Tragedy's and Heartache.

By the time Izzie got back to Meredith's room, Derek had arrived.

"You paged me 911 for Meredith. Is she ok? Whats happening?"

"Dr. Shepherd, you shouldn't have been paged, we paged the other Dr. Shepherd, Addison."

"Why do you need my ex-wife down here? Whats going on? TELL ME WHATS GOING ON GOD DAMMIT!"

"DEREK CALM DOWN!!!! Some one get him out of here NOW!" Dr. Bailey was losing her patience. Derek was meant to stay at home and out of the way. Now someone had messed up the paging and paged Derek instead of Addison.

"Somebody page Dr. ADDISON shepherd and stat! And where is that god damn portable ultrasound monitor?"

"Dr. Bailey, Addison is on her way down now. There are no portable ultrasound kits available at this moment in time"

"FOR GODS SAKE SOMEONE PAGE THE CHIEF!!!!"

The gasp Christina let out said it all; she collapsed when she took it all in.

"Wha….wha….what happened? Is…. Is she going to be….alright?" Christina couldn't breathe, she was gasping for air. Her lips turned blue and she started to shake from the imaginary cold breeze. Burke ran over to her and gave her an oxygen mask. After about 15 minutes in Burke's arms she began to return to reality.

She looked out of the window that looked upon the nurse's station that was located outside of Meredith's room. There stood George, Izzie, and now the Chief who had just walked towards the room. Alex cam running down the hall towards the room.

"What happened? How is she? Does anyone know what is going on?" Alex was getting agitated.

"We don't know. All we know is that they have paged Addison. Alex im so scared"

"I know." Izzie rested on Alex's chest as Alex pulled her into a hug. Christina was backing away all the while.

"I can't do this. Not again. Nu uh no way." Christina ran out of the corridor towards the stairwell.

"Christina" Izzie called after her but it was no use.

"Iz, just leave her, she will come back. She did last time, its just a little hard on her, you know seeing "her person" like that in that sort of state again. It's hard. Especially after her dad and all of that stuff."

"Just, shut up, just shut up." Izzie pulled herself closer into Alex's chest. She couldn't bare it any longer. Meredith was her person too. Alex was just staring. He had secrets of his own that he wanted to tell Meredith but could never find the right time to tell her. All he wanted was for her to pull through so that he could tell her his news. News that would shock both himself and Meredith.

"What the hell?" Dr. Bailey was watching her heart monitor carefully. Meredith heart rate was increasing, and then stopped.

"Code blue, code blue, gimmie those paddles! NOW!"

"Charge to 120, clear?"

"Clear" there was still no change.

"Still no input. Push 1 of epi stat."

All the while Meredith was waking up, somewhere where she had been before and never wanted to return to again.

"Hey Mer. What are you doing back here?"

"I don't know, I don't know mom. Im so scared. I can't breathe."

"It will pass baby, you just gotta ride it." Ellis was growing concerned with her daughter's appearance in the afterlife. She knew that she didn't have much time left and was beginning to panic that her daughter would never return to her body and live the rest of her life to the full.

"Mom, I don't want to be here anymore, why can't I go back? I didn't do anything. One minute I was arguing with Derek and the next…." Tears began to come streaming down Meredith's Cheek. She didn't want to be here, Ellis could see that, but before Meredith returned to her body, she needed to work out why she was there and not with her own body.

"Meredith do you remember me?" Meredith turned around to see the woman who died during childbirth, whom she had tried to save but only managed to save the baby.

"Yeah, your Liza, the woman who came in and had cardio arrest whilst giving birth."

"Yeah, you saved my babies life. I never did get to thank you, so I suppose ill say it now. Thank you. How is my little girl doing? Is she out of SCBU yet?"

"I think so. Alex is taking great care of her. He hasn't named her yet. I thin that he is still reeling from the fact that he is the father. He never ever thought that anonymous sperm donations came with a way of tracking him down." both Meredith and Liza laughed at that. Meredith remembered the day when Alex had told her that he was going to do something useful with his life and donate his sperm anonymously so that women who wanted a child could have one.

Suddenly Liz grabbed Meredith's hand and whispered into her ear,

"It's time for you to go back now sweety. Say hello to my baby girl. And please, please, PLEASE name the baby Jayda Louise. Goodbye Meredith, take care" Liza wrapped her arms around Meredith and said goodbye. A white light suddenly blinded her. It was then she knew that she was returning to her own body.

"Was that b-fib? I just saw b-fib! Hand me those paddles again! Charge 280 clear?"

"Clear"

"We have sinus rhythm, heart rate is improving." Dr. Bailey leaned in closer towards Meredith.

"Don't you ever do that to me again do you hear me? I mean it! I'll just leave you to die next time!"

And with that, Meredith starting to choke on the endotracheal tube that had been placed down her throat to help her breathe. Almost immediately the chief took it out. Meredith's eyes fluttered open. She tried to speak but couldn't. There was one person she wanted to talk to. But she couldn't see her. Where was Christina?

"Welcome back Dr. Grey. Addison is on her way down and then after that we will need to run some more tests just to try and find out what had caused you to collapse."

"Christina…..i…..i….w…want…..Christina"

"I'll page her now. Now get some rest." Dr. Bailey stroked her hair out of Meredith's face and kissed her forehead before exiting the room with everybody else. She was alone and she wanted her person there with her. But where was she? Why wasn't she there waiting for her like she was before?

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