheepish and more genuine, and she sat up a little. "I was going to get a drink, and I guess Esme had just mopped the floor, and I slipped and fell. The next thing I remember, I'm in here and Esme is giving me pain relievers."

"How did she know what pain relievers to give you?" Esme was the wife of a doctor, so she did know some things, but she usually consulted Carlisle before giving Bella any medication.

"She called him. You didn't notice?"

I really hadn't noticed. Good thing, too. I might have growled. "No, I guess not. I was really worried, Bella."

She smiled a bit more, and I wondered how loopy the pain medication was making her. "I'm okay, Edward. Really. Just a small headache."

I sat down next to her on the bed and held her hand. "That's from all the drugs Esme gave you. Your head should hurt more in a couple hours."

"Don't tell her that!" Esme cried, coming into the room. "Your head will be fine, honey."

I just rolled my eyes, trying not to notice how she hadn't completely tamed her fuck hair. "I'm just being honest with the girl."

"Well still." Esme started adjusting Bella's pillow, rubbing the spot where she hit her head, just being all…motherly.

That's all Esme was, really. And she was good at it. She was meant to have kids, and I guess a group of perpetual teenagers was gonna have to suffice. But Esme would never complain even if it wasn't enough for her.

Carlisle came into the room then, but I zoned out. I didn't want to have to see him and Esme work together to make sure my fiancée was alright. What I wanted, more than ever, was to just go back to the way things were before Bella. It was horrible of me to say that, and I hated myself for wanting it, because I really did love Bella, but things were so much simpler back then. Yes, I had been excruciatingly lonely, but was all this really worth it?

A couple minutes later Carlisle left, the conversation I almost had with him distracting me from my beautiful fiancée.

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